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Tuesday, April 02, 2019

Amazing lunch with DH today - Chickpea burger on greens

I haven't lost much this month and that is okay. Truly it is OKAY.... Read on about why.

Probably this will sound really weird. After all I'm sitting at 200 pounds and my goal is to lose another 30 for 2019.

But. But...

I'm really enjoying my body nowadays. I just like being IN this SKINSUIT. It isn't perfect by any means - isn't at my eventual goal weight, and there's some sag and bag, with all the defects a body has at age 55....


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emoticon First, it can MOVE. After carrying around 85 pounds for years, I can now jump and leap. I can run up the stairs. I can feel muscle. I see a waist.

Is it perfect? Nope.


I feel sexy - and making love is a new adventure again!

emoticon Second, I can wear clothes and feel SMART!

Is there room for improvement? Sure! And I'm looking forward to those improvements but for now I can wear clothes that makes me feel cute!

I don't feel like I have to wear a Wide Load sign on my backside.

I'm fitting L sized shirts for the most part. I can wear size 16 tight jeans and size 14 looser jeans. I can wear tights that show off shapely legs. I have a closet of clothes to pick from instead of clothes I used for hiding.

emoticon Third, I can DO STUFF!

I love my nature walks, my nature hikes. I don't have to worry about huffing and puffing. Being exhausted by the end of the day. Not being able to PARTICIPATE in the things I want to DO.

Is there more stuff I can't do? Sure! There are things on my wish list I still want to be achieve and that won't happen without losing more weight.

But for now I'm feeling great in this body. I love ALL that I've achieved.

I feel like I've been given a new life that better fits with the person I am inside. I'm living in a present doing the things I want to do and seeing a future where I can do even more.

emoticon Thoughts about the weight:

I've discovered that I can MAINTAIN right here if this is what I want. That takes about 1600-1700 calories.

If I want to have a gradual weight loss, I need to drop that to 1400-1500. This is do-able but right now I'm enjoying just eating again and not feeling FAT, nor being obsessed with every thing going down the hatch.

If I want a more rapid weight loss I have to drop this again to 1200-1400. And right now I just don't want to drop that low in calories. I enjoy food. I don't want to focus all the time on every 10 calories a bell pepper gives me.

emoticon DOCTOR UPDATE: emoticon

Just got back from my check up. They couldn't do my cholesterol because I hadn't fasted oops! So we'll do that in October when I come back in 6 months. I really want to see a BIG improvement in those numbers.

emoticon Blood pressure was impressive.

Back in January 2018 it clocked in at 139/78 which put me in hypertensive zone.

Today it was 118/72.

Why is this important? Because I've always had good blood pressure - so had my mother. But as she aged, the numbers started climbing and the answer was medication. I want to avoid going down that same road.

Doctor was very surprised - he thought I'd have to suck it up because of my aging arteries - hahaha NOPE.

emoticon Weight came in at 200 even with clothes, shoes and having had breakfast. So though my digital scale at home shows a morning weigh of 201.8 I'm pretty sure I'm around 200 in some form or another.

emoticon Turns out that pain I was having in my right leg is bursitis so I ended up getting a shot for that.

emoticon And it looks like my spin splints might be related to my Vitamin D issue. So they took blood.

He still wants my gallbladder in a little jar but I told him give it a year and see if I have another attack. If I do - he can have it.


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    I haven't been around much and am so happy to see this tonight. I can literally feel your joy. There is no one who deserves this more, you have worked so hard for every bit of it. I am so proud of you Becky.
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    Becky....I love everything about your Blog!!! Your attitude & your love for yourself is spot on..I feel so fortunate & blessed to have that love of yourself in my life..it's something I learned to do only a few years ago, & I understand those wonderful, undescribable, happy feelings you have..I relate & they are tremendous feelings. I am so proud of you!! Keep loving yourself girl, & choose to be happy about whatever you choose.
    Great news on the dr.'s visit, too!
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    655 days ago
    Congratulations! Someone finally noticed on Spark how awesome your blogs are! So well deserved! Maybe they finally read the email I sent! Lol!
    657 days ago
  • -POOKIE-
    Brilliant blog. Improved health is sometimes the forgotten result of weight loss in society focused on looks and weight!
    657 days ago
    I'm so happy for you. Your blog is an inspiration to keep on working toward our goals. One small goal at a time. Good job! emoticon
    658 days ago
    Good for you
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  • SUSIEQ14072
    So many NSV's in this post. A Big Congratulations to you. emoticon
    658 days ago
    Great story
    658 days ago
    Awesome good news on all fronts. Enjoy you!
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  • no profile photo GRAMPIAN
    Well done! emoticon
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  • no profile photo CD22994956
    Us that your chickpea burger from your favorite hipster place,,,lol??? Becky.....YOU are shimmering my Beautiful Friend!!! I LOVE it emoticon emoticon emoticon I just remembered us a year or so ago giggling like two teenagers over your Fantasy Closet Blog....do you remember that? emoticon Now you're up like a Sassy Sexy Boss Queen emoticon LIVING it..... emoticon Love You My Friend.....and celebrating ALL that you are TODAY emoticon emoticon
    658 days ago
    emoticon on the great doctor's appointment.
    My last appointment was with a new doctor since mine retired so I received a different reaction until I pointed out how much weight I had lost in 7 months (70 lbs per their charts) since my last visit. Her attitude changed after seeing the difference. My old doctor would have been so proud of me wish I would have done this while he was still practicing but I am so happy to be on the right path now.

    658 days ago
    emoticon What a great doctors appointment!! emoticon that you are living your best body now! Yes it is!! emoticon
    658 days ago
    I can feel your energy Becky 👍🥰. We are the worst for putting pressure on ourselves- so nice to see celebrations 🎉 and no rush! You are looking good and you are rocking this !
    658 days ago
  • LORI-K
    I 100% love everything about this blog!! You sound so happy and positive and I am so thrilled for you and your awesome SKINSUIT!! Live your best life in the here and now. Thanks so much for sharing.
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    emoticon I completely get you! Same wave length, for sure and same calorie requirements, To lose, maintain, oh, and same age, 55. We Rock, Bwahaha! emoticon I am so happy in my skin right now, and that is beautiful in and of itself.
    659 days ago
    Becky, I love the happiness that is jumping off the page. You have worked so hard to get to this moment! I am almost in tears of happiness for you reading your blog!! Hugs my dear friend!
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  • SPICY23
    emoticon emoticon Congratulations!
    Hard work shows! You are an Amazing Warrior Woman!

    Peace and Care
    659 days ago
  • no profile photo DRAGONFLY631
    So glad your health is improving. Congrats on a super positive outlook on life.
    659 days ago
    I truly love this blog. It's a joyous celebration of your current status and that is wonderful!!!! I'm kind of like that but yours is with a huge smile.....I feel it. Love that your blood pressure is so good! And I LOVE that the doctor was amazed. I am at 184 and have been for months and I am ecstatic that I can do so much more, live so much more fully. Yes I really want to drop some more cause I think it will be even better but YEA for where I am today. Thanks for the reminder to dance daily! Oh, I think your food is my dinner tonight, looks too good to not.

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    659 days ago
    Excellent checkup! Sounds like you are revelling in the joys of your "new body", super. Keep eating healthy choices, fill up with veggies and the weight will continue to drop slowly without making a huge effort. emoticon
    659 days ago
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