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Friday, December 11, 2020

I sit here at the kitchen table, eating a micro wave burger party. No vegies, no bread. I look over to see my gd working her online homework, her notebooks, papers, books etc strewn all over the table. I think about needing to still finish the clothes my 2yr old gs threw up all over ( we are thinking he may have stomach bug. He I one in a few in the us with a condition where his intestine can and has turned inside of itself leaving an option of surgery. If not the blockage can continue to the point of death. I sit here thinking of all the "stuff" around the house I trust to fix/ bandaid to stretch out for a few more days knowing when that happens we wont have enough money to replace. My wife 13 yrs my junior but still taking about 12 pills a day to include 2 injections for diabetes. I sit here at the table turning around to look out the kitchen door window outside thinking " really",is this really all there is. I'm 62 disabled because of my heart, will never again hold a job. I'm Mr Mom trying to clean and keep the house together with a broken broom and dustpan with no bottom.
I go through the motions, but I have up trying to keep up a smile. Well, break is over time to get back cleaning.
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  • BJAEGER307
    78 days ago
  • SPICY23
    You are going through a bad patch. Covid-19 isolation and the additional stresses of financial difficulties threaten many of us. Your DW long hours may be her way of avoiding unpleasant realities thereby not making things worse. Hard to know.

    You are a key caregiver to your grandkids and it is clear there is a closeness between you. Those connections are what matter. Modeling positive attitudes and behaviors during hard times will be an amazing gift to them.

    It is especially important to be gentle and kind to yourself in these hard times and focus on the good things you do have.

    Peace and Care
    79 days ago
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