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Hh is for hunger

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Having a different job is making a big difference in my job. I'm not being bombarded with evil thoughts of unworthiness. I'm not sure if the new job is a long term solution, but I am getting back into the relm of some decent people. I'm also trying to decide if I should just keep looking ahead or report some inappropriate behavior where I once was. It certainly made a difference with me, getting away. There is a story about a frog who when put in boiling water jumpes out, but a frog put into cool water where the temperature is raised a part of a degree at a time, tolerates alot. In some ways, the work place was an opportunity in the new technology age to be a part of a system that probably won't grow in as much leaps and bounds as what I witnessed there, or I won't have my questions answered to myself about how things work. Who wrote, it was the best of times and the worst of times?

Hh is for hunger

After water aerobics a group of us went to lunch where the food was really good and the presentation of the food was magazine like! There was a little food but the way that it was presented on a square plate, looked like more. Had a great time with the others and after I left the restaurant, I realize that I'm hungry. Really hungry! I came onto Sparks looking for others on line and it's a pretty Saturday so few are on line. So then I called someone to talk and she wasn't there. Times like this are tough! So motivated and so hungry, and so wanting to be with others.

By eating a healthy diet, exercising regularly, getting plenty of sleep, and dealing with your emotions, you can build and maintain a healthy body that can help you improve other areas of your life

I'm between jobs, left one and have started another and I'm between the pays. The one that I left was, is, pretty dysfunctional. The further that I am getting away from them, I'm realizing that it's better for me. Long story, they messed up my last pay, and for right now, today, there isn't anything that I can do about it. Today, there is a family reunion of my last remaining uncle and lots of first cousins whom, I may or may not have a chance to see again. Today, I couldn't take off from my part time job because of the transistion that I'm in. And I don't want to call my sister when I'm as angry as I can be and I don't want to spoil her day by my misfortune. I'm the one who moved away. I'm not surprised that I got messed over by my last pay, and if I hadn't started working the part time, I'd be scurring for sure.

My healthier life style is helping me get through today and not complain to people.

L is for lie
Wow, someone blatently lied to me, full, flat face lie, not a I mean to do something and then other things got into my way. And I'm having a hard time dealing with it. I want to confront that person, yet, I'm not sure that it would do any good. I don't know how to defend my self and say that's inappropriate, The person was/is a professional, and I've trusted them, and now, it's causing me to redo lots of what I'm doing. Wow, it's hard to walk away and not grab food. Three weeks later--the letter of recommendation was in my bulk mail. I was wrong. He was to be trusted.

Lost check, I'm cleaning everything because I misplaced a check and can't find it. Bother. Bother. Bother. I've also grounded myself until I find it.....and eating out, nope won't do it, so I'm cleaning out the refrig and cubbards the same......bother, I hate it when I do this. The flip side is that is when i become more creative with the cooking, watch portion sizes, plan better and in general, eat healthier. Well--ok, I guess change is what lifestyle change is all about. I put the darn check away instead of keeping it out the way that I thought. LOL--guess I'm starting to have some healthy lilfestyle changes.

LIghting the way~~I've had such a terrible time getting this job search thing underway and finally, I've found someone who is helping me. I didn't know what the problem was and for one, it was my resume. She's met with me twice and given me examples of how I have to change the resume, and finally, I'm getting it. She doesn't want me to sell myself short, and I do that so often. But, oh, the work ahead of me.....

Little to say--dont' want to go and do anything else, but have nothing to say....70821

Oo is for Overwhelmed.
August 16--I feel overwhelmed. And I'm freezing, stopping, shutting down, and sitting in a chair. There is a job fair tomorrow, and my resume isn't ready, lots of revising. Yesterday, I cleaned up some old projects by telling somone that things didn't work, and they fixed it. Today, I ate healhily, but didn't go swimming, will go in a few minutes, missed my swimming buddy, but went to the coffee shop because I wanted to be around people. needed to get things mailed during the time that my buddy was swimming. But couldn't eat and--uck, I'll make a simplified resume and go to the job fair and genuinely and curiously ask questions, that I'm good at. I got some baked custard at the restaurant, and it cost me $6.....need to bake my own. I like their coffee though! Another success, I saw my supervisior and another employee playfully interact (no smoochie stuff), and I'm usually quiet, but then I saw the supervisor try to stick a pen into the other person's ear, would you believe it? And the words came out of my mouth in a gentle, way, so as not to offend them, but said that no, they had to stop it, not around the ear, first time that I spoke up, when I first started working there, I spoke up forcefully when they tried to include me in that sort of stuff and it took a while for them to not try to do the touchy stuff. Why does change take so long?

