Sunday, November 03, 2019
Well everyday is a new beginning. This last week I made my walking goal everyday. Today I decided to let go a little in this blog. It seems I can only do 1 thing right at a time. Did my walking easy this week but ate a lot of junk. It seems if I do 1 thing right I sabotage my efforts. I keep thinking I must be doing this on purpose. If I eat right and lose weight then I don’t exercise. I sit, like I’m not suppose to lose weight. I know I’m worth it. I deserve it but there is always a but.... Why won’t I let myself? Lazy? I know get rid of junk. Get healthy food in place. I’ve done this and eating amount is more of a problem. I have like 2 meals a day. I don’t like breakfast so I have a shake. Then I go to work and on break if you call it that I have a healthy snack. Hard boiled egg, cheese, peanut butter and crackers. I have to have protein or blood sugar drops fast. Then I work and have lunch when I get home. That’s the second meal. It last til I go to bed. Supper is in there somewhere but I just keep grazing. If I take more in my car to eat during the day I do and then keep grazing. Last Christmas I was 25 lbs lighter. My doctor said I was to thin. I felt like that was the big ok to eat again. She was the only one who said that. But I guess if I am honest, I don’t know why I guess I don’t deserve to be thin.