Capital A day?
Saturday, November 09, 2019
Firstly, thank you to everyone who wished me a capital A day today. If ever there was a day I needed it, it was today as I have weighed in very high for me, and I am quite frustrated about it.
I now have breakfast and lunch fairly under control. Also, I managed to get my 4-6pm snacking under control with the week before challenge of no unplanned eating. But I have gained weight.
I did not manage to get out jogging and, although my meals are much more planned, I have not been tracking my food this last week. (I walk to and from work for 30 minutes each day, so that kept me doing some exercise)
I was away for the weekend for a big family event, and had a huge deadline as well as my heaviest teaching schedule happen all at once. I also had a “could I be pregnant?” Late period, which left me feeling quite emotionally raw (I have blogged about this before) just before all of these other events.
I stuck with the Awesome A team and filling in my times, etc, because I really do not want to let the team down. But my heart is just not in it.
It is not working. Something inside me is just not getting the healthy life balance right. And I must be overeating somewhere. Or eating more calories than I should be for what my body needs right now. But the energy to track my calories is just not there. The energy to get things organised enough to exercise was also lacking. By the end of last weekend (after spilling wine and damaging the carpet if the guest house we were in) I had very little reserves left. My motivation is failing and the scale is reflecting this. How will I get this under control again?
I head out to Sweden for a work trip this week. Fortunately it is not a very busy trip and I may get a chance to rest. Then family arrives for holidays and birthdays. It is constantly busy. And I truly long to just stop and catch up with myself.