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Introduction Text "Today is your second chance, and you can choose differently." Abby Rike, biggest loser Every day is a brand new start, full of opportunities to make better choices, seek joy, face your fears, earn a feeling of accomplishment. Don't wait for tomorrow, do it today - NOW!!!!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 8 WEEK BATTLE #9!!!!!!! 6/14/2010-wght: 162 chest: 42 waist: 35.5 hips: 41 8 WEEK BATTLE #8!!!!!!! Time to get out of obese BMI range! Day 1: 3/29/2010- spent the day with Shelby getting her wisdom teeth surgically removed. No workout. Food choices good. Feeling hopeful that I'm finally learning not to let changes in my routine totally knock me off track. Day 2: 3/30/2010-spring allergies have me feeling pretty awful most of the day, but I still did some strength training at home, and walked the park twice during Joseph's soccer practice. Food was on plan. Day 3: 3/31/2010 - Food choices have been good today, but I do think maybe I need to start keeping track. Push-ups and dips, worked out at Curves. Was feeling pretty good until I had an argument with Lily on the way home from choir practice. Geez, I love my children, but sometimes they sure can break my heart. Day 4: 4/1/2010 - Good day despite very little sleep and still fighting sinus crud. Little higher on carbs than I like because I ate too big a bowl of bean soup. 40 minute elliptical, some abs, 20, 20lb. kettlebell swings. (meant to do more, but never did) Day 5: 4/2/2010 - mostly fasting because of Good Friday. No workout because of poor planning. Day 6: 4/3/2010 - Curves, food was great despite the temptations of pizza and ice cream. Day 7: 4/4/2010 - Easter Sunday!! It's a beautiful, glorious day!!!!!!!! I sang for Mass and all the family was there. It went well despite spring allergies. I am so blessed and thankful to Him!!!!!! We took a very long, hilly hike at Dad's and I was amazed at my increase in stamina. I was also amazed that I didn't cave in even one little time and eat candy, pie, or cake. I just knew it wasn't worth the set back and pain it would cause me, and I wasn't really even tempted. I LOVE this feeling of strength and health and control. But, I also realize that I could falter at any moment...it only takes one "bad" choice to release the waiting binge monster. But NOT today, sucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Day 8: 4/5/2010 - first weigh in day and I'm down 2 pounds!!! Food choices were good, and lots of exercise with gardening, elliptical, and walking. I could do without the allergies and sunburn though!! Day 9: 4/6/2010 - Kind of a weird day...I did fine with food, and worked out hard at Curves. I had a belly ache hit me in the afternoon though, not sure what brought that on. I had planned to walk during Joseph's soccer practice but didn't feel up to it. Day 10: 4/7/2010 - gots lots of exercise at Dad's today. Met Lisa out there to do some work, we walked the lake path x 4, and to the mailbox. I trimmed all his bushes, and helped sand/paint his front door. I was tired!! Food choices were good. Day 11: 4/8/2010 - Worked out at Curves. Highest calorie burn I've had in a long time - 498!!!! Did 45 min. on the elliptical. Food choices were good, but ate too much supper. Lots of nutrition, but too many calories. Day 12: 4/9/2010 - NOT happy that the scale showed a 1 pound gain today!!?!?!?!? I'm trying to not let it mess with my head though. I have a weigh in at Curves tomorrow, and I was trying so hard to hit the 10 pound lost mark. I really thought I was going to make it. My calories were very low today because I was just too busy to stop and eat. I went for a 1 hour walk/jog, did LOTS of laundry - I think I'm finally caught up, I even sorted all the socks! I also sanded and painted two doors. Busy, tiring day!!! Day 13: 4/10/2010 - I'm disappointed in my at home weigh in today, but I'm not going to let it get to me. It's just hard to understand though how I lost pretty much no weight this week, when I worked SO hard, and stayed on track food wise. If what I've done this week won't work, WHAT the hell will?!?!?!? Sigh...I'm going to be patient. PM update - My weigh in at Curves went GREAT!!! I lost 10 pounds, 5+inches, and 1.5% body fat in the past 4 weeks!!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!!! Came home from my workout there and spent the rest of the day working around the house and yard, and helping re-do our retaining wall. I AM SOOOO TIRED!! :-) Day 14: 4/11/2010 - planning on a day of lots of rest...we shall see... Day 19: 4/16/2010 - oops, kinda got off track with checking in every day! Things are going well. I did struggle, food wise, one day this week but mostly it's been good. The scale said 171 this morning. I'm glad to see it going the right direction but I wish it would hurry up a little!!! Workouts are going well and I'm excited to be seeing and feeling muscles! I think though that I'm going to have to go the the chiro and see if she can fix my hip and achilles tendon because they are starting to be more pain than I can work through. I was able to jog the whole way back down the street one day this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Day 23? 4/20/2010 - nothing new to report. I'm still waiting to drop below 171. Doing fairly well food and workout wise, but I feel my focus isn't as sharp as it should be. I intended to get up at 4:30 this morning and put 60 minutes in on the elliptical, but I chose to go back to sleep instead. Not good!! I WILL GET IT DONE THIS EVENING!!!!!!!!!!!! Day 24: 4/21/2010 - Just wanted to report that I did in fact get my 60 minutes done on the elliptical!! It was tough, and I was sweat drenched when I finished. Then I spent the rest of the evening icing various body parts, took some ibuprofen before bed, and I'm feeling pretty good today. Curves is on the workout schedule for this evening. Day 25: 4/22/2010 - Used an unexpected late kids getting here morning to get in 30 minutes on the elliptical. Very sweaty!!! The %#&* scale is still stuck at 171 but I'm trying not to focus on that. There are so many postives to think about! I tried on a swim suit yesterday that came in the mail...and I didn't hate it!!!!!!!! It's a size 12 top, and a size 14 bottom and it doesn't look half bad, if I do say so myself. :-) Day 26: 4/23/2010 - WTF?!?!?!?! Ok, today has very much sucked so far, and it's not even lunch time yet! I don't know what happened...I got up this morning fully intending to work out after the kids got