Broken Foot Blues
Monday, February 24, 2020
I've already noted that it's truly amazing to me how much I suddenly want to do, not because it was a habit & I was used to doing it, but much more so by the simple fact that I CAN'T. Isn't it just crazy human nature that when we are presented with a "fait accomplis" that was decided by someone or something other than ourselves, that our first instinct is to rebel. As an extreme, use the addict. When they are told they cannot have substance X without serious repurcussions, their behavior can change even spiralling out of control in order to acquire & use the substance.
Many of us know of people who are told to avoid another person who is unsuitable or has bad habits or is simply "a Montague". The person, particularly if they fancy themselves in LOVE will go outside all reasonable limits to meet their Romeo or Juliet.
I haven't been good with my exercise. My schedule has been all over the place. I go to Zumba when I can make it. I drive by the gym more than I ever go in. I love the IDEA of yoga. But now...given my broken foot & Doctor's orders to let it rest & stay off of it as much as possible...all I want to do is workout. I have a fear of becoming less mobile as I age & I think this is a manifestation of this fear. And I fully intend to use it...When the Doc says I can start walking daily. I'll be using my fear to push me out the door on daily walks to ward off that immobility in old age. This girl still has too much fight in her to just lay down willingly!