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It's been a crazy day so I haven't posted much. I just wanted to wish everyone well. I'll try to organize some thoughts about the conference tomorrow - assuming I don't get caught up installing new computer programs on hubby's computer for him.

It's been a 24-hours of bad news from others, though. My new sister Vicky and I talked last night, which was good. But her SO, who has had medical problems for a number of years, seems to have taken a significant turn for the worse. Seizures, shingles, staph infection - it's all getting ugly. Then I got calls from 2 of my sisters on my mother's side that the third one's husband has been diagnosed with brain cancer. Apparently he has had it for some time since the sister who lost her own husband saw symptoms when they all gathered for a memorial service on April 1. The second of those sisters who called also has a BIL with stage 4 lung cancer. My husbands aches and pains sound almost minimal by comparison, though e has some serious mobility issues. I got my shopping done today and have been trying to get accustomed to being home again. I will try to do better tomorrow.

My gratitude today is that things are calmer here than they are in the worlds of my sisters.

I hope everybody had a good day. Sleep well and have a wonderful Wednesday.


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5/31/16 2:04 A

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Hi gang, just a quick comment as it has been a long day and now it's late. I did get home safe and sound. Traffic was starting to get heavy but not bad and it kept moving pretty well. I was home in 2-1/2 hours. Then daughter and family came over. That's a story for tomorrow.

My gratitude today is that I'm home safely and had a good visit with the family too.

I hope everyone is OK. Sleep well and have a terrific Tuesday.

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Oof.

So sorry for big fights and hard transits, Tiffany. Hoping for some ease of pain for you and some gentleness from your partner...

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5/30/16 11:16 A

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Hey guys. Hope everyone is enjoying their weekends.

Thanks for the advice, Singe. I'll check it out.

Carol, I hope the rest of your conference went really well and that you made it home safely and with less headache than getting into town.

Not much for me to add. I'm glad I have another day off. My eyes are so swollen I'm worried I look like a drug addict. Having only ever been around people who've smoked MJ, I wouldn't really know. So I worry about it. I cried for about an hour last night. Had a big fight with hubby. Actually our third fight in four days, but this one the worst of them all. We never fight this much, so I don't know what's going on. But if my horoscopes are right, this is just gonna be a crappy week all around. And Carol warned me that I have a Pluto transit coming to hit hard very soon, too. So here's hoping I'll have the strength for this. Anyway, I guess I'm off to figure out what I'm going to do next. Later, all.

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Blessed be, lovelies!

It's been a while since I've popped in. Had surgery (rotator cuff) earlier this month and just starting to come back to life and SP again.

Tiffany, good thoughts and hope that you have good things happen to lighten your mood this weekend. I am totes with you about meditation. Only thing that has ever worked for me is listening to Tibetan monks chanting - their deep voices really ground me and put me in a meditative state. Otherwise my thoughts notice my other thoughts and soon all of my thoughts are having a town hall meeting.

Anyway, here's an example of those monks:
youtu.be/HakplugtPQI

Carol - Happy Seattle! Waving at you from about 90 min north.

Hope you all have a blessed weekend...

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5/27/16 10:58 P

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Tiffany I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. Hopefully things will ease up soon.

Evon I hope you are recovering from your trip.

The conference is going well. I'm learning a lot and finding people who need information I have too. There's no such thing as coincidence.

My gratitude today is for being able to be here and get so much out of this conference.

Hope everyone is well. Sleep tight and have a good weekend.

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5/27/16 8:29 A

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Morning, all. Didn't check in last night because I was in a super bad mood and didn't feel like talking. A little better this morning, but I'm up earlier than usual because hubby took it upon himself to wake me up when he got back home from work at 330 this morning to tell me he lost the garage key. Which, yes, that's info I need to know, but he could have just emailed me or wrote up a note or something. Didn't have to wake me up. He knew I had a bad night last night and that he was the last cause for it. Oh well. I'm up now after trying for an hour to fall back asleep unsuccessfully.

Anyways. Carol, I hope you enjoy your trip and it should be better getting out than getting back in. If Seattle is anything like Vegas, it's at least twice as hard to get in than it is to get back out because of the tourists and it is a holiday weekend, so lots of people are moving around right now. Welcome to the unofficial start of summer.

Evon, I have tried meditation but I can never seem to stick with it for more than a day or two. My mind will not slow down no matter how hard I try and it just ends up aggravating me more. It's just easier for me to stop thinking when I watch something stupid like, say, Family Guy or Futurama or something. Something that's just stupid and funny and I can finally get my mind off of how crappy real life is.

Well, I guess I'll let you guys go. I'm gonna find something else to do until it's time to make breakfast and get to work. Thankfully it's only a half day again today and then a 3 day weekend. So I guess that means a 3 1/2 day weekend. Either way, I'm looking forward to the break from being around people. I just can't handle much right now when it comes to people. Have a good day and if I don't hear from anybody and/or I don't post, have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend!

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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5/26/16 10:09 P

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This is just a short hello since I am using the public computer in the hotel lobby. I made it here safely in spite of some of the crazies in traffic. The cars coming out of the Seattle area were crammed cheek by jowl and not moving at all for about 20-25 miles. I hope they will be heading the other direction when I go home on Monday.

Thanks for the thoughts on meditation. I will mention it to my husband but don't count on him using it. Another sparker also suggested rose hips. We'll see how he does. His new medications seem to be working better and he is safe to drive with them.

My gratitude today is for the safe trip and also for hubby's increased mobility.

I hope everyone had a good day. Sleep well and wonderful days until I can get back in touch again - whenever that will be.


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5/26/16 12:47 P

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emoticon I'm so sorry to hear about all the health issues. Tiffany have you tried meditation? Even five to ten minutes two or three times a day can help significantly.

Speaking of meditation, it might also help your husband's pain issues, Carol (in conjunction with medication and, possibly, physical therapy as well). Meditation releases endorphins which are natural painkillers. And the effects tend to last for a significant period of time after the meditation ends. Just a thought, he might not be comfortable with it.

My mom had both knees and her hips replaced a few years ago and I used to meditate with her. She said it helped, though she won't do it on her own {smh}.

Lots going on at work so I don't have much time to post. I even continue working after I leave the office - training on some new tools. It has to be done from home, though, because the network at work is so locked down that I can't get to the training from there.

If I don't hit you up tomorrow, have a great day!

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I hope your body settles down soon Tiffany. I Googled the business about stopping beta blockers suddenly and read that the body tends to rebound or go to the opposite extreme unless you decrease them gradually. That sounds about the same as what you are describing. I do hope, for your sake, that it balances out soon.

And thanks for your support on my hubby's condition. He is dealing with his pain pretty well now. He has an appointment with the neurological surgeon next week for a consultation. We doubt much can be done but we will see what the doctor says to be sure. Anyway, he is controlling pain more with ibuprofen so will be able to drive safely while I am gone to Seattle. He should have his computer back on Sunday evening so he will be a much happier camper then.

I'm exhausted so will head for bed now. Tomorrow will be a big day with finishing packing and getting on the road.

My gratitude today is that hubby is better and I can travel with a clearer head.

Hope every one had a good day. Sleep well and have a thrilling Thursday.

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Oh dear, Carol. I am so very sorry to hear that the prognosis isn't good. I hope that they'll be able to help him out a lot with the pain. My thoughts are with you guys.

Nothing new for me to add tonight. It's been a fairly boring and quiet day, thankfully. Still working on withdrawal and I'm really starting to feel super tired because of it. My racing heart keeps waking me up at night. But I'm hoping once I hit the 1 week mark which is in just a couple days, it should get easier. I just hope that there won't be any damage to anything, either. I actually learned too late you really shouldn't stop taking beta blockers cold turkey and without doc supervision, but oh well. Can't go back now. Just have to go forward and hope for the best. I'm off. Goodnight, team! emoticon

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Evon, I'm glad you are back safely. I think I greeted you earlier but at the moment I'm too tired to remember. (See below.)

Tiffany, I'm glad you called the doctor about that cyst, though I'm sorry it's getting to be such a severe problem. Best wishes for dealing with it. Also glad you are feeling better.

This will be short as it is quite late. I tried to put this together earlier but got interrupted - again - as usual. Hubby's report is quite serious. He has cervical spondylosis (essentially arthritis in the spinal/neck that can radiate up into the head and/or down into the shoulders) as well as cervical stenosis, which is degeneration and compression of the spine in the lower back, along with osteoporosis. The doctor is prescribing medications, consultation with a pain specialist, and consultation with a spinal surgeon, though with his age of 81 I have doubts that will be recommended. Medications are helping with pain for the moment.

Meanwhile, yes we have to go back over the pass to deal with the computer which seems to have a terminal case of a corrupted hard drive.

