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Marzipan candy and trash cans

Saturday, January 04, 2020

My boss gave me a beautiful box of chocolates for Christmas and my husband and I have been working our way through them over the holiday season. We're down to the last few and, horror upon horror, they're marzipan.

Marzipan isn't worth the calories. Marzipan isn't enjoyable. I'm not even sure the FDA considers marzipan food. I know I should throw it out.

Still, I feel guilty about wasting free candy. I'm worried that my boss will find out I didn't appreciate her gift and get offended. I'm worried that I'm going to crave candy later and there won't be any in my house.

I have spent years treating myself like a trash can - takeout I didn't love, leftovers that wouldn't keep, recipes that I botched, all down the hatch in the name of reducing waste. All this, at the expense of my expanding waist. But why?

I need to value myself more than the cost savings or social niceties of cleaning my plate. I'm 33, I'm not going to get sent to my room for not finishing dinner. And if I did, I would probably play Candy Crush and listen to true crime podcasts anyway.

As someone who spent her 20s in food insecurity, and her 30s (so far) with limited options due to celiac disease, I need to trust that there's better food out there for me to enjoy. It is not my responsibility to eat the food that no one else wants.

I am not a trash can.

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    34 days ago
    I'm lucky - our two kids (10 & 12) know the secret to eating chocolates - you always eat the square or rectangular ones. AND STAY AWAY FROM ROUND SHAPES!! Those are the red-headed step children of good chocolates and filled with crap that the chocolatier made as a result from losing a bet (or so I assume).

    "What's that round one? Oh that's our new banana and kimchi nougat."

    Anyway, so we let them pick first, leaving the ones filled with creams that are dirty-shag-carpet flavored. Then I don't want them.
    44 days ago
    Well said, I think a lot of us put food that should be in the trash into our bodies - waste not want not sort of thing - but only to realize that we are doing our body an injustice.

    Thanks for the insight
    45 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    The holidays are such a bad time for receiving candy that you wouldn't buy for yourself. My house s full of it. I am taking to my Religion class today and will send 20 2nd graders home on a sugar high! I will limit it to one piece. But I don't intend to eat it.
    45 days ago
    O.M.G yes I got them too and I so fell off the wagon the candy wasnt just candy it was the best and I just kept eating also other good things I'm glad it is gone and I can refocus and get my big butt in gear Here I go o
    46 days ago
    Well said! I could relate to when you were talking about your 20’s and 30’s fighting the food. I was always dieting but never really going anywhere. Here I am 68 and still working at it. Find the balance. 👌
    46 days ago
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