Honestly, It's Tough!
Tuesday, January 21, 2020
I almost wonder if I made it sound too simple in my last blogpost. To be honest, lately, I struggle most days to keep on track. It's cold, so very miserably cold out. Waking up at 5:45am doesn't agree with me no matter how early I get into bed or what sleep hygiene methods I practice. Stress makes everything harder and the stress management techniques, help, but not as much as I'd like. Every,single,day I have to decide to fight the good fight and triumph. If I stumble a bit or even fall and tumble, I have to decide to quickly dust myself off and get back up.
I find more often than not I am hungry at night within an hour after dinner. I stop eating after dinner and even bone broth and tea don't always do the trick, especially in winter. I am truly grateful for that horrid bout of late night indigestion I had over the summer because the fear of waking up choking exceeds the fear of being hungry at night. That memory helps me stay the course.
I have figured out Fridays are often hardest. The cumulative effect of getting up so early and all the stress during the week hits me like a brick and by Friday, I am famished and grouchy. I stay diligent with my early morning walk. I save up ww points during the week to make up for some extra eating. I remind myself all will be rosier once I sleep in Saturday morning. I persevere or at least just ride the wave.
There are days it is easier, but they are fewer and far between this time of year. Once the weather gets much warmer, I will have easier days more often.
Recently, to keep the spark alive I have started viewing recipes on blogs and cooking insta-stories to find new ways to keep healthy eating satisfying. I also get inspired reading about people's fitness routines. This is really tough, but I am tougher. I remind myself that I expect my kids to take on challenges in order to grow. I must be a good role model and handle my own challenges with gusto not grumpiness. I also remind myself:
"The harder the struggle, the more glorious the triumph." Swami Sivananda