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On returning home to where my Spark is and apparently always will be.

Sunday, March 08, 2020

I've been gone a while. I felt pulled to take a step back for a while and I listened to that pull. (not sure why, not sure where it came from, but there it is.) I’m even more unsure of why yesterday out of the blue, clear sky I knew it was time to come back to my Spark Home. I’m sure the Universe knows what it is doing, but a clue would be nice! *LOL*

However, I’m here and working on updating my Spark home, rethinking things and deciding what goals I want to set, and more importantly if I am willing to dedicate myself to meeting those goals. My page is a work in progress, as am I, after a brief (in the whole scheme of things) interim.

I've realized as I read my original introduction to SP from so many years ago, that I’m not that person anymore! I suddenly realized that I’m deep in the process of redefining who I am. I found that the things I mentioned as my passions are not anymore. (And I’m talking about things that have been integral to who I am for over 30 years) I still love them, but they don’t define me anymore. I can take them or leave them. And It scares me. I feel adrift, lost even.

And yet, there is also this definite feeling of space within me…a spring cleaning of sorts. And that's such a conundrum! A sense of peace and anticipation. I now have room to discover new things about myself. New things that will define me and help me become more…Me. Growth…a new stage in my life…getting rid of what no longer serves me (Both inside and out), making room for the next chapter.



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