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I am a 63 year old retired academic. I retired early to care for my mother. She passed away in February 2016 and I still miss her. My weight loss journey began when I went to college (1976) and gained 7 pounds by the time I graduated. I went from weighing 99 lbs to 107 and I was desparate to lose the weight and started the diet soda and ice cream diet. No weight loss there. I started working and gained another 5 pounds and began the hot dog and saur kraut diet. Yum! No weight loss there either. My whole life, I have have been on one diet or another until I hit a steady weight of 121. I continued to think I was obese at that weight. I use that term specifically, because I did think I was obese You may have noticed that I suffered from body dysmorphia. I never saw myself as anything but fat. I never looked in a full length mirror or bought clothes that fit. They were always 2 sizes too big. Then in 2001, I had a kidney transplant and started gaining 8-10 pounds a year. I dabbled at weight loss, but oddly, I did not see myself as anymore over weight than I did when I was 121 lbs...until I hit 208. Again, I did not see myself as overweight, but I understood that 208 was beyond the norm. I did my BMI and discovered I was truly obese. Was I shocked? Sort of, but not really. Being obese fit in with my body dysmorphia. I always saw myself as obese so this just confirmed it. About a year before my mom passed away, I realized that when she was gone, I would be a sad overweight recluse who watched too much t.v. I joined Spark with the idea of losing weight so that when she was gone, I might be sad and lonely but not overweight. I had joined a year earlier, but stress made me quit. I needed my unlimited doughnuts and cake to deal with my mother's illness. It was an on-again off-again relationship with Spark for the year after she died, but I made friends and they were so encouraging. The social part of Spark is what has kept me going. I don't feel as lonely as I thought I would and I have lost weight. That is my story....for now.

Member Since: 2/22/2016

Fitness Minutes: 14,245

My Goals:
My reasons why:
(1) To be done with having my life focus almost solely on weight loss
(2) To be ready for anything. So if someone calls and says let's go to Chicago this weekend, I don't have to worry about will I be fit enough to walk 5 miles around the city.
(3) Hopefully to be in less pain.


My Program:
Eat healthy and exercise.



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    5 days ago
  • v 1CRAZYDOG
    Power over others is weakness disguised as strength. Eckhart Tolle
    9 days ago
  • v LOSEDAPOUNDS
    Thank you for the kind words about my blog! Hope you are having a good week!
    22 days ago
  • v 7STIGGYMT
    I have a few favorite Spark Friends and you're on the top of the list.
    23 days ago
  • v CHRISTER5
    emoticon Julien, Thank you for reading my blog. Yes, Montana is a beautiful state. Do you have to travel far to camp in Montana. There are so many places we haven't seen in Montana even though we are both from Montana. We are hoping to visit places that we haven't seen in our own state this summer. Yesterday was a lot of fun. I am looking forward to camping this summer.. We always have a super time with my brother and his wife camping. emoticon You will be able to go shopping soon. Enjoy your day and week. emoticon emoticon
    23 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/22/2021 1:18:27 PM
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