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Introduction Text January 2013 - Here I am again...with the same new year's resolution to lose weight. I have sucessfully failed at my last attempt and have gained every pound back that I worked so hard to lose. I have not truly attempted to diet or exercise in the last year. Shame on me! My life has changed in so many ways over the last year...work, family, life......it all gets in the way and I have lost focus on what should be most important...MY OWN HEALTH! I am starting over. I have a goal to lose 95 lbs this year. I have officially joined a gym and cleaned all of the junk out of the pantry and fridge. I have re-evaluated my overall health goals, weekly nutrition and fitness targets.. I have also made a promise to myself and my family to carve out the time in my crazy hectic schedule to concentrate on my health and weight loss. I have the all the tools and resources that I need to do this....I just have to GET IT DONE! January 2010 - A new year on my journey to a new me! 2009 was semi successful. I am down to 268 as of this morning...I did gain a few pounds over the holidays but I expected as much. Its okay and I will not let it derail me. I do feel healthier and I am able to do things fitness wise that I have not been able to do in years. I do feel better about myself and when I look in the mirror I do see changes. Eventhough the changes arent as grand as I had orginally set out for them to be..they are still changes and I am proud. Success comes in small packages! :) I am determined to become a healthier and stronger me in 2010. I have set my short term goal at 235 by April 4th. That will be the smallest I have been in my entire adult life and will be an astonishing acheivement that I cannot wait to see! I can do this! Anything is possible once you set your mind to it! January 2009 Okay so here it goes...I am 32 years old, 5'7" 295.00 lbs (Was this weight in October 2008)----- I currently wear a size 24 (how did I get here?) This is the biggest and most disgusted I have ever been with myself. I just received an email from a family member that contained photos from our family's Christmas gathering and I was absolutely horrified! I could not believe my eyes. Of course I've always had the "you have such a pretty face" syndrome...but who cares about that --look at my GUT!!! Eww its awful to look at myself! Who have I become? Since the new year I have been on a diet....It's going okay. But I am sooo confused with the calorie counting, fat gram, protein contenet, and how much an actual serving size is....lets say you make a fruit salad from your own recipe..consisting of 2 apples, 2 bananas, 1 pear (peeled), 1 1/2 cup of grapes, 1/3 cup of orange juice, 1/2 cup of lemon juice. Now how in the heck am I supposed to figure out the nutrional value of lets say 2 cups of this fruit salad? (it was all I ate for lunch) It is maddening!!!!! I have purchased several books, and have searched the web, only to be more confused than when I started. Dear lord what have I gotten myself into? I am not a stupid person. I can figure out the nutritional value of lets say a turkey sandwich, but am I to eat a turkey sandwich for the rest of my life because I can keenly identify the number of calories, grams of fat, protein, carbohydrates, etc??? On another note, I just stopped doing the low carb diet.......................I lost 10lbs over a course of 3 months, (yeah thats pretty sad, huh?) I never want to do that again. The requirement of eating meat, eggs and cheese absolutely turns my stomach now to think about it. Ugghhhhh....however the list of "forbidden" and "allowed" foods did make things easier for those of us who are nutritional value challenged! And speaking of "treatment effects" ---- Here's a story for you! Have you ever eaten 4-5 of those Russell Stover sugar free chocolate candies or sugar free Life Savers? If you are EVER constipated all you need to do is consume these little guys and you will be cleaned out within hours of eating them!The sugar free ingredient is a SUPER LAXATIVE!!!! I wont be enjoying those goodies anytime soon!!! I just really want to feel good about myself again, not that I ever thought of myself as a beauty queen, but I was definetly cute and smaller (notice I didnt say skinny!! ha! ha!) I've never been small...never been under 200 in my adult life, never shopped in a "normal" size clothing store, never felt like I could control the hungry beast inside my head ----------------BUT IT HAS TO STOP!!!! 2009 will be different!!!! I will lose this weight! It's going to take dedication, time and effort (and probably angry bouts of curse words), but its do-able......I want to be healthy, I want to be able to jog around the neighborhood without everything on my body hurting, I want to feel good when I put on a pair of jeans and not look for the biggest sweatshirt I own to cover myself up with. I want to look in the mirror and say Wow!! Who is that? August 2009 -- Still hanging in there. I can honestly say that this has been one of the hardest things I have done in my life. However on a positive note...this is the longest I have ever stayed committed to myself and losing weight. It is definetley not easy. I have learned so much, but I still struggle everyday to eat the right things in the proper portions. Sometimes I still have to push myself to exercise and somedays I actually look forward to working out......and I NEVER thought I would say that! I'm still just taking one day at a time, one pound at a time. I log my food like religion and this has really opened my eyes....I can't say that I'm perfect everyday...but I am very aware now of what I am putting in my body and the effects of it afterward. I have been diligently working on being able to jog. It's getting better, but I cant say that it's enjoyable yet...nor am I able to job for extended periods of time....but I'm working on it! Showing up is half the battle! I'm still fighting the battle...but I'm in it to WIN it!

Take it one day at a time! ---- 2013 - Starting Weight 295 REALLY Mini Goals: 5 at a time! 290 - met 1/27/13! (288) 285 - met 4/4/13 (285) 280 - met 5/25/13 (279) 275 - met 6/1/13 (275) 270 265 260 255 250 Ultimate Goal: 200

Low Calorie/Low Fat Diet Aerobic Exerice 4 x per week or more. Mini Goal: To get to 250 Joined the Gym

Now living in New York Always looking for spark buddies who are committed to getting healthy and reaching goals.

Enjoy music, traveling, hanging out with friends, reading, dining out. Weakness: BEER!

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