When it rains it pours. I have not even begun to figure out what clothes fit that I can take with me to Seattle. The only good news is I got the grocery shopping done and was able to get some convenience foods for him to use - bless frozen foods and the microwave. I only had about 4 hours of sleep last night so I'm done for tonight here. I'll try to make it up to you guys - eventually.

My gratitude tonight is that despite the medical issues there are good doctors here and medical science that will at least help with managing the situation. Also grateful for a grandson who came over and mowed the lawn for us today. Also grateful that despite being on a retirement budget we will be able to manage whatever comes along - thank goodness of good insurance and a budget that is not stretched to the limit.

Hope everyone had a good day. Sleep well and have a wonderful Wednesday.

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Gotta love that jealousy.

Just super fast for me. I'm tired. Doing a little better today. Blood pressure still high, but it's not like yesterday. Much more comfortable. And I think I forgot to tell you guys that I finally called the doc a couple of weeks ago about that cyst in my shoulder. He's booked until June 30th, but at least I got the appointment. I figure I've dealt with it for 5 years or so, another few weeks won't kill me. But I am worried that at this point it's too big to deal with in office and would have to have surgery. Which sucks. But here's hoping. Anyways, that's it for me. I hope everyone had a good day and is doing well. Night.

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Good morning, all,

I LOVE the time I spend with my grandson and it's given us the most incredible relationship. Others are jealous of it (his mom and his other grandmother) but I WORKED for this relationship with him. I've put in the time and effort and love to build it into what it is. They just want to be angry because it hasn't fallen in their laps. They think he "owes" them kind of relationship we have and that ours just spontaneously appeared. {smh} He's a child! We're supposed to be teaching him how to form these kinds of relationships. It's not something he's supposed to just KNOW by instinct!

Anyway, rant over.

Tiffany, sounds like you've got a lot of stress going on and running out of the meds to help you manage it has only made it worse. I'm sorry to hear that.

Carol, hope the sleep issues are only temporary. I know I'm having my share of them right now as well so maybe, as Tiffany pointed out, it's "in the air", lol.

Have a wonderful day, all.

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Evon, glad to have you back and to know you had a great trip. You really deserved that after all the work you were putting in. And those times with the grandkid build special relationships and precious memories you just can't duplicate or replace. But with all the garbage going on in the airports and flights I'm also glad you are safely home!

Tiffany, I'm glad to hear you were able to cope with the withdrawal from those medications. I hope you can continue with those changes. I do have to wonder if the medications were also the reason you were having trouble getting the weight off. With those healthy habits you might have some progress there, which should also help with the heart behavior and migraines. It's amazing how many people I've heard of lately whose doctors are actually taking them off medications and then they find they feel better. Anyway, good luck!

We were up early and out the door this morning to the hospital for the MRI. I have hated all the trips down there over the last several months, but it was really nice to know exactly where to go, where to park, how to get through the building, and all that other logistical stuff without any stress or confusion. After all, it was b.c. (before coffee) to keep my innards from getting active while I was away from home, so I really wasn't quite awake. I tried to read that convoluted book "Cosmos and Psyche" that I have been working on but everyone in the waiting room was in a chatty mood and it seemed there were some things they needed to hear from me. The most important was the last one, a 55 year old lady alone whose adult kids were all over the country. She has had several major medical crises in recent years and she wants to stay in Oregon because of our Death With Dignity opportunities. She was actually somewhat apologetic for even thinking about it. My place seemed to be to reassure her that she is being realistic in facing some of the realities of life, that too many people will not face the "what if" questions and then, when it is too late, end up with the "if only" regrets. I'm not sure where in my brain that came from but it seemed to help her cope.

My gratitude today is that we completed that trip safely. Also grateful that my daughter's new temp job is a good one so she can regain some of her equanimity, finish her schooling, and get ready to start a new direction in her life.

I hope everyone (including any lurkers) had a wonderful day. Sleep well and have a terrific Tuesday.


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5/23/16 10:33 P

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Welcome back, Evon! I'm glad to hear you guys had a wonderful time!! emoticon

I'm so sorry to hear of your sleeping issues again, Carol. I hope they ease off soon. Maybe it's just something in the air since your daughter didn't get much sleep, either. And I know from experience that people are supposed to be the ones running the house, but it's usually the dog. Ha. One time I couldn't sleep cuz the dog was taking up almost the whole bed and I'm a bed hog myself, so I tried to kick him off and he wouldn't budge. The more I tried, the more he dug in. Finally I ended up having to lift his 60 pound body off the bed and move him that way. Thankfully he didn't jump back up. So I can sympathize. I hope you guys can visit very soon! emoticon

Just another day in paradise on my end. Miss Perfect coworker irritated me again today. Once when I read email and again later in the morning when I read email again. It's annoying that she doesn't give me anywhere near enough credit. She does it to everybody and I remind myself of that, but that doesn't excuse the behavior. Oh well. Not much I can do about that.

I had to work extra hard to not let her piss me off too much today, though. My blood pressure is sky high today. I ran out of my Propanalol after Friday and I'm withdrawing. I can't get more cuz even though I still have another refill on the bloody thing, the pharmacy won't fill it without doctor consent and my last doctor was in Colorado and I don't think she'd be very comfortable sending in a refill when I'm all the way in Vegas. Plus I don't have the money to get them anymore right now. It's $50 for a 3 month supply, which I think is crap, but whatever. So I can't afford to get them even if she did. And I did some research a week ago when curiosity struck me about my swelling and I looked up my Propanalol and leg swelling and yes, it can cause water retention and leg swelling. So I think I found my problem on that one. And I'd like to note that as miserable as I am today, my legs haven't swelled up today, so that's nice.

But yeah, my pressure is definitely up right now. Cuz not only is it for migraine control, it's a beta blocker for people with high blood pressure. Which I don't have, by the way. Just the migraines. And today I've been dealing with a nonstop headache and my heart is racing and I'm out of breath because it's trying to win the Iron Man Triathlon. And I've been shaking like a diabetic. It's annoying. But I will win this. I'm determined. I have not gotten fast food today, yay me. And I just did a quick jaunt on the exercise bike, so that should help bring the pressure back down naturally and hopefully keep it there as long as I keep doing what I know I need to do. I know this sounds worse than it is. But I promise, I'm fine. And should anything much more concerning arise like pain or cold sweats, I'll be headed to the ER immediately, so don't worry there. I'm positive it's just withdrawal.

Anyway, that's it for me. I'm gonna relax a bit before bed. Hope everyone had a good day. Goodnight! emoticon

- - Hour later add-on - - I feel lots better now. My heart rate has gone down to a more reasonable level and my headache is going away. Looks like that time on the bike helped. Just thought you'd like to know! ;)

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Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Back from a wonderful trip! I so enjoyed the time I spent with my grandson. We LOVED the Wizarding World of Harry Potter!

Carol, sorry to hear about DH. I hope he gets to feeling better soon.

Tiffany, yay on your eyes!!

Merry meet to any lurkers out there.

Have a great day, all.

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Tiffany, congratulations on completing your story. It sounds as though you really put a lot of work into it. Now you deserve that rest, especially with all the efforts you have been putting in at work lately.


Today was quiet; it rained off and on with period of sunshine in between. Thanks for the good words on the trip. I have not been sleeping well (about 4 or 4-1/2 hours per night) so driving safely without getting sleepy is a major accomplishment right now. Tomorrow we have to be out the door at 6:30 a.m. to get hubby to the hospital for his MRI. I may try to sleep while I wait there for him.

I guess I'm just sort of "down" tonight. My daughter had invited us to her house for homemade lasagna for supper tonight. She makes great lasagna. I was really looking forward to it. And I always look forward to spending time with her, which has been pretty sparse in recent months. She called about 1:30 this afternoon and cancelled on us. Said our grandson, who usually sleeps with their big dog, spent the night with a friend. The dog invaded their bed and kept them awake most of the night. I bit my tongue about who runs the household. She started to invite us for next Sunday but I will be in Seattle. We'll see about some time after that. Sad sigh.

My gratitude is that hubby is getting around just a little bit better, mostly because of the prednisone and codeine he has been taking. We'll take whatever mobility we can get for him for now.

I hope everyone had a good day. Sleep well and have a marvelous Monday.


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Thank you for the insight on the Friday mishaps, Carol. I do hope that they are over now that retrograde for Mercury should be ending today. Here's hoping. And I hope hubby is on his way to healing or at least is more comfortable right now. I hope his appointments this week go well and that they fix his computer fairly quickly.

