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Welcome. A bit about me...

Another new year, 2010, another new start. I'm determined to make this year the one where I stay committed to getting healthy. Nothing is going to stop me now!

I live with recurrent major depression and anxiety, along with dissociative identity disorder, borderline personality disorder and obsessive compulsive personality disorder, all of which affect my day to day life. I'm a perfectionist with all or nothing, black and white thinking. I get overwhelmed easily, resulting in my giving up. I'm tired of living in the shadows of self hatred, doubt and unworthiness. I am slowly opening my wings to allow my inner beautiful swan to emerge with grace and dignity.

I'm not on a diet, I'm creating a permanent lifestyle change.

So, here's to becoming a swan!

June 1/09 Update: I had my hiatus hernia surgery on May 27th (laparoscopic nissen fundoplication surgery with collis gastroplasty). I came home from the hospital on May 31. For the next 8 weeks, until July 31st, I'm to eat pureed foods with the only exercise being light walking. I'm still going to work hard on getting healthy and look at this surgery as the catalyst that lit the fire under my butt!

Aug 31/09 Update: Back at it again. Weight rose to 238 lbs. I'm angry and disappointed, but also determined to get back on track. I'm on a new medication, Zyprexa, for my anxiety and it has really helped, but the side effects are constant sugar & carb cravings and slow metabolism. So, I've had to re-evaluate my goals and set my weight loss at a slower pace and focus more on getting active. I reset all my SparkPeople goals so I don't get trapped into ruminating about the past few months. Today is a new day, a new start, a new me!



"When inward tenderness finds the secret hurt, pain itself will crack the rock and ah! let the soul emerge." ~ Rumi

"Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul." ~ Ezra Taft Benson

"Stop living life for what's around the corner and start enjoying the walk down the street." ~ Grant L. Miller

Member Since: 5/7/2008

Fitness Minutes: 31,465

My Goals:
lose 14 lbs by the end of March 2013

My Program:
brisk walking 8 km/day
low fat eating

Personal Information:
50 yrs old - married 30 yrs - 2 adult daughters 29 & 38 - 4 doggies - home is Vancouver Island, BC, Canada.

Other Information:
crochet, knit, read, learn new information from the internet & books, computer

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  • v TINA48R
    Lots of emoticon to you my Friend

    Hope you have a Wonderful & Beautiful day today!!!
    3832 days ago
  • v TINA48R
    ~*~Happy Valentines Day~*~
    I hope that your enjoying your day!!
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    And also emoticon emoticon Your doing GREAT!!!
    3906 days ago
  • v TINA48R
    Thank You Much,for visiting my page and leaving your comment of Sympathy
    This Team is the Best!
    God Bless
    3911 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/8/2010 11:42:17 PM
  • v _RAMONA
    Dear Cathy,

    May your every day be all you need it to be. May an all abiding peace fill your thoughts, rule in your dreams each night, and conquer all your fears. May God manifest himself in ways you have never before experienced. May your joys be fulfilled, your dreams be closer, and your cares be lifted. I pray that faith enters a new height in you, that your territory be enlarged, and that fulfillment is just one step closer.

    MAY GOD ABUNDANTLY BLESS YOU, and those you love, in every way that you require. May he hold you gently in the palm of his hand in a very personal way, and may you rest in the fullness of his love, his grace, his strength, his wisdom, his rescue, his redemption, his healing, his inspiration, his restoration and his mercy as you require it! May you carry in your heart always an extra special awareness of God's great love for you, may you feel his sweet and gentle touch upon your life, and may you see his miracles all around you. I pray in the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen!

    {{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}
    3914 days ago
  • v TANSHAN1
    Hi! Welcome to the Done Being the Fat Girl team.. This truly is a great
    team...lots of laughs and lots of "Wow! Now I get it " moments..Glad to
    see you and hope you post alot...Come on to the threads and have some
    fun...somebody is always around.

    Peace my lettuce leaf,
    "THE Sexxy Strapless Strawberry"
    3916 days ago
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