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Day One. 11/14/07, 162lbs.

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I was like this once... In 2000 - Around 135lbs

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This will be my Lifestyle Re-Education journal. Welcome to it!

So, about me:

I used to be a "hot teenager". Everything the right size, I couldn't have asked for more (or less) of anything. I loved myself (which, for a teenager, is nearly a miracle)!

After I turned 17-18, things changed... My "normal" weight went from 120lbs to 135-140lbs. In a 5'3" frame, that is quite a lot. Maybe the barrier between HOT and CHUBBY.

I kept that weight until I got pregnant, when I was 25. I had a great pregnancy, normal weight gain (20lbs) and after I delivered, in a couple of weeks I was back to my "normal" weight (140lbs).

It so happens I had a *very* colicky baby, despite the fact she was exclusively breastfed. And I thought: it must be my eating habits that are causing this. So, I completely changed them.

I let go of any and every thing that had ever been remotely linked to babies' colics. It was 'bye-bye' to all kinds of milk (which I loved), chocolate (another favorite), soda, red meat, coffee and other stuff I can't remember right now. Most of my favorite foods, really.

I was practically living out of grains, fruits and vegetables. And my weight just beautifully dropped... to 127lbs. The most interesting of all is that I didn't even realize how thin I was!

My daughter fell into that *special* category of 15% babies that have "extended colics". She was 1 year-old and still suffering with it and I suffered with her, of course. I had no husband, so she was my whole life (still is). I never stopped to enjoy my "slimness".

By that time I had been depressed for nearly 6 years and I didn't want to raise my daughter like that. I made the decision of looking for help. The doctor prescribed paroxetine and it totally helped me.

I was a whole new person in less than a month: got myself a job, worked with a big smile on my face, was a lot more patient with my daughter (and everyone else around). I loved life!
I, once more, felt like I had a future!

But after a little over a year, my weight had soared to 160 lbs and I got desperate! 30lbs in ONE year?! If I stayed on that a little longer I would be in serious trouble!

So I quit the meds and prayed my weight would gradually get back to normal. It didn't.

Three years have passed and I was in stable 160lbs and still depressed.

So, I made my next big decision: become healthier physically and hope that my brain meets me half-way and helps me beat Depression (Dysthymia, I would say).

That's mostly it!

Thank you for reading (if you have) and for getting to know me!

Member Since: 11/21/2007

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My Goals:
I just wanna feel free to wear the clothes I like, interact with people and lead a "normal" life, not having to worry about how I look.
I'm not extremely overweight or anything, but I do feel a little second-string most of the time.

My Program:
None at the time...

Personal Information:
I'm a 32yo single-mom of a beautiful 6 yo girl. I'm also a preschool teacher.

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