Friday, September 25, 2020
I have been back for 75 days on SP.
I have lost about 18 pounds. There have been some ups and downs due to health issues but that is to be expected I assume given my history of sports injuries and my age.
As I write this I am feeling such satisfaction. New feeling for me. I think I am really making changes. Portion control, learning to eat only when Im hungry, making much better food choices and exercises as a way of life. Im also being much nicer to myself and not so critical. 75 days ago I felt so helpless. Its much better now.
Going to work on some issues that aren't all weight related. Making more time for myself, saying no, and staying positive. Also, Im more than what I look like and what my weight is.
I still grieve daily and miss my parents and brother but there are many days that I feel joy and can focus on my remaining family and feel happiness. I am so blessed that I could be there for my parents in their last two years. I am also so lucky to be in a marriage of 48 years. I am extremely proud of that. Pregnant and married at 18, educating ourselves, growing up together, its a big deal. Many many positive things to focus on.
Also my favorite holidays iare approaching Halloween and Christmas.