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I have been on this fun ride for quite some time, I have learned a lot not only about healthy eating and exercise but also about myself.

In the time I have been on Spark I have been laid off from 2 jobs, went through a horrendous break up, moved to a city where I knew nobody and watched my children grow from small elementary children to now a high school graduate and an almost middle schooler (my little one currently is in year round school and doesn't move onto middle school until later in June). Along with a whole lot of other exciting and some not so exciting things.

I have learned to embrace change, because without it life would be boring. I have learned to stand up for myself and try to be brave in the faces of uncertainty. I have learned to not just settle for anything really.

We all have the capability to move from where we are, we are not trees. I wasn't happy with my weight or my health, so I chose to change that. 2 years ago I hit 169 for my weight, I hadn't seen that number since my 20's no joke. I was riding that weight loss train like there was no tomorrow.

Nothing could stop me I was on my way...and then life was like "hey catch this!". I tore my calf muscle one day and my world stopped. I couldn't exercise, actually I could have I just couldn't do the exercise I wanted to do. So I decided I was going to wallow....and wallow I did. I slowly started to lose my strength I had built and I slowly started to gain weight again.

I kinda yo yo'd for awhile and then on Thanksgiving of 2016 my guys father called me a "little piggy" and continued to make references about my eating and whatnot (see my blog if you want to read about that lovely holiday). I was mortified and I let those words roll in my mind like little fish in a fish bowl. Christmas rolled around and the snide remarks still came at me from his father.

Two things happened that day, one I decided I was no longer going to spend time with his family because they are insensitive. Not everyone is, but I will not under any circumstances subject myself to someone being a bully. I also decided I was going to get back where I needed to be...which is essentially healthy for my girls. I need to be there for their graduations from elementary, middle and high school an onto college. I need to be there for their weddings and birth of my grandchildren.

I have had moments since 12/28/2016 where I have fallen ill, my calf bothered me, I wasn't feeling it, my tracking has been off, you name it I've dealt with it. But I'm still here, tracking and trying my best to stay on track. Sure I haven't lost as much weight as I had a few years ago, BUT I have accepted that a slow loss is going to benefit me in the long run.

I try to remember to fuel my body and not throw my meal planning out the window. I have to remind myself that even though meal prep is tedious...laziness does not save me money or get me healthy. I now take the train to work, which means I walk to and from the train station both to and from my house and to and from my work.

I have this one life and if I learn at almost 40 y/o's old that I need to take better of care it, then that is fine. I will get day at a time.

My numbers may not be the greatest, as you can see I've had my moments thus far. However I'm not ashamed, I have accepted my imperfections. I can look back and see how far I have come since 12/28/16. When I weighed myself that day I was almost to my highest weight and there was no way and never will I be at or beyond my highest weight ever again.

Member Since: 12/29/2009

Fitness Minutes: 146,448

My Goals:
Complete a Half Marathon =o)

ST at least 3x a week

Yoga 2x a week
219- 12/28/16
215- 1/4/17
210- 5/29/17
205- 06/05/17

My Program:
Strength training at home

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  • v DEB2448
    Welcome to spark people. This is a great site full of wonderful tools to use. By joining a few teams you will get support and motivation from other members. Good luck with your goals.
    (leader of OFF: Ongoing Fun & Fitness Team)
    (co-leader of Creative Challenges& Saintly Souls Team)
    4186 days ago
  • v no profile image MELANIE19877
    Hey! How are you? Thanks for the blog comment. I am going to try to find a pilates video to try it out.

    Congrats on joining SparkPeople. I see today is your first day.
    You're doing nursing? I am too. I start my first semester in two week. Are you doing associates or bachelors?
    4186 days ago
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