Aa is for Anger
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Working on this goal=how to exercise regularly, how to not let stresses in my life interfere with exercising, how to move exercising into a top priority on a daily basis
Well my cold went full fledge into a real bout, and would have called in one day except the manager was on vacation and she'd lose the time if she had to come in, thought it better if I'd tough it out for one day rather than feel her wrath.
Lemonade--been making my own at home, and today I was out, and drove through a fast food and got the soda and realized that what I wanted was lemonade. Yes, drank the soda, but headed to the store and got a bag of lemons. I'm using sugar right now for the sweetener, and am planning to look at some other recipies for a syrup, maybe in some of my older cookbooks or I wonder if I have the thirst for just lemon and water? Proud that I bought the bag of lemons.
Well, today I made the lemonade and put it in the freezer to chill and guess what.....of course, I forgot to get it out. This time I made it with no sugar.........can't tell you how it tastes.
Anger=let me tell you of the first time that I tried to lose weight seriously, it was probably about 15 years ago maybe a bit more, I had studied the weight thing enough to realize that it takes more than one try to be successful. And so I talked to my doctor about it, and he put me on diet pills and only gave me a weeks supply at a time. And he wanted it for a short 12 week period, I think. And so I went on it and was somewhat successful and he mapped out how it would get me over the hunger part and then he had a program where I would continue with food portions and meeting at the office for another period of time, and I think that I was willing to follow it and I was successful. Only before the initial time was over, he told me that he was relocating his practice to another part of the state because he had a chance to become part of the university medical team, and gave me a two week notice and didn't refer me to anyone else. It was devistating. It also came after my divorce when all sorts of things were coming into my life and promising that they would be there as support and then similar things would happen......