on the bus, but it just never happened. Instead, I started eating and have pretty much gone off the deep end. Who the hell is this self-destructive creature who's taken over my mind and body today??? Crap, crap, CRAP! I do know that I'm struggling with feeling overwhelmed with everything I look around me and see needs to be done, and the money we don't have to do any of it. I'm soooo tired of the money struggle, and I feel like it entirely my fault. I'm the one who's barely working, and only looking to get worse from here unless I make some drastic changes - and I'm the one who has ultimately made most of the financial decisions over the years. I would have loved to have shared that responsibility but Joe never wanted to take part. It's really not fair that he left it all to me to worry about, but I guess he feels he's doing his part because he's earning the majority of the money. Maybe he's right. BUT, of course there is not a problem I have that not working out and eating crap will help!!!! I KNOW THIS FOR A FACT, so WHY do I make such lousy choices some times?!?!?! SOOOOOO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Day 27: 4/24/2010 - Yesterday ended like it started, I'm sorry to say. I just could never shake "it". Today is in fact a new day though, so let's move on. Doing much better. Worked out at Curves, kinda bonked before I finished, but got it done. Came home and made good food choices...not sure what the rest of the day will bring, but I certainly need to do the never ending chores of cleaning and laundry. Maybe I'll go for a walk before the rain sets in again. 4/27/2010 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOSEPH!!! Very hard to believe my baby is 12 years old! Scale said 175 this morning, damn it!!! I'm still struggling to get back on track after the sugar/pizza excess of the weekend. But I do feel like I'm starting to regain my focus somewhat. I truly intened to get up at 4:30 this morning and get in a good sweat, but I couldn't get to sleep till way too late last night so I opted in favor of the extra rest. I don't know if I'll get it done later because of Joseph's birthday. We already officially celebrated this past weekend, but still, it IS his birthday... I'm wondering if I should just accept that occasional laspes will be part of my life, or try to make myself realize I just can NOT eat like "normal" people???? I'm not sure what the answer is, but I do know that I've got to get a grip on this particular rough spell, and get back in gear!!!!!!!!! Oh, in a totally unrelated topic - Joseph gave me the best compliment I believe I've ever had. He told me a friend of his at school who's heard me sing at church said "Dude, your Mom has serious vocals!! Sometimes when I'm sittin' there listening to her sing, I get tears in my eyes." WOW, that just blew me away. For a 12 year old boy to say something like that in front of his friends... I've had adults say similar things, or that my voice gives them goose bumps, or makes them feel as if I'm singing His words just to them, but this touched me greatly. Now if I could just find a way to make a living by singing. I don't know what it would be, even if I had the confidence to try. April 29, 2010 - Feeling better, eating better, working out!!!!!! May 3, 2010: day ? - Oh my goodness, I just realized this morning that I had somehow miscalculated the BMI thing and I'm now only 1 pound away from being out of the obese range!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For some reason I thought it was 164, but it's 169. I actually saw 169.5 briefly on Saturday morning, but I'm back to 170 now. I'm fine with that though because I know it's coming soon. I WILL GET THERE, AND BEYOND!! One day I'll even get into the "normal" BMI range, I just feel sure. I've come to believe that most of my crazy food phases are brought on by hormonal changes. I never really put that together before, and I would just get soooo discouraged when I would struggle with these times. I truly do believe there's a connection, and that it's so much better if I'm staying away from sugar and junk carbs. Now if I could just get my achilles tendon to heal so I could work out at the level I want, I feel as if I could really make some progress!!!!!! May 26, 2010 - It's been way too long since I've updated! Things are going well, weight-loss wise. Scale said 163 this morning. That was a pretty exciting shocker!!!!! Not that I haven't been sticking to the plan, but I wasn't expecting that. It feels very good to no longer be obese for the first time in over 20 years! YIPPEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm still struggling with my achilles tendon and my hip. I want so badly to run, but even walking makes it flair up. If we hadn't had to spend all the money in our HSA for eye exams, contacts and glasses I would go to the chiropractor and see if that would help. Joe wants me to go get fitted for orthotics, but once again money is the issue. I'm getting very tired of that issue, but still don't know what to do about it!!! Today's calorie torching, muscle building workout will be Curves this evening when I get off work - whooohooo!! Oh, PS - I had someone I hadn't seen in a while do a double take when she realized who I was!! It's pretty fun to see people and they don't even recognize me because I forget that I truly do look different. August 30, 2010 - well, here it is about 3 months later, and I'm still around the same weight. Damn it!!!! Oh, I've lost some, but re-gained and added some more a few times. UGH, so tired of that crazy game! I just KNEW I was going to really burn it up while I was off all summer...NOPE! I did get down to 158 at one point, which is a weight I haven't seem since I got married. That would be in 1983!!! I think I just got a little too comfortable in my "success" and just started slacking because, "hey, I've done so well." I CALL B.S. on that one!!!!!!!!!! We're going to Cancun at the end of Sept. and it's definitely time to make some more progress before I have to wear a swim suit in front of all Joe's co-workers and spouses. 9/2/2010 - weight back in the 150's...YIPPEEEEE!!! It's been a great week so far, but FUNKY FRIDAY is coming. Don't know what it is about Fridays, but I have a tendency to lose it.

My main goal is to feel strong and healthy. I also don't want to worry about my size in every social situation.





my interests include singing, music in general, reading, being involved in my church & hanging out with my family.

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