Not much on my end. It's been pretty quiet since Friday, which was lovely. I finished writing my fanfic. It's a little sad, but at the same time I think I have a writer's high at the completion of it. It's been so much fun to create this world and watch it grow and change almost on its own. And my main character was me in so many ways. So I know she'll always be extra special because she's me and because she was my first creation. And actually, after posting my 21st chapter for it, I officially passed novel length on the words and I still have another 3 chapters on it that I haven't posted yet and a short epilogue. So it's really cool. Here's a link if anybody wants to check it out. www.fanfiction.net/s/1114329
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Anyway, that's it for me today. I'm off to try to relax while I still can and wait for laundry. Have a good rest of your Sunday.

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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We made our trip over the pass today and took hubby's computer to Office Depot for repair. They called later and said he would have to be there when they work on it - I don't know what that is all about but he set an appointment for Wednesday since we have medical issues to deal with Monday and Tuesday.

My gratitude today is that we had a safe trip over the pass.

I hope everyone had a good day. Sleep well and have a sensational Sunday.

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First, congratulations on getting the business with your eyes straightened out. I'm sure you must be very relieved, although knowing there could be problems down the road may be disconcerting. Also good news about the improved treatments for your husband's condition.

As for the bad day and the spills, check your astrology chart. Mercury has been retrograde giving everybody fits and is stationing at 14 degrees of Taurus; anything in your chart at 14 degrees of a fixed sign is going to get kicked by that Mercury which includes daily details such as spilling things you care carrying while walking (or those around you, too). In addition there is a full moon tonight at 1 degree of Aquarius, so if you have anything at that position or 1 degree of Taurus, Leo, or Scorpio (again, fixed signs), high emotions will be triggered. Fortunately these are short-lived aspects and things should get better soon.'

I had a good lunch today with Hubby's cousin who does the genealogy stuff. We sat at lunch and talked for nearly 3 hours; fortunately the restaurant was empty and the staff didn't mind our using their table. She's a nice lady and really interested in all this paranormal world we sort of take for granted on this team.

Hubby is surviving his back issues with the help of his medications. Yesterday he started having problems with his computer, and today trying to "fix" it he totally screwed it up, so now he has decided he will take it to Office Depot and leave it for them to fix. It will be costly, I'm sure. Fortunately, we keep the computers and the finances separate so it's not my problem, although I will absolutely sympathize with him. So I'll ride along with him tomorrow to go over the pass with the machine. I want to make sure he is all right driving with that back (and those meds!). I may yet try to talk him into letting me drive - or have him try OTC pain killers instead of the prescription. We'll see how he feels. My reward for my "good wifely concern" is that Office Depot is right next door to Barnes & Noble and we got some coupons from them - an additional 20% off one item (that's plus our membership standard 10% discount). That's when I look for the newer books that also have an additional 10% off. Have to shop those bargains!

My gratitude tonight is that I had another great conversation with my new sister Vicky. I'm really glad I found her. She's funny and down to earth. She also seems to need someone to talk to and I can make her laugh with some of the tales of my life. She's a real blessing.

Hope everyone had a good day. Sleep well and have a super Saturday.


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Oh dear. Not good. I hope he's feeling even better today, Carol. My best to you guys.

Today has been a horrible day. But it did have its perks, I suppose. I'll get to the good stuff in a minute. First I'll bemoan my horrible morning today. So I get in to work in a good mood. Today's follow up day for my eyes and it's Friday and I take off at noon today for that and all that jazz, and first thing that I sign in to my email, I'm going at it with little miss thinks she's so perfect but she's not and she's a royal pain in my @$$. Finally I got furious enough, I just deleted the emails and signed off the chat system so she couldn't IM me. I didn't want to talk to her. I didn't want her name said. I wanted nothing to do with it. I was done. The proof that I was right is right freaking there, but she's arguing it anyway because she just has to be right and just has to be perfect. Grrrr! I wanted to throw punches. She's lucky she's in Ohio, let me tell you.

Then at about 10, I decided to get a cup of coffee from the machine at work because it's Friday and after the morning I'd had, I deserved a little bit of a treat. I make my stuff, I wait for it to stop dripping, and as I go to grab my cup, it decides to drip once more only on my hand. Which of course burned like a mother-. I jerk my hand in surprise and pain and spill coffee on the counter, the floor, and myself. I had a coffee stain on my shirt and I smelled like I had bathed in coffee. Just so lovely after the irritating couple of hours I'd already had. I clean up the counter and myself as best I could, but that didn't do much for me.

Then, later after I'd gotten off work, hubby and I decided to grab lunch before our appointments so we went to this one place. Everything is fine at first. Lately I've been on a mustard kick. Not sure why. Must be something in mustard that my body is wanting, so I put mustard on my onion rings. I'm eating them and enjoying myself. Very tasty, yum yum. I'm biting into one of my rings and the bloody thing completely falls apart and lands on my chest. And of course this part has a lot of mustard on it. So I have mustard all over my mouth, chin, and chest. And on my second shirt of the day. I was so furious at this point I asked if someone would just dump some marinara sauce on me since I was already on a roll. Just got a laugh from hubby and funny looks from other people who I returned with a death glare. So yeah. I stained two shirts today. Freaking lovely. And to top that off, either the waitress wrote my order down wrong or the cooks are incompetent, but I ordered a well done burger and mine was just barely more brown than hubby's who got medium rare. I made myself finish cuz I was pissed enough as it was. I just had to make myself not look at all the pink in there. I can't stand the meat to be pink. I think it's disgusting. So I forced that down and we left.

But thankfully, things seemed to start turning around when we got to the eye doctor. I'm hoping things will get better now, but we'll see. So on to the eye doctor news. Well, I am happy to report that I am now officially back to being a happy contact lens wearer. My grounding is done. Yay! My eyes are nice and healed up. He did change my brand of contacts as the ones I've been using for all but one year in my 10 or 11 years of wearing lenses are an older brand and they're going to be phasing them out anyway, to a different and new kind that offers more moisture and breathability to help prevent my eyes from doing that again.

The bad news is that since it's already happened and the fact that I let it go so long undiagnosed and untreated by keeping quiet, it can happen again rather easily, so he'd recommend me switching to a daily disposable lens in the future. I said no this time cuz I just don't have that kind of money and the insurance, while better than nothing, sucks. So he said these should do good for me for now.

More sad news on my vision is that my blur is yet again worsening. He said my eyes are sitting fairly equal at about 20/400 in each. For those that don't understand, that means my nearsightedness is horrendously bad and getting worse. I also have begun developing a slight case of astigmatism. Not bad enough to need the special kind of contacts, but I do need the astigmatism stuff put in my glasses so that I can see clearer when I wear them. That's actually another one of the reasons I've had so many problems with my glasses lately.

And the other good news is that we learned that should we ever have a kid or two that shares hubby's eye condition, there is a new treatment out now that permanently freezes the corneas so they don't continue to misshapen themselves at the first diagnosis, so they'd be able to live a normal life without all the rigamaro that he's going through now. And we also learned that his condition should stabilize out within a decade or two and stop getting worse. They'll never get better without a transplant, which has very high failure and rejection rates, but they'll stop getting worse. So that's good to know.

Alright. So I guess that's it for me tonight. I'm off to try to avoid spilling more stuff on myself and getting in fights with annoying people. Later.

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I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

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Not much to add here. We stayed indoors most of the day, out of the rain. Hubby is taking it easy today. The pain pills are helping somewhat but he still can't get his computer up and running again. He spent hours on the phone with tech help and still the thing isn't working right.

Tomorrow I will be having lunch with hubby's cousin who does all the genealogy stuff. I want to pick her brain about using the Ancestry program. Meanwhile I promised I would give her more information from her astrological chart. Hopefully I can get to the restaurant between the predicted rain showers.

My gratitude today is that I have my own computer and don't have to deal with hubby's machine. He has "friends" who send him all kinds of articles and jokes and stuff and I think they must come full of malware and trojans and virus bugs because he is always having problems and having to get help to fix it.

I hope everyone had a good day today. Sleep well and have a fabulous Friday. Three cheers - the weekend is just about here!


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Tiffany, thanks for the support for my hubby. I needed every bit of that encouragement today.

