It’s been a long time
Monday, July 20, 2020
Death comes in threes or so they say and sure enough it did. First it was our friend Andrea at age 49, then our friend Brad at age 59 and just this past week Tina at age 49. Tina was the only one who was sick. I’ve experienced loss before but this really hit home as these were friends who were of our age group,
And on top of that I’m really struggling mentally. I know one begets the other but I think my mental health was ready to crumble anyways and 2020 just happened to be the year. I know that admitting it is a big step but I can’t say, with complete confidence, that I’m on the road to recovery. My psychiatrist is trying me on a new drug regime (the last change up caused my heart rate to become dangerously elevated) and tomorrow marks one week of the new drug. Fingers crossed.
I’d like to say with confidence that I’ll be back but this time I feel different. I’m NOT suicidal (thankfully) but I feel very unworthy.