Sunday, September 06, 2020
I have changed a lot of things over the past two years. I think for the better, but sometimes it feels lonely. The decisions I have made have given me less time with my children since I left their father. Also being in a 16 year relationship was very busy. Between work and raising my children and going to college, I had very little time to feel alone, or feel anything. I just kept busy to keep from feeling. I kept pushing. Even though my stress levels are now lower, I do feel pretty lonely and I don't want to fill those voids with food, or company that is unhealthy. I am trying to be the best version of me, regardless of size but I do miss companionship and being admired.
I guess that is all I want to write about today.