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Hello Sparkers, it's been quite the journey this year. Gained almost all of my lost weight back. I don't know what to say about it besides DAMN! But hey it happens, so I'm back and doing it right this time. I need to do it for myself and my health. I have too much to lose being over-weight. I'm gonna battle like I did before.

I have learned LOSING 100+ LBS and gaining some back is a very long journey within and outside. You can't do it without constant support and reminders of the past. Once you reach a certain mind set, things change. Things get harder but that's what's great, you've come so far even if it's just establishing that your ready for change again and again, I can tell you now from my life that you have what it takes & you will do it.


"Your greatest challenge isn't someone else. It´s the aching in your lungs,the burning in your legs and the voice inside that yells CAN"T. Don´t listen, push harder and hear the voice that yell's I CAN. You then realize that the person you thought you were is no match for the one you really are."

My names Meilene but everyone calls me Mae. I am 21 years old & I have changed my life since February 2009 by changing eating habits, learning to love exercise & by learning the strength I have physically & emotionally as a person. I struggle every single day from what to eat to how to exercise. I'm starting to revamp my attention toward being healthy not just weight loss, which is how I started my journey & lost sight of that along the way. My whole entire life has been focused on WEIGHT, but I started making healthier lifestyle changes back in February 2009 weighing in at 315lbs and I haven't looked back since, I cant even remember who I was before then.

-Life can be demanding and take almost everything you have from you. I lost sight of what I was becoming and stopped caring about myself. It hasnt been easy, but what in life is?

"Life is the ability to feel so happy, you think your insides are going to explode. it’s being so upset or disappointed, you feel as if your stomach just dropped ten feet out of place. it’s running so hard, you can barely breathe. it’s that feeling of panic when you know you’ve been caught doing something wrong. it’s having that sudden rush before you kiss someone you care about. it’s opening your eyes and feeling them sting because you spent the whole night crying. it’s letting people go, but letting new ones come in and all the while, realizing that life doesn’t have a purpose unless you let it."

Member Since: 9/8/2009

Fitness Minutes: 748

My Goals:
Live healthy.

My Program:
I started my health kick from a young age, nothing ever worked though. Until 2009 I started eating healthier and exercising, I did not let anything stop me. 2010 came around and I lost sight of what it was I was searching for by becoming healthier.

Personal Information:
I am from northern California and I have lived here my entire life. If you have any personal questions feel free to contact me through spark mail.

"Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better."

King Whitney Jr.

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***Looking for support!***

"The secret of happiness, you see, is not found in seeking more, but in developing the capacity to enjoy less. "--Socrates

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    3390 days ago
  • v JIBBIE49
    The motivator of the day.
    3390 days ago
    Congratulations on being MOD!!!
    3390 days ago
    Dear sweet girl I know where you are at....I have lost 100 pounds in the past and gained it all back a few times...I am allot older than you are....but you are much wiser...i wish when I was your age I could have had the insight you have into making this about HEALTH not weight....I too am on this journey again....started at 257...and what is making it different this time...is just that....I am not thinking scale numbers...I am not thinking skinny jeans and skinny dar...i am thinking about it in terms of HEALTH and LIFE and this is not just a diet...this is what I must do for the rest of my life...it is not a quick fix...it has helped me to get my head around that...if you want to add me we can support each other...you know you can do it..you've done it before....it's the fear of keeping it off that scares you for whatever reason...hang in there!! emoticon
    3391 days ago
  • v NEKEL16
    Hunny I so know what this is like I have always been big and twice before I have dropped lots of weight, in 1999 I dropped 5 stone and got down to a uk size 10-12
    gained it all back and some
    in 2003 I lost 6 stones which got me down to a size 20-22 uk size
    got pregnant and gained it all back again and some
    now i am fighting to lose 16 stones of weight I have lost 3stones (44lbs)
    This time around I have come to terms with that this battle is forever, I can never go back to eating the junk and too much of it.
    its true what they say its a complete change for life that is needed. All the best emoticon
    3391 days ago
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