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I'm Beth. I'm a nurse navigator at a large community hospital and have the privilege to work with women with breast cancer. I have so many blessings in my life... my family, friends my work, and the faith that God has much more in store for me than I can even imagine.

I have been obsessed by weight loss, or, perhaps more accurately, by my failure to succeed at weight loss, for almost 40 years. What a waste of time, energy, and happiness that has been.

Somehow over the past year or so I have acknowledged the fact that I am going to die. Ok, probably not this week, or this month. With any luck at all, not this year or even this decade. But it's going to happen. And it's going to happen to me. I'm in my early sixties, so I am significantly closer to the end than to the beginning.

I hope you don't think I'm being morbid or self-pitying. On the contrary. Accepting this truth has given me an overwhelming sense of peace and joy. It has made me braver, more willing to take risks, less concerned with the opinions of others. And I have also found a new definition of success.

I cut myself some slack on this "losing weight" obsession. It is so much more important that my seven grandchildren remember me for my unconditional love, abundant laughter, and enthusiasm for life than for a skinny butt or firm thighs. I mean, really, that's just weird.

Life loves irony. Once I stopped beating myself up over my weight, it became a non-issue. I like feeling good, so I eat a healthier diet because it makes me feel good. I have an indulgence when I want one, but I don't feel a need to hide it or justify it. And I've lost weight. LIGHT BULB MOMENT.

Do I want to lose more weight? Of course! It felt better than wonderful to have my family doctor of 16 years comment that this was the first time she had ever seen me under 200 pounds. One of my goals, but NOT my most important goal, is to shed another 50 pounds. I think I can do it, but it doesn't define me as a success or a failure.

Life is a challenge. But there is so much that is beautiful, so much that is joyous in this journey we are on. And I intend to enjoy myself.

Member Since: 7/21/2006

Fitness Minutes: 1,751

My Goals:
To wake up in the morning with energy and enthusiasm.

To live my life according to the values and beliefs I cherish.

To walk a 5K without collapsing.

To try a new healthy recipe at least every couple of weeks.

To see the Grand Canyon. (BUCKET LIST)

My Program:
I am following Weight Watchers, but I'm not a fanatic.

Trying to drink more water.

Wearing my Fit Bit and setting goals to increase activity.

Personal Information:
My husband Mike and I have been married more than. We live in Central Florida. We have three adult children, seven perfectly gorgeous grandchildren, and one obnoxious cat.

Other Information:
I love to travel. My favorite trips were to China and to Denmark. I've never seen the Grand Canyon, and that's next on my Bucket List.

I've been a bookworm since I was five. My Book Club is one of the nicest things I do for myself.

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  • v WINNIE1978
    Today I'm thankful for wonderful spark friends like you! Happy Thanksgiving!

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    1812 days ago
  • v WINNIE1978
    If you had told me a few years ago that I'd have a garden I probably would have laughed at the idea. I was hesitant to start our garden last year for fear that things wouldn't grow well... and some things didn't. We failed miserably with radishes, which are supposed to be really easy. It's all trial and error though really. Something isn't growing well, give it a bit more or less water, give it a bit of fertilizer, and hope for the best. This is year two for the garden and we are still learning new stuff each day. I love the stuff like squash, zucchini, and peppers because they don't require much work. =)

    Good luck with the herb garden! emoticon
    1935 days ago
    Happy New Year!!!! emoticon for stopping by blog . I really hate getting into my weight with people who don't know me she just wore my patience. I hope she learned something besides I am just another angry fat person because I am not just more attitude than I can contain sometimes lol .
    2141 days ago
    emoticon Just stopping by to say hi! Hope all is well with you!
    2351 days ago
    Consider the postage stamp: its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing till it gets there. ~Josh Billings

    Just wanted to say and hope all is going great with you! Keep sparking and moving right along!! emoticon

    2414 days ago
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