So What is My Goal For This Newly "Kneed" Body?
Tuesday, February 19, 2019
There was a question at the end of an insightful SP Blog I read today that really caused me pause. It asked my to post my "dream" for my newly reconfigured situation.
For many months (almost 2 years, actually), I have struggled with a considerable weight gain (45 lbs) from my long recover from a frustrating illness and two separate knee replacement surgeries. After having lost 210 lbs on SP and being an incredibly consistent exerciser, the self-perceived "block wall" I came up against (a combination of no longer being able to do the activities in which I was previously engaged, metabolism changes due to dealing with a long-term illness I was facing, and a very serious case of depression dealing with the issues I just addressed), I felt paralyzed. I needed to be challenged with the blogger's question.
My dream is to get back to where I was (both weight and fitness-wise) prior to becoming ill and getting both of my knees replaced. I need to do this with a level of consistency I had prior to these stated events in my life.
I have a wonderful partner whose strongest desire is to help me with this goal, but we both have physical challenges that we face and we are sometimes each other's obstacle due to pain levels and the desire to help each other on those days. Scaling is going to be the key for me. Learning and accepting my new body parameters and abilities is an important task with which I have struggled.
I have come to the conclusion that I need to be kind to myself and allow myself the freedom to go an exercise alone (which my partner encourages me to do when he cannot join me). I need to forgive myself on the days that don't go according to plan. I can do this. I have to allow myself that gift.