Fountain of life meditation age 7
Friday, February 05, 2021
February 5, 2021 ~ 7 Years old
Today, I called out my 7 year old self. I at first felt this happy little girl, out on the trip with her daddy in Texas, being on the farm, she loved all the animals. Chickens, cows but especially the horses. I can't say all what happened this morning. The whole theme of this morning though was about the confusion of what love really is. What love daddy told me is not the real love. Not the real healthy love of God or ? This is really hard because the word love was so distorted, I was so confused, because what they taught me is love is painful, love hurts, love is torture. This one will take a few days to work on.
I know as the adult what love is, I have felt love from the other side, love ot my angels, love of Jesus and real love from my wonderful hubby for 25 years now. How horrible and sick for them to make love into a bad thing. Something to effect my whole life.
I did take my 7 year old self into the fountain to wash away all the pain, confusion, sadness and yuckiness. But, I need to work on this more. I feel like a mess right now. I sure didn't expect this to happen. Another gift to work on and heal.