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Feeling alone

Sunday, September 06, 2020

I have changed a lot of things over the past two years. I think for the better, but sometimes it feels lonely. The decisions I have made have given me less time with my children since I left their father. Also being in a 16 year relationship was very busy. Between work and raising my children and going to college, I had very little time to feel alone, or feel anything. I just kept busy to keep from feeling. I kept pushing. Even though my stress levels are now lower, I do feel pretty lonely and I don't want to fill those voids with food, or company that is unhealthy. I am trying to be the best version of me, regardless of size but I do miss companionship and being admired.
I guess that is all I want to write about today.
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  • DLBEASYRIDER
    Wish I had some words of inspiration, but I do not. I am a recovering alcoholic of 9 years. My last few years of drinking left me very lonely. Probably not the same lonely your feeling now , but I was alone and as lonely as any one person could be. The only thing that saved me was a gift of desperation and I cried out for help! At this time in my life I was Agnostic, really had no belief at all! I don't know how the universe works, I don't know how my higher power works, whom I choose to call God, I just know that it does. I pray and meditate each morning and I thank God before I lay down at night. I was all but doomed, and today I am living the dream! I was learning more about navigating the pages of this site, adding friends that had added me and I came across your blog. I read it and thought back on the days that I came too and there were the four horsemen Terror, Bewilderment, Frustration, and Despair. I believe That God is speaking to me in the words you wrote, reminding me of the path that I once walked and the reasons to stay on the straight and narrow. Just a short part of my story, felt like sharing with you. This too shall pass, I hope that you find the answers that you are looking for, I hope life treats you kind. Keep on smilin' David AKA DLBEASYRIDER
    28 days ago
  • SPARROW125
    emoticon A good book?
    46 days ago
  • BE-ACTIVE
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    47 days ago
  • IWILLSTILLRISE
    I feel lonely too, but we will meet the right person one day!
    48 days ago
  • RBARNES27
    It is hard to feel you you no longer have a group of friends. I am experiencing the same thing myself. I am hoping to open up more to people soon!!! We can do this!!!
    49 days ago
  • RAPUNZEL53
    Hope you make some new friends.
    49 days ago
  • RALPHDB
    Fill 'er up as you please.
    49 days ago
  • I_WALK_WITH_JOY
    Change is difficult,,my husband who has dementia has "left" me in a since,,,I find myself feeling alone a lot .I am trying to learn to be my own best friend and enjoy my own company..yet there are times when I find myself wanting share something I heard or learned and there is no one to share it with,,I wish you well on your journey
    49 days ago
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