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2021 - and I must let go of the anger in my heart.

Friday, January 01, 2021

I was wronged badly last year - my neighbor tried unsuccessfully to run me down 4 times while I was walking my dog - with dump trucks and logging trucks. Yes, I was walking on the right side and the berm of the road - he was driving up the wrong side, full-throttle and aimed directly at me. He and his family made my life a living hell starting when Ray passed on. I guessed they thought Ray protected me. Little did they know, Ray held me back - I have a Native New Yorker attitude and I'm a fighter.

Forgiving him is not an option until and unless he asks for forgiveness.

He wanted my land and I wasn't willing to sell it - so he decided to run me over and get it from my beneficiary. Mind you, he never offered me $1 and never asked what I would take for it. He expected me to just hand it over because he wanted it.

That said, God paid me a visit yesterday and told me that I was not to enter into this new year with anger/hatred in my heart. But I am allowed to continue to ignore this family that did everything they could think of to run me off my land.

I'm writing this because after letting go of the anger and hatred in my heart - I am not hungry! Truly, it can be what is eating you and me and not what we're eating.

I'm sure most have heard that saying - I'm here to say I feel better than I have all year - he started trying to end my existence in February. I'm not going to allow him and his family to ruin the rest of my life.

So, what is eating you? This is a rhetorical question - I only want you to look in the mirror and be honest with yourself. What is eating away at your sanity?

P.S. Twist of fate - the lunatic called the Sheriff on me. After we chatted, the Sheriff said he would make them leave me alone. So far they have.

He kept scheming to steal my land and when his last scheme fell through, I think something in his mind snapped and he decided to kill me. Not exactly rational thought and that is what I told the Sheriff.

But God said I must get rid of the anger and I'm doing my best. If I must "give it to God" a thousand times, at least I am finding peace again.
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  • DBEAU57
    Linda, that man should be arrested! I'm glad you're letting go of your anger and hatred. You're right - it will eat you alive. Now if God will speak in his heart too, then maybe he'll actually listen.
    102 days ago
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    108 days ago
  • WATERMELLEN
    Surely this would be a matter for the police: if you're being physically intimidated? I also believe in not carrying around anger . . . but this is not just a matter of anger, but a matter of safety and self-preservation?
    109 days ago
  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    MAN OH MAN Linda!! Grrrr things like that are NOT HUMAN!

    GLad you are working on letting the anger leave. As a former bully I can tell you that ANY WORDS you'd say I would NOT believed you (not scared of you etc) but if I saw you really enjoying life (from the heart not the fake laughter etc) I'd lick my wounds, there are so MANY OTHERS I COULD Of bullied I get the reaction I WANTED!! Granted it was in my young teenage years, I was so good at it. Growing up in an inner city school (though I was "Bussed in" from the best area of the city,, hmmm the 70's!) and being the toughest girl, I was no whimp. NOT From NYC of course, but not a whimp.

    Your letting go of the anger will benefit you SO MUCH!! Life is way way to short to let bullies win. I'd LOVE to say "Oh they get what's coming to them" but, not always. STILL when I was a bully it was a manifestation of how very unhappy I was. That's TRUE OF ALL BULLIES. As I actually learned that, worked on that, TA DA you know me now. :) yeah. I love being at peace with myself and 99.999 people.
    109 days ago
  • MEADSBAY
    Oh, my dear Linda...that is horrific!
    Just a terrible situation...to think he would actually physically harm you for your land!
    I am so glad you were able to put your anger and hatred aside and not let it destroy your peace.
    Stay away from that maniac!
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    109 days ago
  • GREENISLANDMAC
    What is eating at me is discord in my immefiate family
    109 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Wonderful.
    109 days ago
  • GRANDMABABA
    Praying the Lord continues to speak more loudly to you than your nasty neighbor through his actions. I pray a year of sweet blessings for you! May He protect you from your neighbor and anything else that is not of the Lord! Have a safe, healthy and joy filled 2021!
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    109 days ago
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