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I wrote this when I first joined years ago - I'm leaving it for now:

Hi, my name is Nancy, I live in Minnesota and I''m 26 years old. Quick backstory, I have always been overweight and I never knew a "normal" weight. I''ve been obsessed with food ever since I can remember and could never control what I ate. Food was my comfort source and my only coping mechanism. Growing up my mother (no father) worked to support 3 kids and the other half of the time didn''t want to be bothered or was wrapped up in a string of bad romances. So we ate whatever we wanted. She seemed oblivious to the fact I was growing larger and larger. I was trying to cope with bullying at school and homelife was just trying to stay out of my mothers way and out of the way of her A-hole boyfriends. The only peace I had was when I skipped school. Which led to almost failing high school. I had no guidance or direction growing up just the constant feeling I was in the way.
My early 20''s were my "wilderness" years. I had a few failed attempts at Community College, a few failed jobs, countless failed attempts at losing weight. No love or romance like is expected at this point in life. Just anxiety, disappointment and failure. My weight which had been going up and up since elementary school got to 442 pounds and I was a 5X at age 26. And all I could do was watch as everyone else lived life and had meaningful experiences. I was depressed and hopeless.
I don''t know why or how I finally started doing something about my weight. I just remember One night instead of running to the gas station to get all my usual junk food that I usually ate after dinner, I just drank a hot chocolate went to bed and that was it. The next day I ate something closer resembling the normal human diet and continued this every day since. I dont keep a food diary amd i don''t deprive myself of eating anything. Sometimes I keep track in my head but just to ensure I can have a Starbucks here or pizza there. All I know is that there is nothing "tempting" to me anymore about overeating or being too full. I joined planet fitness to get the fitness side rolling and that''s about it. There''s nothing about my old ways that were good or beneficial to me in anyway. They just held me back and kept me complacent and scared to really try for anything. I feel like that version of me is dead now and I can move on with my life and hopefully start accomplishing some things. Currently I weigh 427 pounds, my first goal is to be safely out of the 400s at 395 pounds. That will be amazing when I finally get there. I dont think i''''ve been in the 300s since high school.
Edit: i weigh 323 pounds currently



Member Since: 5/12/2009

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CW: 380
G1: 345
G2: 315
G3: 290


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Nancy, 31, MPLS


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"It takes guts to lose weight. It takes a strong person to go against the flow. It takes determination and inner strength"
- Diane Carbonell




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