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On the brink of change?

Monday, June 01, 2020

My health has declined steadily over the last 2 years since I made the decision to homeschool my teen, hurt my back, and stopped BF my 1yr old all basically at the same time. It was a pretty big physical and emotional swing and I've gained over 60lbs in ~2.5hrs. I'm at my heaviest and probably my weakest, most out of shape physically.

I'd been trying to log my food and make changes and wasn't having much luck, so on a whim I sent my former yoga instructor a message (I'd heard before that she offered personal training.) Now, I'm not at a point I really want personal training... I need a babysitter. The only time I've ever actually lost weight through diet or exercise, was when I was pregnant and put on a gestation diabetes diet and wasn't TRYING to lose weight. I had to change what I ate, when I ate, log my blood sugar 4x/day, PLAN all this eating and testing, and report to my doctor weekly. I wasn't watching calories. I wasn't working out (I could barely walk 10 minutes without pretty severe ligament pain). But I lost weight.

Now... that means I KNOW what to eat, how to plan, how to log... but I wasn't doing it now, even after deciding to do it. And my dad is now full blown Type 2 on insulin. And my mother-in-law is Type 2 on medicine, maybe on insulin in the future. And I'm scared. So I started tracking my blood sugar again these last few weeks. Overall, not crazy scary high, but riding in the pre-D range, especially that frustrating a.m. fasting #.

I had a Zoom consult with my yoga/trainer friend, and started tracking my BS more regularly, started tracking ALL my food, started increasing my water. I admit the eating was still crazy (note to self, remember the crazy cadbury eggs & cinnamon roll boxes DH brought home??) AND I was curious (the scientist in me is still puzzled by BS and response to food)... and since my BS hadn't really been over 120 the entire time I monitored, I went for a carb bomb meal I was eating a couple times a week over the winter just to see what happened... yeah, Little Caesar's "personal" pizza lunch meal, Mountain Dew, and a Cadbury egg will definitely spike the BS.

I've been texting a bit with my trainer friend, but we haven't found a time to Zoom/meet again yet for a few reasons on both our parts. And new development, my husband had his yearly physical last week and had a high A1c. He's meeting with a nutritionist this Friday, so our whole household may be facing some serious changes soon. Meanwhile, I'm trying to babystep my way through healthy changes. We have a plan to Zoom again next Monday once we see what my husband gets from the nutritionist this week.

It's sad to me that I need someone to report to in order to feel accountable, but I can tell already it makes a difference.

I still need to work on the "planning" portion and definitely on prepping food for lunches etc. And I need to start trying to incorporate physical activity. I went for a walk with my mom Saturday, and I felt like I was huffing and puffing over what used to be my "normal" route... depressing. I know I need to work on my PT back exercises. Yoga would probable be a help with gentle toning and flexibility too. Just need to remember babysteps and trying to make things sustainable long term...
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  • no profile photo CD25285202
    Baby steps! You will get there --- you very clearly know what needs to be done but it is now a matter of implementing your knowledge and making it all a deliberate habit. I have the same problem -- I know exactly what to do in order to get healthier but I frequently sabotage myself.
    315 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Good for you reaching out for support.
    315 days ago
    Sonetines we need thatvextra support to keep us accountable. Thats what friends are for. I am so happy you have that Support person to go to.
    315 days ago
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