2021 - and I must let go of the anger in my heart.
Friday, January 01, 2021
I was wronged badly last year - my neighbor tried unsuccessfully to run me down 4 times while I was walking my dog - with dump trucks and logging trucks. Yes, I was walking on the right side and the berm of the road - he was driving up the wrong side, full-throttle and aimed directly at me. He and his family made my life a living hell starting when Ray passed on. I guessed they thought Ray protected me. Little did they know, Ray held me back - I have a Native New Yorker attitude and I'm a fighter.
Forgiving him is not an option until and unless he asks for forgiveness.
He wanted my land and I wasn't willing to sell it - so he decided to run me over and get it from my beneficiary. Mind you, he never offered me $1 and never asked what I would take for it. He expected me to just hand it over because he wanted it.
That said, God paid me a visit yesterday and told me that I was not to enter into this new year with anger/hatred in my heart. But I am allowed to continue to ignore this family that did everything they could think of to run me off my land.
I'm writing this because after letting go of the anger and hatred in my heart - I am not hungry! Truly, it can be what is eating you and me and not what we're eating.
I'm sure most have heard that saying - I'm here to say I feel better than I have all year - he started trying to end my existence in February. I'm not going to allow him and his family to ruin the rest of my life.
So, what is eating you? This is a rhetorical question - I only want you to look in the mirror and be honest with yourself. What is eating away at your sanity?
P.S. Twist of fate - the lunatic called the Sheriff on me. After we chatted, the Sheriff said he would make them leave me alone. So far they have.
He kept scheming to steal my land and when his last scheme fell through, I think something in his mind snapped and he decided to kill me. Not exactly rational thought and that is what I told the Sheriff.
But God said I must get rid of the anger and I'm doing my best. If I must "give it to God" a thousand times, at least I am finding peace again.