Wednesday, January 02, 2019
Yep, I kn ow it's January 2. Resolutions should have started yesterday. And you know what? I had every good intention to starting yesterday. But you know what else? The road to hell is paved with good intentions. I wasn't in the right frame of mind to start yesterday. It just wasn't going to happen. I would have been grumpy and moody all day (which I kinda was ANYWAY, but that's another story,) and I would have been resentful of starting this again.
"Again"......I realized how many times I have failed in the past. I mean, just look at my other blog entries: they are almost ALL about "starting over again!" and "this time it's going to happen!". Ugh. Yeah, I am a little cynical this time around. I don't have a whole lot of faith in myself. I know I'm going to mess up. But maybe that's what is really going to make this time different: that I'm not all gung ho at the start, that I know I'll mess up, and that it is ok to mess up. I don't know.
A lot has happened in the past year and a half. Some good. some really, REALLY bad. I really don't know if this will be THE time or not. But I'm not going to fake it anymore. I'm going to take it one day at a time. I'm going to try to blog a little bit more regularly: not that I expect massive amounts of readers, but as sort of a journal to myself. Sometimes they may be perky and quirky, sometimes they may be angry and full of self-pity. But I'm not going to fake it anymore.
I hope everyone's New Year is starting off they way they want! And I hope everyone's "this time" is "THE" time!!
Happy New Year!!