Pp is for posting for PALS
70902-Five things positive about myself. Got an interviewing book and am reading and studying it. I have a 32 oz water bottle to drink the h2o to day. For so long, I've been sitting with my legs apart~~my muscles are firm enough now that sometimes naturally, they are knee touching when I sit, Recognized that there's a wrong doing and I need to stay clear of it and let the people involved take care of it. So rather than make the phone call that I think may be misinterpreted, I will send a happy note telling why the current maintenance man has done his job. Been using the tape recorder to record my voice, want to improve the quality of it.

L is for lie
Wow, someone blatently lied to me, full, flat face lie, not a I mean to do something and then other things got into my way. And I'm having a hard time dealing with it. I want to confront that person, yet, I'm not sure that it would do any good. I don't know how to defend my self and say that's inappropriate, The person was/is a professional, and I've trusted them, and now, it's causing me to redo lots of what I'm doing. Wow, it's hard to walk away and not grab food. Three weeks later--the letter of recommendation was in my bulk mail. I was wrong. He was to be trusted.

Lost check, I'm cleaning everything because I misplaced a check and can't find it. Bother. Bother. Bother. I've also grounded myself until I find it.....and eating out, nope won't do it, so I'm cleaning out the refrig and cubbards the same......bother, I hate it when I do this. The flip side is that is when i become more creative with the cooking, watch portion sizes, plan better and in general, eat healthier. Well--ok, I guess change is what lifestyle change is all about. I put the darn check away instead of keeping it out the way that I thought. LOL--guess I'm starting to have some healthy lilfestyle changes.

LIghting the way~~I've had such a terrible time getting this job search thing underway and finally, I've found someone who is helping me. I didn't know what the problem was and for one, it was my resume. She's met with me twice and given me examples of how I have to change the resume, and finally, I'm getting it. She doesn't want me to sell myself short, and I do that so often. But, oh, the work ahead of me.....

Little to say--dont' want to go and do anything else, but have nothing to say....70821

Oo is for Overwhelmed.
August 16--I feel overwhelmed. And I'm freezing, stopping, shutting down, and sitting in a chair. There is a job fair tomorrow, and my resume isn't ready, lots of revising. Yesterday, I cleaned up some old projects by telling somone that things didn't work, and they fixed it. Today, I ate healhily, but didn't go swimming, will go in a few minutes, missed my swimming buddy, but went to the coffee shop because I wanted to be around people. needed to get things mailed during the time that my buddy was swimming. But couldn't eat and--uck, I'll make a simplified resume and go to the job fair and genuinely and curiously ask questions, that I'm good at. I got some baked custard at the restaurant, and it cost me $6.....need to bake my own. I like their coffee though! Another success, I saw my supervisior and another employee playfully interact (no smoochie stuff), and I'm usually quiet, but then I saw the supervisor try to stick a pen into the other person's ear, would you believe it? And the words came out of my mouth in a gentle, way, so as not to offend them, but said that no, they had to stop it, not around the ear, first time that I spoke up, when I first started working there, I spoke up forcefully when they tried to include me in that sort of stuff and it took a while for them to not try to do the touchy stuff. Why does change take so long?

Pp is for posting for PALS
70902-Five things positive about myself. Got an interviewing book and am reading and studying it. I have a 32 oz water bottle to drink the h2o to day. For so long, I've been sitting with my legs apart~~my muscles are firm enough now that sometimes naturally, they are knee touching when I sit, Recognized that there's a wrong doing and I need to stay clear of it and let the people involved take care of it. So rather than make the phone call that I think may be misinterpreted, I will send a happy note telling why the current maintenance man has done his job. Been using the tape recorder to record my voice, want to improve the quality of it.

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  • MAGIC10FINGERS
    What an inspiring blog. I don't know where to begin. I too had left a job with problems & inapporpriate things going on, but I decided it was my past, & I had to leave it there. If I reported things, it would have gotten ugly, it's a small town, & I just wanted them out of my life. I couldn't be happier now. Sometimes I still think I should have persued 1 or 2 of the things that were happening, but then I think, "would it had really made a difference in my life?" Yes, but I truly believe in a negative way. Sorry U weren't able to go to the reunion. That's always frustrating, but U did what U had to do, stay & work. I'm sure they understand. Good luck with the new job & the debate with yourself as to whether or not U should report the other place.
    Hugs, Ruth
    4849 days ago
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