There’s no stopping it seems
Tuesday, September 15, 2020
If I had one wish right now it would be to have someone hold me accountable when I’m hungry. For some reason I am just not caring so I shrug my shoulders and eat it. This morning was a rice krispy treat. Are you serious? Do you know much sugar is in one of those little squares? Daily calorie intake out the window by the 2nd bite.
Is it possible to not care but feel guilty? Quiet guilt. Guilt but obviously not enough to make you stop from taking a bite. Truth be told though I do care. In my own way I suppose but obviously not the way I should or I’d be eating what I’m supposed to and not give in to cravings.
I started writing this a couple of days ago which is so typical for me. I have an online journal & sometimes it’ll take me 3-4 days to finish & post it. I’m one of those people who will start doing one thing, stop to go do something then start something else & then go back to the first. I’m throwing this part in to keep my mind busy. So the day I started this I was also starting to write out the nutritional information on the foods we eat regularly like the bread, ground beef, etc. While doing that I decided to use another notebook, yes I write instead of using the computer. The notebook I’m using doesn’t have lines on the far left & that’s where I wanted to put the net carbs. So I had to find the ruler & draw in the lines. So I had this blog going, the notebook going & then I was working on the weekly menu. I’ve never ever been like this. I don’t know what is going on with me. Today I worked on this, took 2 naps, wrote 2 reviews, worked on some health things that helps you do the things you need to get healthy that my insurance company is offering. They teamed with WebMD. Pretty neat.
Okay so here is what I’m thinking. I have become an emotional eater. I have NEVER eaten the way I am now. I had breakfast, lunch & dinner with a little snacking throughout the day. Now I just want to eat whatever when I’m hungry which I seem to be all the time. I’ll eat dinner and an hour later I’m hungry again and not just for a snack. God that sounds so horrible. What am I becoming? Who am I?
Pic of what my nutrition notebook looks like :j