Friday, September 04, 2020
I have and am really good at making excuses. But I also didn’t realize I have OCD (according to my dietician) and have to have things a certain way before I can start anything.
Let’s take SparkPeople as an example. I signed up before I was ready. Meaning I had no lists, no menu for the week. Just excuses. No lie, it took me 3 weeks since I decided to give SP a try. The excuse. I HAD to have my weekly menu, shopping done before I could do anything here. I had to start on a Monday.
I finally came to visit. I wasn’t ready to log yet. I was pretty close to finishing my menu. I read, I asked questions (I think) and pretty much knew it was time. God I’m gonna miss carbs.
Well here I am. Still making excuses, still eating carbs. Not as much as I used to but enough to make me feel guilty. Obviously not bad enough. But then my dietician pointed something out. I never considered myself an emotional eater. I always thought it was because I had a craving so I ate.
She had proof I am emotionally eating right now. A few days before I told my husband that since my cancer was back there was no reason to not eat whatever I wanted. When he told her what I said she said that was emotional eating. Hmm, guess it is.
So here I am. I have to start all over. Of course I will restart eating healthy & staying away from carbs. Of course I will start on Monday so of course this excuse is going to allow me to eat what I want this weekend.
“At the end of the day, let there be no excuses, no explanations, no regrets.”
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free