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August 2020

Saturday, August 01, 2020

How can it be August already? At this rate it will be Christmas soon. emoticon

I find that the days and weeks are passing by extremely fast. I wonder if mothers with young children at home feel the same way. Each day is much the same as the previous day. One would expect that with all the extra time I have because I can't go anywhere, I would have so many things accomplished. I have to admit that I am wasting too much time. It is a struggle just to do my daily chores. I sit and read or I play games on the computer.

I tried to sort pictures to put them in albums. I get side-tracked too easily. Yesterday, I put the pictures back in a box to be tackled another time.

There are times when I wonder if I am depressed. Shouldn't I 'want' to get things done? When we first moved to Ontario (from Nova Scotia) many years ago, and I felt like I have been feeling, I realized I was home-sick. Summer meant I would be going home for a couple weeks. Of course, this year's trip was canceled. Maybe I AM homesick. But at this point in my life, I have lived in Ontario longer than my time in Nova Scotia. THIS is now my home and I like my home.

Yesterday, the hospice volunteers (I am one) got an e-mail from our coordinator. Most of us won't be called back into action until September or later. I miss my partner but even if I AM called back, I would be working alone and of course there are many other changes since my last shift in March. I am not even sure I WANT to go back.

With all the world problems, my feelings are quite insignificant. I will get through this. I can do it. I am grateful I can spend time of Spark People and see my Spark friends whenever I need to. For that, I am thankful. Actually, there are many things for which I am thankful. And on that note, I will end my sob-story. Things could be much worse. I acknowledge that.


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    You've said some of the same things I've been feeling.
    47 days ago
    I find myself feeling overwhelmed and end up reading or playing games too. What has worked for me is 1) routine, getting up every day and following a routine. and 2) scheduling into the routine 30 to 60 minutes to work on a project. Maybe it will help you too. emoticon
    48 days ago
  • BJAEGER307
    I can relate to your feelings as I have felt the same. I think it is a mild form of depression as our worlds have been so disrupted. We're scared, and nothing is like it used to be. We have shortages and inconsistent guidelines as how to deal with this virus. People not being compliant here in the United States. I'm sure Canada is much better at this. News is depressing and yet life goes on. I often wonder if this was how people felt back in the depression times.

    I put my faith in the lord and count the blessings I do have. That's all one can do at this time.

    Take care as best you can, and keep your chin up.
    49 days ago
    I, too, have wondered if I am depressed. Our lives, as we knew them, have come to a halt. At least with our Spark friends, we know that we are not alone.
    49 days ago
    We're all in this together & have feelings, yes, maybe like homesickness. When we realize & acknowledge it, we can move on to really enjoy our life. Things in the past move back....we will move on. We are very blessed compared to some.
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    49 days ago
    emoticon I actually feel the exact some way!!!

    49 days ago
    I think that many of us feel the same way, Judy. I am missing my trip to Nova Scotia too.
    49 days ago
  • LINDA7677
    You are not alone in your feelings. My mind wants to do things then I loose interest.
    49 days ago
    emoticon Maybe try adding some music to your day. I know it helps me walk longer at times emoticon
    49 days ago
    emoticon Just because "things could be worse" it doesn't mean your sadness at changes is invalid. I think we're all a little "homesick" for our lives before this pandemic challenge changed them!

    One foot in front of another, acknowledging that it's OK to not be OK, we'll get past this! emoticon emoticon And I, too, am super grateful for the on-line presences in my life, including Spark!
    49 days ago
    hugs . . . just know you are not alone in your feelings. I think MANY (including me) are feeling melancholy about all these changes. That's pretty normal!

    49 days ago
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