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Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Wow, has it been that long?

Short recap...
Had baby Isaac Apr 2017 at 38wk 1d. He surprised us all and his lungs weren't ready. 28 day NICU stay and came home on oxygen for a few weeks. Nursed and worked full time until baby turned 1... the day after he turned 1 I herniated my back. Horrible sciatic pain. Numb down the outside of my leg below the knee, around my ankle, my big toe and ball of my foot. Stopped nursing, took steroids, couldn't get in to neurologist til end of June, then got rescheduled. JUST saw him last week. At this point I just ache and have problems getting my right shoe on. Nothing like when it started, but not 100%. Trying to do physical therapy. Waiting on insurance. Trying to schedule around work.

Long time coworker left end of June. Short notice. Now short staffed in our tiny office. Waiting for new hire to start next week. Stressssss.

We did go to the diamond mine for a family vacation in May. And DH and I went to Florida earlier this month for his conference and a kid-free vacation. Happy 15th anniversary :-)

We started homeschool a couple weeks ago. Mostly math. Started him off in saxon 76 and now we've bumped him up to Algebra 1/2. The rest of the stuff... still figuring it out. Seriously doubting this decision this week. I haven't sent our withdrawal letter yet... but I don't think our public school is the best option for him. February 2018 was fun... still debating whether we should file a complaint against the school with that whole episode, but it's probably too late now. And my super smart 12yr old barely passed English and Science. And they weren't following his 504 plan. And... I know he needs something different, and I have such high hopes for the things we could do with homeschooling... but I doubt my ability to follow through (and the ability of the grandparents to follow through while I work) to actually have a meaningful school year. I'm afraid we'll do him more harm than good and I'm scared.

And I can't focus on work. And my house is a disaster. And I feel like I'm trying to dig out of a deep hole that keeps caving in. Overwhelmed. I guess I just needed someplace to get things off my chest.
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    918 days ago
    There are homeschool parent groups that might be able to help.

    Glad you are feeling better.
    940 days ago
    WHOA! I'm glad you vented here. You have to let that all out, there's so much on your plate.

    Do you have someone objective to talk to, bounce ideas off of, someone who knows about homeschooling to help guide you?

    I'll be thinking of you and hoping you get a few minutes here and there to just sit quietly and breathe to relieve some stress. I never thought I'd be the type of person to get into yoga and meditation but since I've been sticking to it regularly, it's getting easier and I've been able to talk myself down on many occasion.

    940 days ago
    Nice to see you again. Sorry for the challenges you faced, but happy your baby is well now. Is private school an option for your son? I understand bad education. CA spends some of the highest dollars for education, and ranks around 49th. Awful. Spends most of the money on fat pensions and salaries.
    941 days ago
    Praying it gets better.
    941 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    941 days ago
    Hope it gets better
    941 days ago
    Hugs! Breathe. We homeschooled amongst health & other issues also. Realize that life is full of educational experiences & take advantage of normal life lessons as well as books. Desire to do what is best for your child is the most important step.
    941 days ago
    I totally understand My life is a wreck and I feel depressed a lot now days. This is a good place to get support.
    941 days ago
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