looking in my soul . some of my facts .
Saturday, September 22, 2018
ok we have had a what i would call a good marriage . we did not cheat on each other . we stayed together and lived life . right now its been over 15 years since he retired . work was his thing . he lived for work . He was good at work . He had many work friends . He knew what his job was and did it very well . when he retired he sort of lost that control . and control is something he must have at all times . control . when he was home all the time i guess he looked at my job as one he could do better . so slowly he took over all things . He thought he could do better . soon i was looked at like a unnecessary object . He thought in his head he could do it all . i am waiting i guess to see if he no longer wants to be together . but he treats me well except to act like i am his child to be ordered around like he is big daddy and little old me just can not do it . even though i did it for over 50 odd years .