I want to quit.
I have been on this merry-go-round before and it has not been fun.
Lose 5 pounds and then gain 5 pounds ......... lose 5 pounds and then gain 6 or 7 pounds.
Yes, I do want to quit and just accept that I am going to be overweight .... I look "good enough",,,,,, I don't mind if I struggle to buckle my seat belt.... it is not the end of the world if I quit. Right?
Ugh .... WRONG! Wrong, wrong, wrong! My mind and logic tells me that I am cutting my chances of living a long and healthy life,,,,, I am hurting myself as the extra weight is hurting my chances of living healthy life. What do people want when they are at the end of their lives? More life, more time! That is exactly what I want ..... more time.
So as an "older mother" .... yes ,,,,in my 60s with a 21 year old...
..... I owe it to myself and to my kids to work harder at getting healthier now.
Frustration, I know what to do ........ but I don't do it. Why ? Why ? Why? Eat well /healthy and move/exercise. Why is it so hard to change my habits?
Losing weight is very difficult and not for the weak....... it is so difficult to "slip" and then say I am starting over tomorrow ..... it is hard to fail ........ ugh ,,, I hate to fail
But instead of beating myself up today......... I am going to learn from this....... and I am not going to quit and try to "start again"........ I already started and I have to just keep moving forward! It does me no good to beat myself up,,,, get mad at myself or try to somehow punish myself for gaining weight .............. I have to learn to be kind and understanding to myself ,,,, just like I am with others.
Fail I may do again,,,,, BUT I am moving forward with my Adventure and am NOT going to quit.