Friday, August 17, 2018
Here's the deal. I have three children, who are all adults. My eldest is a 37 year old, mother of three biological children and two stepchildren. She is in a gay relationship and has fostered her middle son's desire to be a girl. He / she is only 12 years old. My daughter suffered from severe postpartum depression after the birth of her third child. She subsequently tried to commit suicide when the baby was only for 5 months old. At that point I ended up spending a month with their family in another state and bringing home the two older boys to stay with my husband and I here in Wisconsin. My daughter went through over 50 electroconvulsive therapy is, multiple tries at medication and of course psychological counseling. After the two older boys lived with me for 3 months I took them back to their parents and I ended up living with them for 3 months, taking care of the entire family. I cook the meals, did the laundry, drove my daughter over an hour three times a week for therapy and gave everything I had 2 help her get better. After my daughter and her family moved back to Wisconsin, about a year later she and her husband cut me off from having any contact with any of them. They never did explain to me what I had done to deserve to be treated that way. That was several years ago. And the last couple of years I've been allowed to see my daughter and her children briefly three or four times.
Recently I tried to see my daughter in the children for a short visit and she agreed it first and then changed her mind because I had shared an article on Facebook about hormone therapy for transgender children being a form of child abuse. I had had enough of being treated like a pariah and I told my daughter that I did not agree that a child should be given hormone therapy. No response from her. Earlier this week I sent my daughter a message telling her that I loved her and her family regardless of the fact that we don't agree on specific issues. I also reminded her that God loves her and that she is a child of God and a part of the family of God because she accepted Christ as a child. Today I discovered that she has completely and totally blocked me on Facebook and messenger. Meaning that I can't search for her to even send her a message. I don't typically allow this situation to hold me down and cause me to be so sad, but today I'm missing my grandson's greatly and I am morning the years of loss from not being able to be a part of their lives. When all of this began 10 years ago God told me that it would be okay, but he didn't tell me if it would be okay this side of heaven or not. Thank you to my spark family for allowing me to share this part of my life, which has played a big part in my being overweight and not caring about my health.