Saturday, April 14, 2018
Well it is only Day 10. I feel that I have been cutting back on calories and tracking. I thought I could do this, but now I am beginning to doubt myself. I feel like I may be too far gone to be able to do this. I want to make this a lifestyle change and so I have been tracking what I eat but not worrying too much about the "what" I eat. I certainly have cut back on sugar, and try to with fat. I have cut back on my night time eating (which has been where I could really double or perhaps triple my calorie count of everything I ate throughout the day) So, I finally decided to brave it and get on the scale. So disappointed that it was only 1 pound. I fear that I have dieted too often and now my body won't respond. I know I need to up my activity level but pain keeps me from a lot of activities...I know pain would subside a bit with weightloss but I don't know what to do to increase activity (an activity that I enjoy enough to continue to do for the rest of my life). I am not too stationary most days, I am walking while I am running errands, cleaning, etc. but it isn't enough. I have no money to spend on a gym membership and I probably wouldn't go anyway. I am almost 60 and I just don't know if I can do it. I am not quitting yet, but I really don't know if I will ever be able to have a before and after picture. I have tried for the last 35 years... really don't know if I have it in me. But I won't give up. Eating well must be helpful, even if I never lose any weight. Just wish I would. Sigh... NOT giving up...not yet anyway. Just had to put my thoughts out there. I am discouraged.