Just when I thought life was settling down! Hubby got up this morning and could barely move - walked bent over at about a 45 degree angle or more. He tried some OTC pain pills and they helped but only a little. He got to the doctor's office and it turned out he was scheduled with the Physician's Assistant (PA). But he said she was very good. She ordered a set of xrays (radiology office is just across the parking lot) so he went and got those taken. He said the radiologist was very gentle and all that but still ended up having to manipulate him into specific positions that really torqued him up even more. The PA also ordered a set of MRIs (down at that hospital 30 miles from here) and sent a couple prescriptions to the pharmacy (10 miles down the road, our choice). He ate lunch and then I tried to schedule the MRI. Sat on hold forever. Then the lady in scheduling said they never got the orders and to call the doctor's office to resend them. Made that call - and sat on hold awhile. Finally the receptionist said she already sent them but would send them again, to give the fax a couple minutes to get there and then call them again. I did as instructed and then sat on hold for a short while again. New person answered the phone, started the "we don't have them routine" which I pushed back against and then she finally found them. But the doctor's office had not sent an insurance authorization and she couldn't do anything without that. Had to called the doc's office again and this time sat on hold nearly 10 minutes. "Oh, that will take days" said the helpful voice. I pushed back and she finally agreed to "try to get her staff to move quickly on it." Meanwhile I could call back the MRI place AGAIN and they would set an appointment 3 business days out to give the doc's office time to get the insurance authorization. Called scheduling again and got the first person I talked to. Yes, they could do that, but that made our first available time Monday morning - at 7:45 a.m. Remember, that' an hour's drive from here. Next appointment was at 3:20 in the afternoon. Hubby has a follow up with the doctor's office on Tuesday afternoon but it will take 24-48 hours to get the results to the doc's office. So we took the early morning time. By then my blood pressure must have been 700/600 but at least we got it handled. Then I had to drive to pick up the prescriptions. Only one of the two had been sent electronically; fortunately, hubby had paper copies of both and I took them with me, then had to wait for them to fill the second one. The only good to come from it was that after I turned it in I came across my grandson and daughter's SO in the store, so we stopped and talked a few minutes. (Store is just across the street from the high school.) Then I went and picked up a frozen pizza for supper - I was not up to cooking tonight! I left the diet in the car.

Tonight at least brought good news. Daughter passed the class she just finished with an A, at 98.7%. Then she passed the test she took today to cover another whole class. Then she texted that she is likely starting a long-term temp job on Monday at a VERY good pay rate and a reasonable commute. So life is at least starting to look up for her.

Today I am grateful that we have reliable vehicles and doctors in place so we can just deal with the immediate issues and not have to be finding new medical caregivers.

I hope everybody else had a reasonable day. Sleep well and have a great Thursday.


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Oops. Forgot to post last night again.

Sorry to hear about hubby, Carol. I hope he gets to feeling better here very soon. Slipped discs are no fun.

I have to keep this quick. I have to get to work. Work has been busy. There's been this email issue that's been going on for over a week and we haven't resolved it yet. We're getting emails, but not all of them. There's been two vendors of mine who haven't been able to get their invoices through for whatever reason, so IT is working on a solution. Last night before I left, one of them was able to get through to my own email, so hopefully the main email is fixed, too. We'll see here in a little bit. But that being said, I have lots of catch up to do since they just got through yesterday. I have a week's worth of recons to get done and BOLs to enter so that all those invoices can get processed today so checks can be printed and sent tomorrow. I'll probably do BOLs in between emails again today to help with that since it takes so long for those screens to load. It'll save a little bit of time. Especially since I need to get another location reconned today, too.

As a side note, it's not so much that I'm overly worried about getting pregnant. It's that I can't ovulate. I can't even have a period because I'm too bloody big. And then whenever i have a tiny sign that I could even remotely be a pregnancy symptom, I jump to my happy conclusion and end up disappointing myself again. Like I said, it's a bad cycle. And it just drives me insane that women who are just as big as me or even bigger can get pregnant and have kids, but no. My body shuts down. And my boss has a tiny bump already. And this morning my best friend sent me a picture and said that she hoped it didn't bring me down. It's a positive pregnancy test. So yeah. I'm happy for her, don't get me wrong. She's a beautiful woman and a great mom. I'm happy for her. But it is killing me. Right now it just kinda feels like I'm being destroyed by having my hopes and dreams dangled in front of me with other people. Kinda like that keep away game kids play. That's what this feels like. And it hurts a lot. But at the same time, I have no one to blame but myself. Because I'm not losing weight. So yeah. That's it in a nutshell.

Anyway, I better go or I'll be late. Later.

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I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Today was grocery shopping while hubby went to the chiropractor for his back that he pulled yesterday. She worked on him and then told him to called our primary care doctor as she cannot do anything more for him and thinks he may have slipped a disc. So he will be seeing her at noon on Wednesday. I'm glad she is an osteopath; she should be better able to handle this back business than an M.D.

I did get in my stationary bike ride today and not much else got done. I'm keeping a close eye on hubby so he doesn't get all macho and try to overdo things today. He started talking about mowing the lawn tomorrow morning before the rain sets in and I told him in no uncertain terms that if he thought it needed mowing I would do it. I got all female macho (whatever word that would be) about how I mowed a much larger lawn by myself the four years I was single before we were married. I did admit I have never used one of these mowers that pulls you along; I always had to push. But I can darned well learn! So we'll see what tomorrow brings. He will be seeing the doctor at noon.

My gratitude today is that we were forward thinking enough to set up our relationships with doctors when we moved here so that they would be in place when we needed them - like today for hubby's back!

I hope everyone had a good day today. Sleep well tonight and have a wonderful Wednesday.


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Things are quiet here so there's not much to add. Tiffany, I just want to suggest you quit worrying so much about getting pregnant. Sometimes that stress is enough to interfere with the natural process. Have fun while you "work on it" and just let things happen in their own time. Remember, things will happen on the Goddess's time table.

My gratitude today is that the weather has cooled down and I was able to stand in the breeze and get to know another one of my neighbors while waiting for the mail truck to arrive.

I hope everybody has had a good day. Sleep well and have a terrific Tuesday.


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Hi Carol. Yeah, I'm sure I'm not pregnant. I test every Sunday and it always says the same thing. Which is why I'm dealing with those annoying emotions. I thought that I might have actually gotten lucky this time because I had heartburn and I've been tired and things like that. Nothing like hugely major tip offs like sore boobs or whatnot, but I immediately fell into my old pattern of getting my hopes up and telling myself to stop and only celebrate if I saw those blessed two pink lines, but I do it anyway and when I see the single pink line that always shows up, I destroy my heart yet more. It's a horrible cycle and I need to stop it. Honestly, I think I'm so obsessed with wanting to get pregnant and be a mom that it's borderline psychotic. Maybe true, maybe just me beating myself up yet again for getting my hopes up yet again when I know better. So yeah. That's why I've been so emotional this weekend. And it's not any better this morning. I don't want to be awake and I most definitely don't want to go to work today and be around people. I don't really care for people in general, but it's really bad today. But I'm forcing myself to go and deal even though I don't want to since I have to take a half day on Friday for my eye appointment. So that being said, I better go. Talk later.

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I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Hi Tiffany, I'm sorry to hear about those annoying emotions. I know you said you wanted to start a family. Are you sure you are not pregnant already? Annoying emotions, sensitivity, and sudden bouts of crying are common early indicators of pregnancy, along with really sore boobs. Good luck in coping, whatever way that goes.

It's been a quiet day here, lots of time on the computer again. I got to a point of being stymied on one branch of that family tree so have put it aside for now. Within the next few days I expect II will be seeing my hubby's family friend who is an expert on finding this stuff. I'll have to ask her how to proceed. Meanwhile I'm getting back to my charts and other reading too. And I did get back on the bike today. I keep hoping that weight will budge. Occasionally (like today) the scale will drop one pound or so but it never seems to last. We'll see what happens tomorrow. Meanwhile I need to get some sleep.

I hope everyone had a good day today. Sleep well and have a marvelous Monday.

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Hi Carol. Sounds pretty productive and satisfying. I'm happy to hear things are going more or less well.

Not much to share on my end. Just dealing with annoying emotions again. Haven't done much this weekend. Got some writing done yesterday. I think it's my second to last chapter of my fanfic. Which is a little sad, but also exhilarating. When I published the last chapter which was about 3 chapters ago, I'm hoping to finish it off before I post the next one, I was at 20 chapters and over 48k words. I never dreamed it'd ever get that big, so it's really an awesome thought. And I have more coming before it's done. Maybe another 10k words or so? Regardless, pretty cool.

Anyway. I guess that's it for me. Enjoy the rest of your day.

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Greetings all! Evon, I trust you are getting ready for that big trip of yours. You should have that job off your shoulders for now so you can relax.

Tiffany, I hope you are getting some much-needed rest. You've had a busy time too.

Jaclyn, I suspect you have been really busy with the end of the school year. Hang in there - summer vacation is coming!

