Friday, July 24, 2020
I feel like this week would never end. It was filled with ups and downs. Back to work in small bits, yet major ways...to provide counsel and structure as necessary, yet balancing my own personal life and feelings as well. I am transparent with letting people know how I am if asked...Monday and Tuesday absolutely stunk - hard to focus on anything. Wednesday I got dressed and went into the office and it was a good decision to do that, to see people, to remember that I have a place other than my home and in grief. Yesterday, I split the day in two...morning at home to focus on work in the quiet....to gather information and thoughts. I went in for the afternoon. It was a good decision and worked. I am grateful to have such flexibility!
Slowly though, stress has settled into my neck....I can barely turn my head. I need to refocus efforts on my self care. This week had me eating leftovers, too many carbs, too much cheese compared to my norm, half-a$$ed tracking for dinner. It is time to reign it in before it is too late.
Next week we go on vacation! This was planned way before my dad passed and I am so looking forward to it. We haven’t used our trailer with our new truck since we got it. We haven’t camped with out BFFs in ages. This is the last hurrah for our college bound sons before they leave for college...well, their son at least, as our recent graduate will be attending college virtually. (Yes, that was a bummer when we found that out).
This weekend we will prep for our shared meals with our friends...another thing to look forward to! And stock the camper with goodies! And fix the toilet that broke! (LOL There is always something that will go wrong! Better at home than on the road!)
Grateful for caring people in my life.
Grateful for resilient sons.
Grateful for a flexible work structure.
Grateful for camping vacations.
Grateful for understanding hubby.
Grateful for Spark!