Back at it...for the 3,678th time???
Saturday, September 01, 2018
So it's been a long time again, almost 2 years to be exact.
My little one is almost 2! I can't believe how time has flown.
So, long story short after my pregnancy, going back to work and stopping breastfeeding, I ended up back around my heaviest weight, 256 pounds!
Saying that I was not happy doesn't even get close to how I was really feeling. I was constantly in a bad mood, frustrated that I had no energy, wanted to workout and meal prep and all of the things that I knew I should be doing, but I just kept telling myself that I didn't have time and I didn't have the energy.
I went to the doctor for my normal checkup and he was very concerned. My blood sugar was higher than normal. It wasn't in the prediabetic range yet, but close and I had never been there before in my life. He suggested that I start weight watchers. So, I tried it. Everyone told me it was great and I would do amazing. Well, that is not what happened. I didn't track like I was supposed to, and when I did I omitted things because I knew they were bad.
My next try was an app called Noom. It was supposed to be easy and for people who didn't have time. It was marketed for millenials! I admit I am one, even though I am an old one, an Xennial. I started off doing well, reading through the assignments daily, then I fell off again. So, 2 programs that were supposed to be my savior, I failed at miserably.
That's when I found a doctor in San Antonio, (Elemental Weight Loss Clinic if you are in San Antonio and interested) that specialized in weight loss and health coaching. I was so scared to call that I waited 2 months! Why was I scared? I didn't want to fail again. I was so tired of everyone telling me that I could do it and then showing them that I couldn't.
But, I finally got over it and just made the call. I met with the health coach the first appointment and she told me about the program. It was expensive (of course) but your meals are all paid for and it is fool proof. Of course, I thought to myself, so are all of the others, and they didn't work either. Also, the daily calorie intake was lower than what I had always been told was safe. I didn't want to wreck my metabolism, right? All of these doubts and I still decided to take the chance.
So, 3 months down and I am 40 pounds lighter. I feel so much better, I have no more knee pain. I am not tired all of the time. I can't even begin to describe all of the positive things that have happened in my life.
Over these past 3 months, I have had a lot of time to evaluate (but I didn't have any time before right???) how I let myself get back to that point and all of the things that I was telling myself to justify it. I could blog forever about them and I plan on doing separate ones for each topic that has helped me in the last 3 months, but for now I am done. Time to go to the gym!