Today I've worked mainly on my mother's branch on my family tree. My new sister is working on our father's side. So far I have 168 people on this tree with the possibility of many more. On one sub-branch I've followed out 7 or 8 generations. I'm a puzzle person (like you, Sally) and in its own way this is a gigantic jigsaw puzzle. I haven't been able to get into the European records yet (they are pricey) and I don't believe in reinventing the wheel. So following some advice from my sister I figured out how to pull up trees that are already made by others. I still have to be careful to get the right ones and not wrong ones with similar names. The system let's me pull the information from one to the other so I guess it's OK or that system would not be in place. None of the siblings on my mother's side has done any of this so it will sort of be my gift to them. But time can get away from you with this stuff, and I never did get to my stationary bike or other exercises today. Oh yes, and it's newspaper day so I have taken time for some of those puzzles.

Today I'm grateful for the flexibility I have from being retired so I can do all these things at my own discretion.

I hope everybody has had a good day. Sleep well and have a wonderful Sunday.


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I hope everyone has had a good day. My day was quiet - lots of time on the computer on the Ancestry program and catching up with personal e-mails. Also time on the stationary bike. It's just amazing, I have been on that bike 5 days out of 7 and really watched my eating, and still cannot get a pound off. If anything, my body is trying to gain weight. It's frustrating beyond words.

My gratitude today is that my husband doesn't mind my laidback style of housekeeping. I meant to clean up the kitchen this afternoon but never got there. Oh well, the morning will give me another whole day to work with. And it will get done then. .

I hope everyone has had a good day. Sleep well and have a super Saturday.

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Hi Tiffany, I'm really glad to hear your eyes seem to be healing. That has to be a tremendous relief for you. And it's cool that you figured out how to make the technology settings work better for you. Mercury is retrograde and will turn direct on the 22nd, which isn't that far off, and I'm betting your eyes will be well healed by then.

I took my car in to get the brakes worked on. It ended up costing me about half of what I expected, which was much appreciated. They figured out they could re-machine the rotors instead of having to replace them. About a year after I got my latest car my husband backed into me in the driveway and put a dent in my left front fender. I've never gotten around to having it fixed. Today I happened to see the body work guy when I was at the dealership for the brake work and he said he would look at it. When I picked up the car he said, "About $100, about an hour" so I told him I would see him in a couple weeks when I get back from Seattle. Hubby said he would pay for the work since he put the dent there. He also said he would be glad to see it fixed because every time he saw the dent he had another pang of guilt over putting it there. Now I have never nagged him or bugged him about it, but I sort of "knew" and let him have his punishment. I guess 7 years is long enough. I'll get it fixed when get back.

Tonight I had a wonderful long talk with my new sister Vicky. Sometimes I think she really needed an older sister to talk to. It's good that I can fill that role and it doesn't bother me.

So tonight I am grateful for the guys who work on my car. They do a good job, charge a fair price, and don't try to take unfair advantage of me.

Hope everyone is well. Sleep tight and have a fabulous Friday - even though it's Friday the 13th. Hooray for the weekend!

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I agree with Carol. Lots of hours, there. Hopefully that'll also make the time go faster until vacation. Enjoy yourself, now! :)

Sounds like a busy day, Carol. But it seems like you're really making headway on it and that's really cool. It's always awesome to figure out where you come from.

Not much on my end. Just another day in paradise, really. But I do have some good news to share. I was doing okay yesterday with my computer. Things were only blurry in some spots where my eyes are still probably healing, but I could see. And the constant scrolling on my screens was really starting to irritate me because it's just such a waste of time and I really just need to see everything in one spot. So, I decided to go ahead and give medium a try. I turn the large to medium, restart my computer which wasn't necessary but I figured why not. I log back in and open up the programs I need.

Well, while it was by no means perfect, I could see! I was so excited I almost threw a party right there. My nose hurts like crazy thanks to my glasses, but I could see and it was so very exciting. Today seems to be even better so far. I haven't changed the font on my personal computer. Call that my own personal stubbornness. And I can actually read what I'm writing right now. Like I said, it's not perfect, but at least it's not just a constant and perfect haze of blur.

Anyway, I better run. Need to force myself to finish breakfast and get going. Have a good day, all.

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I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

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My goodness, Evon, you really do put in some long hours. You'll be more than ready for that vacation!

I'm not sure where all today went. I had several new Ancestry contacts come in so I pushed myself through checking on those. Fortunately there were not too many. Then I found a family tree already on there with a bunch of ancestors that seemed to match into mine, so I sent an internal message to the lady to see if we are, in fact, related. She might be able to help me figure out where my branch connects to some of the other DNA matches I have. We'll see. My primary chore today was getting my ballot filled out and ready to take to the drop box at City Hall. I had saved several of the recent local newspapers that had information on the candidates in them; I used those along with the information pamphlet the local election officials send out and got that done. I hate all the TV ads but I guess that's the price we pay for our freedoms here. I'll take it over some of the oppressive options in this world. Other than that, I just seemed too tired to do much today - didn't even ride the stationary bike.

My gratitude today is for the freedoms we have. As aggravated as I get with some of the politics I'm grateful for what we have.

I hope everyone has had a good day. I'm off to bed so I can be up early to take my car back into the shop. It still needs brakes and we had to wait to do it until they could get the parts in from the warehouse. I'm also grateful that it will be done and my car will be in good shape for me to take on the highway to Seattle in just 2 more weeks!

Sleep well and have a great Thursday.


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I thought I glanced through here yesterday but apparently I didn't. Sorry, all.

There's a new project at work that's taking a LOT of my time and energy, I worked until 11:00 last night and was back here at 8:30 this morning. I should be leaving here in about an hour.

Our vacation starts Friday so I'll be out of pocket until NEXT Thursday then. Thanks for your well-wishes. I'm sure we're going to have GREAT fun! I can't wait to buy a wand from Ollivander's, lol.

It's delightful to see that things are going a little more calmly for everyone after the upheaval in the last several weeks.

Take care, all, and I'll try to check in at least one more time before we fly away.

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Hi Tiffany, I'm sorry to hear you are having such troubles with your eyes, though I know you are doing everything you can to help them heal. It was good of your co-worker to help out with that difficult part of your job. I'll be eager to hear of your progress as time goes on.

Evon, happy vacation, wherever you are. Hope you will be able to share a couple photos when you get back.

The weather has warmed up - in the 70s today; projected to 80s for the next day or two and even 90 by the end of the week, and then a cool down to highs in the 60s again.

Today was just grocery shopping and riding the stationary bike. I'm still trying to find a way to create some clones to catch up on everything that needs doing here but so far I haven't had much success. Our yard is starting to look like spring. The day lilies are still in the green leaf stage, but the purple irises have gotten super tall and started to bloom - five were full flowered today and three more have purple tips and ready to open tomorrow. My calla lilies are coming up, nine little sprouts so far. Eight look as though they are from the same giant bulb. The other one is sitting a little farther off, but on the opposite side of where I planted the offspring bulb/seed last fall, so I'm not sure what is going on underground there. I guess I'll just wait and see how it all develops throughout the summer.

Today I am grateful for having a manageable house and yard instead of the big place we had in Colorado. Life is much simpler in this smaller place, though I'm still wondering if I dare even buy a couple more books when I go to that conference in Seattle in a few weeks. Have to figure out where I will keep them!

Hope everyone had a good day. Sleep well and have a wonderful Wednesday. Hump day tomorrow already!?!?! Where does the time go.

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Ooops! Sorry! Forgot to post again. Haha. I'm getting bad at that and I'm not quite sure why.

Anyway, nothing new to share on my end, anyway. I finally broke my writer's block over the weekend and wrote 2 chapters and 6k words for my fanfic. Proud of that. It was hard since I can't see clearly, but I was finally inspired and I had to do it. And I have more brewing finally. Yay.

Work has been really difficult with the vision issues. I have my computer text turned up as high as it can go and I even had to go so far as to move my monitors yesterday and I was practically kissing them. Had some people laughing at me. Not mean, but I still felt hurt. I'm too sensitive. And my badge quit working yesterday, too. It's fixed now, but I was ticked about that one. It wasn't quite as bad today. I was able to keep my monitors in place and squint and got by. And one of my coworkers probably read my FB rant about my eyes and my glasses and she offered to do the uplift recon for one of my locations because that one has to be done line by line and the text on those invoices are teeny tiny. So I was grateful for the help on that one.

Hubby and his father haven't spoke yet. He's still thinking on it. I'm thinking he'll do it, but he has to do his thing first. Deal with all those emotions. Fun fun. And my boss is further along than I knew. Her due date is 12/8. And I have a strong feeling one of my other coworkers is pregnant, too. Just a strong vibe I get. We'll see. I have a feeling we'll all know by next week.

Sounds like a nice day, Carol. Sorry you got back so late. Hope you got plenty of rest.

Evon, I hope fur baby is feeling better by now. I was sad to read of his allergy problems. I also hope you're enjoying your trip if you're on it right now. I can't remember the date(s) you said you'd be gone, so I hope that goes well.

Well, that's it for me. I'm going to have dinner and relax. Goodnight!

