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Honestly, It's Tough!

Tuesday, January 21, 2020

I almost wonder if I made it sound too simple in my last blogpost. To be honest, lately, I struggle most days to keep on track. It's cold, so very miserably cold out. Waking up at 5:45am doesn't agree with me no matter how early I get into bed or what sleep hygiene methods I practice. Stress makes everything harder and the stress management techniques, help, but not as much as I'd like. Every,single,day I have to decide to fight the good fight and triumph. If I stumble a bit or even fall and tumble, I have to decide to quickly dust myself off and get back up.

I find more often than not I am hungry at night within an hour after dinner. I stop eating after dinner and even bone broth and tea don't always do the trick, especially in winter. I am truly grateful for that horrid bout of late night indigestion I had over the summer because the fear of waking up choking exceeds the fear of being hungry at night. That memory helps me stay the course.

I have figured out Fridays are often hardest. The cumulative effect of getting up so early and all the stress during the week hits me like a brick and by Friday, I am famished and grouchy. I stay diligent with my early morning walk. I save up ww points during the week to make up for some extra eating. I remind myself all will be rosier once I sleep in Saturday morning. I persevere or at least just ride the wave.

There are days it is easier, but they are fewer and far between this time of year. Once the weather gets much warmer, I will have easier days more often.

Recently, to keep the spark alive I have started viewing recipes on blogs and cooking insta-stories to find new ways to keep healthy eating satisfying. I also get inspired reading about people's fitness routines. This is really tough, but I am tougher. I remind myself that I expect my kids to take on challenges in order to grow. I must be a good role model and handle my own challenges with gusto not grumpiness. I also remind myself:

"The harder the struggle, the more glorious the triumph." Swami Sivananda
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    Totally agree--winter is hard in so many ways. And in your case, there's managing school-age children and a difficult older generation. I think you are doing great and will prevail!
    29 days ago
    I hate to get up in the morning! And then I feel behind all day when I oversleep
    30 days ago
    31 days ago
  • SPICY23
    Spring is coming. We know it. Less than 60 days now. We will make it. We WILL.

    Is there a way to import extra humor? How about firing up your cheering squad? As a good role model, explaining (in gentle terms) your own struggle to your kids and enlisting their support would show them that even strong, tough, Mom can use a helping hand. They may have some wonderful suggestions about how they 'grin and bear it'. Maybe develop a family icon for the 'beast' (grumbly enemy). An inside joke can bring people closer in difficult situations. I know you will find an amazing solution.
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    32 days ago
    I can't even imagine getting up that early anymore, although I suppose I did it back in the day. I used to be at work by 6:30 many mornings but that way I could leave before rush hour which I appreciated. I still get up reasonably early but don't ask me to leave this house before about 10 a.m.! I'm glad you are keeping up with things as well as you are. And yes, once spring gets here everything will seem so much better!
    32 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
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    32 days ago
    Winter and cold weather really make it tough. Eggs are my go-to. Egg whites for breakfast and hard boiled on my daily (almost daily) salad. DGD always asks, "Why do you eat so much salad?" I digress. Protein keeps me satisfied for a much longer period of time.

    I follow TAICHIDANCER's weekly posts. He practices Intermittent Fasting and I asked him how he deals with cooking aromas. He states that they don't bother him. I don't practice IF and the smell of food cooking makes my tummy rumbly (Winnie the Pooh). The same happens if I look through Spark recipes looking for a healthy change to our menu. It's my wish that I could give up food the way I gave up cigarettes. My educated guess is that IF is as close as I will get. With a family that requires regular meals, I don't see that happening. "Big sigh!"

    Hang in there, friend. Warmer days ahead...we can get outside for fresh air, more exercise, and a daily dose of vitamin D. emoticon

    32 days ago
    Oh good Lord... it is surely not easy! Keep pushing.
    You’re worth it!
    33 days ago
    No mistake about it . . . it is NOT easy. The one question I would ask is are you getting enough calories during the day? Does your breakfast contain protein -- and your lunch? That made a huge difference to me. I had the same problem. I'd be hungry about 1 hr. after supper. Sometimes I'd tough thru it, sometimes I'd have some almonds. I then realized that my body needed a few more calories during the day, then I was satisfied w/the supper (which is always a protein, veggie and salad.)

    And for sure, stress really amps up the appetite. That's a bugger!

    You'll find what works for you and KNOW you're not alone.

    33 days ago

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    Addictions are all hard to kick... give yourself a 'free day' once a week to have a treat. Maybe that will help. emoticon emoticon
    33 days ago
    No doubt about it..it is hard and sometimes to muster up enough "wanting to do it" is the hard part
    33 days ago
    yes every day is a struggle for every one you can do it
    33 days ago
    We all know this is not easy. We all struggle with our own issues. Stay strong. emoticon
    33 days ago
    No, you didn't make it sound "too easy." But your blog today makes it even clearer why you WILL triumph: cuz you got what it takes to make it. It is soooooo tough. But step by step you will make it. We will make it!
    Gonna get myself to the gym today in your honor!
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    33 days ago
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