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First time walking in the park in over 4 years! April, 2021

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Kari and Peaches - we were waking on a rainy day!

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Squeak and Ping snuggled up in my wheelchair.

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~~~~April 15, 2021
I had a huge victory this week! I walked at Firestone Park (a local metropark) which is something I haven't done for over four years. The .89 of a mile I walked (using my rollator) thrilled me! I found myself crying as I walked. They were tears of joy because I was doing something I never thought I'd be able to do again! I used to walk 4 to 6 miles a day. I don't think I'll ever be able to do that again BUT I WALKED IN THE PARK!
~~~~April 6, 2021
Thank goodness for the wonderful Spark friends who have not given up on me! Speedy 143's kind word brought me back from the brink of leaving Spark for good!
Things are looking up and I'm actually feeling much better physically. I have several more doctor appointments this month and next but hopefully this past illness will only be a memory soon!
Two promises I'm making to myself:
1. To start looking for opportunities rather than difficulties in life.
2. To focus on the positives in my life rather than the negatives.
~~~~ March 20, 2021
This year is not unfolding as I had wished or planned. January was fantastic with high energy, high motivation, an 8 pound weight loss, and feelings of success. Then... I started feeling unwell and soon was spiraling down. I started bleeding heavily and feeling weak and tired all the time. I had kidney stones a few years ago and was exhibiting similar symptoms so I went to the urologist. Yep - after several abdominal x-rays, a cat scan, and blood tests surgery was scheduled. (Strangely enough, I've never had any pain from the kidney stones.) Anyway, they did a cystoscopy, another procedure that involved a laser to break up the larger stones, and placed a stent from my left kidney to my bladder. That was all on March 4. The stent was taken out on March 15 and I've been feeling fine since. I took the last of the pain pills last night and will finish the antibiotics tomorrow.
I'm trying very hard to get back into the routine of coming to Spark every day but am finding it difficult. I was surprised to find a hurtful message the first time back and can't seem to find a way to get around the feeling that caused or the motivation to be here anymore. I was told that I had not been providing support for a friend as she had for me. She said that friendship evidently only worked from her end. To be honest, I was feeling so unwell at that time that Spark was not a priority to me. I had posted two short blogs about what was going on but I guess she didn't read them. I probably should have messaged my friends telling them why I wasn't around but I was honestly to weak and tired!
I'm so confused right now that I'm unsure about staying on Spark. I value the friends I've made here and and had always found the support I received to be phenomenal.
I truly think that I am afraid - afraid that I will fail another friend as much as I'm afraid that I'll receive another accusatory message.
I'm not going to make a final decision for a few weeks. I'm going to give myself time to feel better before I decide whether or not to end my time on Spark.

~~~~ Jan. 13, 2021
It's getting harder to keep my eating under control! I haven't been feeling well and not sleeping well. I'm tired and grumpy and achy - I just want to eat the foods I always turn to for comfort! I know that won't solve the problem or even offer short-term relief. I guess I'll just grunt and groan as I walk my circuit around the condo. One good thing is that I've lost 5 pounds so far this month (since Jan. 1). My goal for the month is 8 pounds and I'm determined to reach that goal!
~~~~ January 9, 2021
It's been 9 days since I started over here on Spark. Aside from one sick day, I've maintained my positive attitude and motivation!
Thank you for all the encouraging messages and support that has kept me going.
~~~~January 1, 2021
Here I am again! I started Spark 10+ years ago and successfully lost 100 pounds in the first year. I thought that weight loss would change my life but it didn't. I gained the weight back and started this journey over again time after time. I gave up on myself ever time I hit a bump in the road! The only consistency in my life was failure. I had gastric bypass surgery 18 months ago, and I even failed at that! I lost about 50 pounds but that was all. I am responsible because I continued eating in an unhealthy manner and didn't exercise.
Well, I know I'm older and I hope I'm wiser now! My abuse of my body through poor eating habits and lack of exercise finally took its toll. I am now disabled and deal with many medical issues on a daily basis. I have a caregiver four days a week for eight hours a day. Not only has my body deteriorated - so has my bank account!
I've spent the past few months thinking about how my life is and how I want it to be. I am finally accepting responsibility for this mess and for making positive changes! Although my 71st birthday is only a few months away, I firmly believe that it's never too late to improve your (MY) life!

Member Since: 1/2/2021

Fitness Minutes: 1,602

My Goals:
~ To Be able to walk in the local parks; to enjoy the sights, sounds, and smells of nature
~ To be physically able to take care of my household by myself
~ To be physically able to take care of myself by myself
~ To improve my daily dietary habits
~ To gain mobility and strength through exercise

My Program:
~ To stay within my assigned caloric intake daily and to list all I eat in the nutrition tracker.
~ To focus on eating more fruits and vegetables; to focus on protein intake
~ To walk at least 500 steps (inside) without my walker daily; to increase step number gradually
~ To do at least 30 minutes of strength exercises three days per week
~ To "work out" with videos at least three days per week
~ To journal daily; to write down the positives (no matter how small) in my life
~ To make my bed daily (instead of letting the caretaker do it)
~ To wash the dishes daily (instead of letting the caretaker do it)
~ To fix my own snacks and meals; to get up and get my own water (instead of letting the caretaker do it)

Personal Information:
I am a retired primary school teacher. I taught 35 years and have been retired for 14. I have faced a lot of medical issues the past few years but am finally starting to feel stronger. I have mobility issues and need knee replacements. My cardiologist will not approve me for the surgery at this time. I have A-Fib and have had 2 heart attacks. I had gallbladder surgery and have been hospitalized three times for infections that went septic. I have lost the sight in my left eye and have voluntarily given up driving.

Other Information:
I have two rescue cats, Squeak and Ping. They are a bonded pair and had been in the rescue facility for almost two years before I found them. They were 9 and 7 years old at that time but I wasn't worried. My last cats lived to be 23 and 24! I also "share" custody of Peaches, a bearded collie, with my friend Kari and her family. Peaches was originally my mother's dog but I couldn't care for her when mom passed away. Kari stepped in and they adopted her. Kari is my caregiver so brings Peaches with her on the four days she's here each week.

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