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My name is Jenna and I just turned 31. I came to a few hard truths about myself recently, the main one being that I want to be healthier and feel comfortable and pretty in my own body again. I used to be thin years ago but due to inactivity and bad eating habits I slowly began gaining weight. I was also diagnosed as Bipolar years ago and the meds added to the weight gain. I've come to the point where there is no more looking back, no more waiting on the sidelines. If I want to lose weight and get into shape I have to take the bull by the horns and actually work for it. The only thing holding me back was myself and my fears. So look out world here I come!

Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results. ~Anonymous


Member Since: 9/16/2012

Fitness Minutes: 1,323

My Goals:
I want to lose at least two pounds a week. My goal is to workout no less than 5 days a week for 1 hour a day. My goal for calories is to burn at 2000.


My Program:
A friend of mine has decided to work out with me some. I work 40 minutes at least on the treadmill, 20 on the bike and as long as we can on the elyptical. Did I mention I suck at that last one?? We also stick in zumba workouts and the WII Fit Plus workouts to shake things up.



Personal Information:
My name is Jenna. I'm 31 and reside in Baton Rouge LA. I'm an artist and a writer. I love trying new things, I was even a stand up comic at one point. lol... I have an extreme passion for music, everything from classical to hard rock. Some of my fave bands are Papa Roach, Within Temptation, Kelly Clarkson, Taylor Swift, and anything 80's. My day isn't complete without me having a cd or the radio on. I'm also a huge movie buff. Comedies such as the Lethal Weapon series and horror like Nightmare on Elm Street (the original). I also love to read. I like old school Stephen KIng, Laurell K Hamilton and yes the Twilight series. My view on life is to live life to the fullest and be sure to smile and laugh at least once a day.


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"Willpower is the key to success. Successful people strive no matter what they feel by applying their will to overcome apathy, doubt or fear." - Dan Millman

Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better. ~King Whitney jr

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." ~Marilyn Monroe




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  • v COURTNEY055
    Hey Jenna! That's great news about your workout and about the 1.5lbs!
    emoticon ..Good for u..All your hard work is paying off! I slept SO much today. I tried taking my meds today with no type of caffeine or any type of pick me up--I slept off and on til about 5pm. Just tired. That's not a good thing. I got up around 5 and then took my walk and ate. I was SO hungry all day too. I had a hamburger that Julio got me and a soda ( I know, I'm a bad sparkler) and when I got up, I had a slice of pizza and made some zuccini baked with tomato slices and grated cheese. See what happens when I'm in bed all day, they get McDonalds and pizza! I was just starving and the zuccini had few calories and even the cheese I added had next to nothing cuz I didn't use much. I went for a one mile walk around 9. That was kinda nice cuz nobody was out. It was weird walking at night. We didn't end up going to the movies the other night. They're SO expensive so we decided against it.

    We're gonna try to catch Taken2 on a Tues. when all movies are $5. Iverson doesn't get home til almost 4 so we have a good shot if we can catch the 1st show. I wanna see paranormal 4 too and Sinister looks real good!

    Well, hope you're having a good night. I'm supposed to weigh in tomorrow for my challenge but I really don't wanna cuz I feel "heavy" def don't feel like I've lost anything. Clothes all fit about the same. Feel just blah when it comes to my weight. BUT, a challenge is a challenge so...

    Ok, lady, TAG!

    Courtney

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    2610 days ago
  • v COURTNEY055
    Hey you! How was your day? Did you get your cleaning done? I got my 2 mile walk in , did some crunches, and actually did pilates today. That was smething different for me. I did beginners so it wasn't bad. Kinda enjoyed the stretching. It was easy on my back which I was afraid was gonna hurt. I had to run a few errands and then stayed home and relaxed the rest of the day. That was a nice thing cuz I've done so much running around lately. UGH..I enjoyed the peace and quiet! My stepson is sleeping over a friends house tonight so we may go hit a movie, I wanna see Taken2. if I can stay awake...I'm so tired tonight for some reason...so, we'll see.

