There's no need to Hide and Numb!
Saturday, November 02, 2019
So much time and agony was wasted numbing myself with unhealthy food and trying to avoid confronting obstacles. So much time was wasted crashing from sugar, feeling terrible about myself and gaining weight. Did the obstacles run away while I was in a food coma? No, sometimes they just got bigger! Did I solve any problems while eating some blondie brownies? Nope, I just created more problems. Life is actually harder when I numb and avoid.
It's easier to face these challenges when well-nourished and exercising on a regular basis. Practice helps too. Each obstacle jumped creates a mental map that may need to be altered with each obstacle, but rarely needs to be rewritten completely. Each time an attempt at a solution goes horribly wrong, I learn from it and gain strength.
What am I afraid of? People being angry with me? Been there and I survived. Failing? Done it and it made me stronger. More setbacks? Been there and I still got through. Exhaustion? Had that many times, but somehow kept going. Feeling overwhelmed? Felt that so often, but moved forward.
One of the beautiful things about all the challenges we face is they can bring us closer as we share them with the right people. I never want to be seen as a whiner, but I never want people to think my life is perfect and carefree. When we find others facing similar challenges we sometimes bond and strengthen one another.
No more hiding and numbing. I am for facing and fighting/surviving/thriving. I like to imagine the old nearing-obesity-me crying in a corner and the new leaner, fitter and healthier me carving my way out and jogging forward ready to face things head on.