Beating my biggest fear
Sunday, January 05, 2020
good morning- I have struggled with my program due to stress from family over the years. DH's former career, his adjustment to retirement, my adjustment to his retirement, my children - mostly my son with his PTSD issues, his marriage issues. My main concern has always been my grand children. I have not overeaten over the stress from my family for sometime. My DS has issues right now. I worry about my grand daughter and my DIL's mother. Neither my DIL nor my DS are not stable on various issues and various times. I have wanted to move away b/c of my family stress. I know it comes and goes, but I just can not take it any more. I do not want too. I have done enough for my family. It is my turn. I had a heart to heart with my DH yesterday. They are all so demanding. I told him I had enough. I go to a counselor to help me manage the stress. I am losing weight and working on keeping my health very good. I love to travel. I told my DH yesterday - shape up or ship out- I can travel alone with no problem. It finally dawns on him that he has problems adjusting - so he is going to work on it. Today it is calm and I am relaxed. I just turn off my phone and do not respond to my family on occasion. Many times they handle their own problems without me. That is how I like it. have a good day!!! I will.