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

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I'll catch back up with everybody tomorrow as it's too late tonight and I'm really exhausted. We were gone all day today going out to Seaside to my grandson's track meet. Beautiful weather - he ran really well - good day all around. But it's really late.

Gratitude today is for the beautiful weather, safe drive, and wining ways for my grandson.

Hope everyone had a great day. Sleep well and have a terrific Tuesday.

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Oh, Evon, your poor pooch. I'm glad to you figured it out so that the misery didn't continue for your poor fur baby. Hope that all clears up soon. Also glad to hear you had a good visit with your family but so sorry to hear about your aunt. It certainly must be upsetting for all your family members, and I'm willing to bet that if your aunt has any awareness of her behavior change she is also miserable about it. I'll be sending good thoughts to all of you. My biological mother and her mother both became violent and hateful in their last years, but from what I understand this was just an escalation of some of their normal, less than beautiful traits. I certainly do not want to become like they were. My temperament is quite different which I hope will help keep me from spitting on people and fighting with them and hiding scissors and other weapons to be used in sudden attacks as they did.

Our day has been quiet. I had a wonderful phone call this morning from my granddaughter. Every day that she is clean and sober and pushing to change her life is a blessing and a gift. My son called this afternoon to wish me Happy Mother's Day. Hubby took me out for lunch yesterday with daughter, as you know, so he did not do anything else except tell me today that I'm a good mom and grandmother. I'll take it. My two step-sons did not call, which is unusual. They also both missed my birthday last week. It's OK. They have very full lives right now so I don't take it personally. I also finished reviewing all my Ancestry DNA matches, so check another item off my ToDo list. Tomorrow we will be driving out to Seaside for the last of the track meets this spring. We should have a good day weather-wise.

My gratitude today is for my Spark friends and this wonderful forum that lets me vent and share and listen and learn about so many wonderful non-traditional or standardized beliefs. So all of you are also my gift. Thank you.

I hope everybody out there had a great day today. Sleep well and have a marvelous Monday.


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emoticon Our fur-baby got into another dog's food and had a bad reaction. His poor chest, belly and legs are all red and inflamed and, obviously, itchy -- he's been digging at them for a day or two until I noticed and put some medication on his skin. We know that he's allergic to regular store brands of dog food (e.g., Kibbles N Bits, Beneful, Dog Chow, etc.) and I have to go to a specialty store and get him very specific food. But there's been another dog visiting the past week or so and he obviously got into her food. Poor thing.

I had a nice dinner with my mom, two daughters and brother for Mother's Day. Of course I had to pay for most of it, but that's no less than I expected. We still had a nice conversation.

My mom was telling me, though, that she's been talking more closely with her sister and girlfriend and, apparently, her sister is beginning to exhibit signs of dementia. Her girlfriend said she will fly into these unprovoked rages, say and do some very ugly, mean things and then not remember it later. Rage and ugliness are not at all normal for my aunt. I'm so glad we went on the cruise with them in November. It may be the last time they'll have been close while they both were "present".

Tiffany, so glad that you figured out who was following you. If my suggestion helped then I'm so happy. I don't know if it was intuition or logic but it just seemed to me that was the right direction to look. I hope your husband and he are able to come to an understanding.

Carol and all other moms, Happy Mother's Day!


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Hey there Tiffany. Sounds as though you had a very eventful day. I'm glad you were able to sort out the identity and possible purpose of the spirit's visit. Hopefully you can help help your husband and his father come to some peace and resolution in their resolution. What a fabulous gift you have, and what courage to be willing to use it when you know it could be difficult.

I'm sorry to hear about the minions but happy to know you knew what they were and how to deal with them.

Wow, that's quite an issue you are having with your eyes. I'm glad you had a good medical provider who was able to diagnose this problem and was able to help you move toward healing. Please keep us posted on your progress.

Hubby and I had brunch with my daughter, her SO, and her son today for Mother's Day. I ran to Walmart this morning and bought her a card - yikes those things are expensive, even at Walmart! They had bouquets of flower along the walkway and on impulse I bought some pink roses for her. They weren't expensive and I put them in water in a vase I had in the house. We ate at a little local cafe; I had a Reuben. It was really good but I have had heartburn ever since we got home. Not so sure we will go back there. They came back to the house to visit and stayed and talked for quite awhile. She finally admitted to me she had been let go from her job on Friday. (I think I've told you she has been having a lot of trouble there.) I actually encouraged her to celebrate this weekend and then use the next couple weeks to rest and work on her requirements for graduation that have to be done. She has such a great, really metaphysical, perspective - I'm so proud of her. She can look at all she learned on this job that she could not have learned in any other setting, and she recognizes that it was a very bad situation and that she is well out of it. She believes as I do that the Universe is giving her this time and has better things planned for her. And of course, the Universe will act in Its own time and things will work out well in the end. What a great lady.

Anyway, I had a long talk with my sister tonight. Nothing else going on.

My gratitude today is for a wonderful visit with my daughter. In fact,my heart is just overflowing with thanks.

I hope everyone else has had a good day. Have a Super Sunday and a lovely Mothers Day if you are a mother or have one in your family.


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Sounds like a lot of work, Carol. But it sounds very rewarding and that you enjoy it, so that's wonderful. And I'm really glad to hear that you're getting along pretty well with your sisters. Very good! :)

I forgot to post again yesterday. Sorry. But there wasn't much new to post at the time and I also had a migraine problem. I do have an update on the ghost man. Evon, it was actually you who tipped me off. I can't believe I didn't think of that, but at the same time I can. Hubby's family is much smaller than mine and he doesn't really get along with most of them, just his mom and nana. But when you said it could be his dad or grampa, it just felt right. So I asked his mom how tall his father was because I knew hubby wouldn't know. His dad abandoned him and his mom when he was 2. And I asked how tall her dad was as well, but I didn't think it'd be him because by all accounts he was a total jerkbag who hated all living things. So I asked her and her dad was about 5' 11" and hubby's father was about 6' 3". Which I knew was just about right from what I saw. So I went ahead and opened and reached out. And it is indeed him. He's been gone for at least a decade, and he wants to talk to his son. And the only way that he can do that is through me and he had no idea how to approach me because he knew he screwed up massively and that I'd probably side with my hubby. Which I do, but I also have this gift for a reason, so I'm open to help. I told him that he probably wouldn't be too receptive because whether or not he wants to admit it, he's pissed at him for abandoning him and his mom. And he has every right to be. And he agreed. But I told him I'd talk to him and we'd see what happens, so he's going to wait on the fringe so to speak until I tell him he won't or until they talk. I talked to hubby this morning and he was very shocked by this and a little upset that he's just now coming around to talk to him. Which I don't blame him. But he said he would think about it, so that's a step. He probably needs the closure just as much as his father does, so we shall see what happens there.

Then a few hours later one of my ex aunt's minions attacked me. Those bloody buggers, man. I have to refresh the protections every few months. They're these little like gremlin looking things. About knee height and have some sharp claws that they've used twice on me now. They have like zero intelligence, so it's easy to get rid of them, but they are mean when they do scratch. I just wish I could go head to head with her and get this over with. Grr. Oh well.

And, hubby and I got our eyes checked this morning. We both have to go back in a couple weeks. I mentioned that I've been having a really hard time with dry eyes and blurry vision and it's always worse with my glasses than my contacts. And he did the exam and my right eye had very significant blurry problems than my left, so he dilated my eyes to see if there was a more serious issue. He also actually put a dye in my eyes as well to find the issue.

The good news is that my eyes are fine. Nothing serious like glaucoma or something. But, I do have some eye damage. He said I have major inflammation in both eyes, but it is significantly worse in my right eye than my left. Basically, my corneas look like a scraped knee and my contacts have been kind of like a bandaid in that they cover the damage while I'm wearing them and I can see so much clearer, but when I take them out, they kinda reopen the wounds to the air and I experience pain and problems with my glasses.

That being said, my eyes can't heal with my contacts in. So I'm officially grounded from my contacts for at least two weeks while they heal. So I'm being forced to wear my glasses, which I hate because I feel they make me look dumb and they are so uncomfortable, and my vision is so blurry. But he said I should experience improvement in about 5 days. But it sucks! And I have to put these weird drops in my eyes 4 times a day for two weeks to help them heal. Very weird drops. They leave a milky film over my eyes for a couple minutes, so everything is like this white haze. It's crazy.

So yeah, that's what's going on with me today. I'm grounded from my contacts for at least two weeks and they'll check my vision again and all that. Hubby has his wife mute button prepped and ready because I'll probably be whining about wearing my glasses every day to him. In case you didn't get the memo, I really hate wearing my glasses. Lol. Oh well. I have to let my eyes heal or they will keep getting worse. I actually think this has been a problem for a few years now and nobody's found it because I haven't complained until today.... Oh well...

