Learning a new way to BE.
Tuesday, September 22, 2020
It's been nearly a year since I last posted a blog on here. It has been an interesting year for most, if not all of the human race! Pandemic aside, life has changed drastically for myself and my family. Both of my daughters have moved to their own places. One is in New York, the other about 30 minutes away. My husband and myself have moved to a new place as well. We are living above my work. Which in itself is weird, as I work at a cemetery.
Besides living arrangements, life has changed internally as well. I am learning to love where I live. I fell in love with my space. I love my new home. I live in 500 square feet now. I have downsized considerably. But, I also wake up to 40 acres of pure beauty surrounding me. My circle is small, but full of the ones that mean the most to me. I'm learning to enjoy each day for what it is. I haven't traveled, or vacationed, or visited, for that matter even eaten dinner out, in months. But I am gifted with life. I have had long trail walks with the dog. I have read fantastic books. I have learned to grieve differently. I have learned to see the world differently. Things have shifted for me. This slow down of regular has changed me. I have had extreme heartache this year. Honestly one of the most brutal years to date. But the learning, the creating, the healing that is coming from this unthinkable time, is pure. It's honest. It's a process however. Everyday I learn to be. To be more comfortable with who I am. To be a little more transparent. To know that even though I have made mistakes, I am teachable. I can do better. I can be better. I can forgive....me. I can, and am a healing human, with lots of potential. With lots of energy to give...with lots to offer...with openness I am learning, accepting, listening. I will be okay. We all will! We are just learning a new way!