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Being Kind (girly stuff, guys beware)

Saturday, January 11, 2020

January in its short 11 days has been just as bipolar as this year's Michigan Winter. I have PCOS, for my entire 28 years of life I can count on one hand how many periods I've had. All of them because of medication induced it. Even with PCOS the chance of becoming pregnant is still there so I got an IUD. I've had one before and loved it. This round, however, sucks. Non-stop period.

I never went through this when I was younger and could complain about it with my friends who were going through the same thing. In fact, I was so out of the loop, I asked my mom one day while heading to the book store what was a period my friends kept talking about.

For the past 30 + days I have felt the gauntlet of mother nature. Drained, fatigue, freezing, starving, craving chocolate non-stop, and fibro fog like no other. On top of all of this, I'm hitting red tap after red tape for some of the projects I'm building for my job. Then I want to be healthier (and thinner would be great) but just those beginning stages of being healthy.

I was so hard on myself for eating over my calorie goals, for being too cold to go on a walk, for supplying and eating that supply twice of chocolates in my desk. Then letting get my anxiety get the best of me for anemic symptoms (My doctor already did a blood test yesterday). I felt this 2020 new year, new me, new whatever already fail even though it's only day 11.

But I weighed myself, my start over I know I just gained 20 pounds in a week, new weight. And I saw the number and about fell over, and not from the freezing, dizzy, anemic symptom fall over. I lost 8 pounds. Through eating fast food every day, eating chocolate, not walking, going home and crashing for 12 hours; I still did ok. More than ok.

It hit me this morning as I was anxious about this ice storm heading our way, going to work and driving back in this crazy Michigan winter. I need to be kind. Maybe this isn't my year of losing the weight or being 100% healthy. Maybe this isn't the year I can turn the shelter from almost bankrupt to a thriving community center. But this can be the day that I know I'm giving myself the 100% chance of just being in the moment.

Enjoying the trip, enjoying the ride, enjoying the moments and being kind.
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    You must have done something right to lose 8 pounds! That is really great! It is hard to focus on weight loss with so many other things going on but you must have done some things and now you can maybe just tweak a little more to keep it up. I like what you said about being kind. We never know what other people are going through and having someone be kind is such a blessing. emoticon
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    48 days ago
    That does sound like too much to handle but don’t give up on this new year. I like what you are doing and admire people who work for the community. Actually, you have inspired me on a bleak Toronto day, rain and ice to come !
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