Anyway, that's it for me. I guess I'll head off and read a bit if I can. Hope everyone is enjoying their weekends. Later!

Oh, and Evon, have fun on your trip next week! :)

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Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Good evening everyone.It's been a blessedly uneventful day here. I spent a lot of time on the computer sorting Ancestry DNA matches and answering my astrology friend's e-mails regarding her upcoming move (it's really hard to read your own chart - too much personal bias gets in the way), along with doing a bit of housework and riding the exercise bike. We had beautiful weather too. Tonight my daughter's SO called to talk to my hubby and arrange a Mothers Day brunch for my daughter and me; we are going out tomorrow morning instead of Sunday to avoid the crowds that invariably fill the restaurants on Mothers Day.

As for the Ancestry stuff you asked about, Evon, things are moving ahead steadily there. I have been in touch with both my sisters, one in particular. We are getting into more of a routine of talking once or twice a week and just catching up on day-to-day stuff. We each know enough about each other to be pretty comfortable. Both sisters have been really warm and welcoming. The older of the two brothers has been sort of out of touch, which I guess is his general stance on family life anyway. The younger one is the one who thought he knew my husband from seeing him fishing in Colorado or some such thing, but he has my contact information and hasn't reached out yet. He is the same one who has talked about submitting his own DNA to Ancestry but if he has done it yet he hasn't told any of the rest of us. The only other update is that Ancestry refined their DNA analysis and matching process, so some of the numbers in our connections have changed. The sister I found shared 1,960 centiMorgans (measuring units) with me when we first met. With the new system it is now up over 2,100. So that really confirms how closely we are related. I'm still trying to get a handle on just what I'm going to do with all the information once I get it sorted. It certainly has been an adventure.

By the way, Evon if you (or anybody else) decide to submit a sample be prepared for possible surprises and perhaps even some giggles. Besides the possibility of a sibling showing up (as I did for these paternal relatives) you can get some matches that are really far out because of the small connections that can exist. I had one come in that carried genes for western African and ancient hunter gatherer lines, among other exotic and seemingly unrelated DNA segments. He probably connected with me through some very small, trace level connection to the Iberian peninsula which I also carry at trace levels. The good news is I can make notes and move on; with the literally thousands of connections that show up you really have to get through a major sorting process. I'm just waiting to see if they can find ways to identify and then match us on any alien DNA. Now that would be a real hoot!

My gratitude today is that my younger step-son called and talked to me for quite awhile. We have been pretty close over the years but he pulled back a couple months ago. But the air is clear between us and I'm happy we are really connected. His own mother became quite abusive and he essentially disowned her many years ago.

Gotta go get some sleep. I have to be up early to go get a Mothers Day card for my daughter before we meet her for brunch.

I hope everybody has had a good day today. Sleep well and have a super Saturday.


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Good morning, ladies (and gents, if any of you are lurking),

Tiffany, at first I thought you were talking about being followed by a corporeal man and I was afraid for you. Once I realized what you meant though I just became very curious. You said the energy was similar to your husband's. Could it be his father or grandfather? Someone who wants to get a feel for whether you will "carry on the line" in a way that he would approve. I know you're trying to start a family, maybe this entity is scouting ahead, so to speak.

Carol, did you find anything else interesting in your DNA results? Has the brother that said he was going to do it followed through at all? I keep thinking I'm going to do it myself, I know all my siblings, but it would be fascinating to find out more fully what my heritage is. On my mom's side I know we're Scots, Irish, Dutch and Slovakian but we are completely clueless on my dad's side. No one seems to have any idea or any curiosity about it.

I'm getting geared up for my trip with the grandson next week. I'm so very excited!

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Hi Tiffany. That's quite an experience you had with that man. It will be interesting to see if he comes back later or was just passing through. I am certainly happy he is not malevolent. Since you are not living in the area where you grew up it's not likely to be just any old family member. Perhaps he is attached to the area you are living in. If it's important, I'm sure you'll find out. Please do keep us posted.

Our day has been quiet. I sorted out a lot of the new Ancestry matches I received. The have changed their DNA processing system and I had to smile, They have changed the number of centimorgans (measuring units) that tie me to my new sister. It was 1960. Now it is closer to 2100. We are definitely closely related! I also rode the stationary bike today. I really am pushing myself on that. I have my annual physical scheduled for early June just after I get back from the Seattle conference and I know that staying with the exercise will help with my blood work numbers. Last year it put me back in all the normal ranges!

My gratitude today is for continued good health even if the weight doesn't want to come off and the years are going up. Celebrating my birthday this past week did not make me feel old. In many ways it energizes and inspires me to keep fighting for my health. The mantra around here is "Only The Good Die Young" (thank you Billy Joel) so with my past I expect to live to be at least 200. Gotta keep up the body if I'm going to be around that long.

Hope everyone is doing well. Sleep tight and have a fabulous Friday. Weekend is almost here!

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Evening, guys. Hope everyone had a decent day. Happy Cinco de Meow. Lol. Cat joke I saw on FB this morning. I thought it was cute.

Nothing new to really report on my end. Just another day. Although, I did finally realize that a man is following me. Not alive. Don't know why. He won't let me get close enough to see a face or talk to him to find out why he's following me. But I'm not going to go out of my way to make contact. I don't feel anything malevolent, but you never know when that wolf in sheep's clothing will strike. If he wants to talk, he'll talk to me, I figure. It's just odd, though. Definitely male. Tall, about 6 foot, and his energy is similar to my husband's, but markedly different. What took me so long to figure it out was because of that. Usually in the morning is when it happens, when I'm having breakfast and waiting for him to get up and in the office to have his breakfast, and I would feel a male presence enter the room and I'd think it was him, but I'd turn around and it's not him and I'm alone again. Whatever I felt was gone. Kinda blew it off as me wishing he'd get moving. I am a medium, but I keep myself blocked off for obvious reasons. So today I was in the shower and the room got darker for a second and I felt a male in the room again and I asked him if he was in there, but he was in the bedroom and he said he wasn't. But I wasn't alone and I knew it, and that's when it finally hit me. This man has been following me for several days now and I have no idea why. Because when I finally realized that he was there and wasn't who I thought it was, he left just as quickly as he came and I was only able to read the leftovers of the energy, giving me the description I already gave you. It's odd. I wonder why he's following me and won't talk to me or let me see who he is. But at the same time, I feel like we're related, but I'm not really sure, either. And it's not my dad. I know that. My dad was shorter and wouldn't hide his presence. Whenever he visits, he likes to make himself known. So yeah. Odd.

Anyway, I guess that's it for me today. I'm off to relax with Friends again. Goodnight.

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Evon, thanks for the "nerdy" support. I hope you have a better day tomorrow.

Tiffany, thanks for the comments on the weight loss issue. It's discouraging but at the same time I do know of people who manage to lose weight and keep it off. As I said earlier, I suspect that a lot of it has to do with using the slow and steady approach to the body does not get the impression of starvation.

I took my car in for some maintenance today. It took longer to fix than expected but we still got down to my grandson's track meet in time to talk to him and then see him run. Since it was at his home school his step-dad was there too, video recording the youngster's races. We sat with the step-dad and had a civilized visit. The weather has turned colder. I took a light jacket, which helped, but I really wished I had a heavier jacket with me. My husband refused to take a coat, swore he did not want or need one. He about froze himself, even while refusing the offer of a spare sweat shirt our grandson had in his pack. I turned on the heat in the car and although the car warmed up we were still cold when we got home. The heat was on in the house and felt good but now, a couple hours later, I am still sitting with a blanket wrapped around me. I feel as though the chill got into my bones and I just can't get warm. Our grandson ran really well, however, and it was good to see him succeeding.

My brain is still too cold to function very well, so I will leave the writing at this point. I am grateful for the opportunity to watch my grandson as he is growing up.

Hope everyone is doing well. Sleep tight and have a great Thursday.


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I didn't see the interviews, but I unfortunately believe it. Our bodies are definitely working against us. Our bodies are designed to get weight and keep it to keep it alive. Very handy in the caveman era. But of course, evolution probably never saw 8+ hours a day desk jobs and fast food restaurants on every corner. Because when you lose weight, your metabolism slows down to try to hold on to what it has, it thinks you're starving. And then to top that annoyance off, your ghrelin hormones go up, making you hungrier than ever because the body thinks it's dying and wants that weight back on there so you don't. Not quite realizing that it has too much and the excess really should go. Okay, nerd moment over. Sorry.