    Sorry so short..sleepy..

    TAG!

    Courtney
    2612 days ago
  • v SPICEMWE
    You are so welcome. I know it's hard quitting smoking, but it's SO worth it. Let me know if you need any support. I'm here for you!!

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    2613 days ago
  • v COURTNEY055
    Hey Jenna~Thanks for leaving me such a great message! i swear sometimes it's like u can read my mind!

    I'm on disability. My sleeping is still screwed up but I'm just gonna deal with it. I fell asleep at 630 last night and now I;m up at 330 AM cuz I just am no longer tired. Oh well, thats what though, 9 hours sleep though? That's fine with me. I'm trying to take the Melatonin again. I took 6mg last night and it worked so I'm gonna stick with that. I took it too early though. I thought it would take forever to kick in, if at all. Little did I know...

    Yeah, I meet with psych next week and we're gonna get to the bottom of this med thing. For sure...

    IDK you smoked..6 cigs is great! I smoke a pack a day. I'm just not ready to quit to tell u the truth. I know it's an awful habit but with eveything else going on in my life, cigs relax me and I just can't give that up right now. I did quit when I was pregnant and I will do it again when I'm ready. Are u trying to quit?

    Sorry u have to start over with a new doc. That sucks. I hope everything goes well with that. Do u have a lawyer to help u with the disability? I had to get one. I got denied the first time when I did it myself so I got a lawyer and my case was approved within a month. They do take a chunk (25%) of your retro money but it is well worth it. I had worked too from the time I was 16 and stopped working at age 35 so I had good amount of credits built up. If u don't have one youshould look into it. Just my advice...

    Well, hope all is well over there in Baton Rouge..Talk to u soon. Let me know how things are going with you...

    TAG!!

    Courtney

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    2613 days ago
  • v COURTNEY055
    Hey lady! Thanks so much for being my emoticon and all the encouragement you've sent my way. Well, I've taken all the meds the way I'm supposed to. I thought over the idea of not taking them and decided that was foolish. I am WAY too scared of the withdrawal or hurting myself somehow. So, when I see pscyh next week, we'll definately be talking about my meds. I just feel like I'm on too many. Hopefully we can start cutting back. She did decrease the Lamictal so I guess that's a start. If we CANT go down, I need to know why. What exactly are my diagnoses that keep me on so many meds? Tell me something, cuz I don't get it.


    Last night, I slept 13 hours. Yep, without budging. I put a call into her yesterday looking for some kind of sleeping pill but no response. Last night I think I was just so tired and rundown that I put myself to sleep. I can't go on with this sleep pattern. I lay down at night and wait to drift off but some nights, nothing happens. My mind starts spinning and keeps me awake. Like a manic spin while my body can't keep up. I kinda go through a small manic phase for the night. Then I tire myself out for a day and pass out. Next day (sometimes) it's another manic night...repeat daily for the last 2 weeks. Could it be the Seroquel? You're on it too,r ight? Do u know anything about this? This latest pattern seems to have happened since she upped it to 600mg a day.

    So, that's my plan. See if i can start getting off some stuff. I feel like I don't even know me anymore. Flat...no zest. No pep. I don't even remember what made me smile sometimes. I mean I manage..no mania..no real depression. But that's just it..manage. Between us, I miss the mania. the energy, the zest for life. The passion. God, I miss it sometimes. hate the crash, but right now, the passion for living might just be worth it. The desire to live life to the fullest is what I want back. I feel like all the meds is robbing me of that. I can't find the lust for life anywhere...

    Had a mini meltdown today. Just had to cry so I did until my eyes hurt. Cried for what I've lost in life...what I miss that I used to have...for missing my daughter..for not feeling ALIVE anymore. I guess I wanted to show myself that I AM alive by crying. Atleast I don't cut myself like some people in my position would. Just miserable...

    Thank u for listening to me...I'm here for u too if u wanna vent or just wanna chat.

    Not much else on my end...Thank you.

    Courtney
    2613 days ago