Can all this really be happening?
Tuesday, March 17, 2020
When I started wearing my Fitbit and linked it to my Spark exercise tracker, I was surprised when I began to get messages telling me to eat more. I knew my activity had not increased but the case they made for not starving yourself was convincing. I decided it was possible I had been eating less than I should for the amount of exercise I was getting. After all, since my retirement I have been hitting the gym six days a week for cardio.
I thought a test was in order so I reset my goals and increased my calorie ranges and ate at the new levels. Two weeks later I was exactly the same weight as I was when I started the experiment.
OK, so I reset everything back to the way it was and made a whole new start. I was feeling pretty good about getting back on track before I had done any real damage to my timeline and was actually looking forward to my next weigh in, when they closed the gym. I don't know how I will manage to get in the 35 min of cardio without the elliptical. I don't jog. I already walk the dog every day so to increase, I would have to walk the dog for two hours a day! I could see doing that but the weather doesn't look promising the rest of the week. I am not sure I could do two hours in a thunderstorm.
With all the uncertainty around the pandemic, I feel silly being so concerned about getting in my exercise. People are dying and I am worried about how long it will take to lose my excess weight. I have been playing at this for years now! If it was so important why didn't I work harder? It seems absurd to realize that I am one of the elderly at higher risk they keep talking about. If I'm unlucky enough to contract this, it could finish me off in less than a month and I will never get the chance to get to my ideal weight! Can this be real?