Had an interesting dream this morning. And of course the alarm goes off before I can finish the dream. I feel like it was really something substantial, too. And I can't remember all of it, either. That's the really frustrating part. I remember being really afraid and I was getting ready to walk into this black abyss thing. Just like a wall of black and I was terrified, but I knew I had to get to it and walk through it. And there was a gentle voice, urging me on, saying it was fine and to face my fear. Just as I'm about to touch the wall thing with my hand, the alarm goes off. I'm still ticked about that.

May the fourth be with everyone. I'm signing off. I have a tension headache, so I'm going to take a muscle relaxer with my dinner and head to bed. Also have been kinda down today. Not quite sure why. Just been feeling low. Maybe it's from not being able to finish that dream. Like I said, I feel like it was something really substantial that was about to happen. Anyway, goodnight.

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I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

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Very clever, Carol, lol. And this from a fellow nerd.

Tiffany, CONGRATS on closing out the books! I remember when I did financial analysis, closing the books was a big deal for us.

Still hectic in my world. I worked until 1:00 am this morning then came home and fell into bed. I decided to burn my extra hours (we can only have 80 in a two week pay period unless we get a special "dispensation" - government contract work) by taking today off. I vacillated between taking today or taking Friday but just didn't feel like getting going this morning so I stayed home.

Belated happy birthday, Carol! My own is coming up in two weeks - yay May babies!!!

Have a great one, all.

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I had barely wakened this morning when my cell phone ding-a-linged at me reporting receipt of a text message from my son the nerd. I pass his greetings on to you. "Happy Star Wars Day. May the Fourth be with you."

Have a great day!

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Hi Tiffany. Thanks for the birthday greetings. It did turn out to be a good birthday, even with no party, no cake, and no presents. My expectations have certainly changed over the years. I'm glad to hear you had a good day at work, getting a lot done.

We had another nice day here, temperatures in the 70s, lots of sunshine. I managed to ride the stationary bike and bake another batch of bran muffins after I finished the weekly shopping. Ancestry surprised me with 19 new computer pages of DNA matches, a couple actually at the 4th to 6th cousin level instead of the 5th to 8th which goes WAY far out in family-tree time (several generations). So I'll be back to sort through those, a few at a time, again. Tomorrow we will be heading to another track meet. Fortunately, this one is at my grand-son's school just 10 miles away, so no long drive this time. We read in the local paper that right after we left the one last week they had to suspend and then cancel the rest of the meet because of lightening storms and he didn't get to run his last race, so I am really happy we left as early as we did.

On another note, did anyone see the news off ABC News where they interviewed people who had lost weight on The Biggest Loser and all but 2 of them from all these years had gained back all their weight and sometimes even more. Some doctors who did the evaluations concluded that when they stopped exercising their metabolisms slowed down and then kept on slowing down even if they were exercising every day, even if they were eating normal size meals. Makes it sound as though we are all doomed to stay heavy if we were ever there at some point in our lives. Scary. I'm thinking the problem was the drastic changes in lifestyle, from sedentary/unhealthy to super active/healthy eating and then back to normal activities and who knows what kind of eating. The slow and steady pace still seems to be the best advice - sort of like sneaking up on your body so you don't know you are making it healthy until it just happens.

Well, my gratitude tonight is that I have found some healthy ways to eat and live, keeping an eye on blood pressure and other measures of bodily functions. I feel good and look forward to more years of good health. Somebody told me 70 is the new 50. Yeah, right.

I hope everyone had a good day. Sleep well and have a wonderful Wednesday.

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Thanks, Carol. I think she does, but that doesn't mean I don't get paranoid. Oh well.

I agree with Sage as well. Don't like the heat. But I didn't miss the snow this winter, either. Terrified for the upcoming triple digits. At least it'll be a dry heat, I suppose...

Happy belated birthday, Carol!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon Sounds like a fairly good birthday.

Not much to share here. Still a busy day, but we managed to close out the books before the day ended, and I don't know if that's happened yet in my time being there, so that was cool. Anyway, I'm gonna head off. Since I'm done decompressing while watching Friends on Netflix, I'm going to go stretch out and play some trivia before I go to sleep. Goodnight, all!

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I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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Tiffany, it sounds as though you do the work of three people. Your employer should be darned glad to have you! Great job to get all that done.

Sage, I can understand your desire to avoid the hot weather; I'm a cooler-weather person myself and would have trouble without air conditioning, even here in the temperate northwest.

Today was my birthday. Hubby took me to our favorite Mexican restaurant. We ate a late lunch/early dinner, had a very small bowl of no-sugar-added ice cream and called it a day for eating. I can't really track the calories; it's a small family-owned restaurant and there is no posting of their nutritional breakdowns. I sort of guessed from the assortment available on the tracker. Still not more than 100 calories over my limit for the whole day, which isn't too shabby. No birthday cake or other goodies. One of my high school friends, one of only two I stay in touch with, sent me flowers; I found them on my doorstep when we got home from the restaurant. I called to thank her. She figured 70 was a milestone birthday so she made the extra effort. My daughter and her SO sang Happy Birthday to me on the phone. I got phone calls from all my kids/grandkids and cards from my two new sisters. Also we had sunshine and blue skies. All in all, it was a good day.

My gratitude today is for reaching this milestone in good health, good friends, and a loving family. There's a lot to be grateful for in that.

Hope everyone had a great day. Sleep well and have a terrific Tuesday.


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Happy Beltane for those who celebrate.

It's already in the 80s here, and soon it will be hibernation season, where I don't leave the house unless I'm heading into air conditioning or water.

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That's good news, Carol. I hope she continues on her recovery. Best of love and luck to her.

Sounds fun, Jaclyn. I hope you all have a good visit when the time finally gets here :).

Not much to share here. I forgot to post after my rantings Friday. Which thank you for the advice and insight, Carol. I truly appreciate it. It was a fairly quiet weekend, so that was nice. Caught up a little on my Netflix and some reading. Monday came all too soon though. And this Monday was a b****. It's month end, so the email is insane and I also am supposed to get my uplift recons done so we can close the books. And get the BOLs in. Yeah that didn't happen so well. I was working at full capacity all day, so I am totally wiped tonight. There was about 320 emails in the inbox this morning and somewhere around another 50 came in during the day. I managed to get the email down to about 30-35 when I left, so that's how hard I was cranking. My coworker offered to do my recons for me since there was no way I was getting to them today and they absolutely have to be done by tomorrow, so just to be sure they got done, she said she could do them since there was only 2 days at one location and 5 on the other. And I put BOLs in the system in between email saving. So yes. Quite busy. Quite tired. So with that, I am off to decompress and then get some sleep. Night!

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem...On your hopes you must lean...From your fears you have to wean yourself.


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It's been quite rainy here, and we've had "may flowers" since January. Though I am ready for magnolias and day lilies and the end of school!

Hopefully the craziness of last week won't follow into this one too much. I completely sabotaged by eating this weekend with all the stress. Trying hard not to beat myself up about it.

Heading out for a long weekend this weekend. Hopefully to get some sun and sand, and to spend time with my mother in law, who we haven't seen since my daughter was born three years ago. But, it's going to be a busy week until we take off.

Sounds like you had a wonderful phone visit with your granddaughter. Here's to her continued progress with her addiction!

Grateful today for having some quiet time between my rowdy classes.

You can make it a great day or not. The choice is yours.


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Well here it is - officially May. Looks as though everybody has been busy living "real life" instead of sitting at the computer. I look forward to hearing from everybody soon.

My granddaughter called me tonight, the first time in many weeks - even months. We talked nearly 2-1/2 hours. She calls me when she is confused and has problems with her mother - even when they aren't even living together. I have the advantage of age and experience and being a generation apart. And I can talk to her calmly about "the other side of the story" when she fusses about things. She was feeling much better by the time we got finished. I asked if she was staying clean and she said "51 of the last 52 days." I congratulated her. She sounded clear headed and has been doing a lot of thinking. I don't think she has the drugs completely beat (don't think there is any such thing as "completely" but at least relatively so) but she is working at trying to straighten her out. Baby steps.

Tonight I am grateful that the problems we had when she lived with us in Colorado have not gotten in the way of keeping this good relationship between us. Sometimes I wonder why on earth we are in this dinky farming community, since phones work all over the country. But I know that being close to her - and her brother - is important to help them grow up. I'm glad we made the move.

Hope everyone is well. Sleep tight and have a marvelous Monday.


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Hey, it's still April in my part of the world - not ready to give it up *sniff*

Much love and happy Beltane and May Day!

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Lots of rain today. No complaints from me. Just from the roof. Morning.

Tiffany

Depression is anger without the motivation.

I think depression runs rampant in society today because we are all so obsessed with making a living instead of living our lives.

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Good morning, all, ready for those May flowers?

We're still getting snowed on, lol, but that's Colorado for you!

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