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Surviving the Days without them

Monday, April 02, 2018

I managed to survive the weekend.

I'm not going to say it was easy. I did make the effort to celebrate Sara's birthday, and I did overeat a lot, and I made it through. I visited the cemetery, I got lunch, I got a massage, I got dinner, I came home, I got cake and ice cream.

Sunday was a day of exhaustion, tears, and more overeating. It was about banishing horrible thoughts and memories. It sucked.

But I survived. And today was a little better.
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  • PICKIE98
    I agree with Nancypat: Check out survivors teams and that one in particular.
    even if you connect with only one person there, you have a hand in your hand, a connection with somebody.
    As long as you wish, remember that you have a hand on your shoulder here. Every single member of Sparks is at your disposal, that means a few million people there, always ready to share a kind word or story. Or just listen...
    Linda
    930 days ago
  • RAINBOWFALLS
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    932 days ago
  • WATREKKIE
    Getting through the day is huge - good for you, sweetie. Please know that we all send love and prayers.
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    933 days ago
  • LIVEDAILY
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    934 days ago
  • NELLJONES
    I hope your pain eases soon. emoticon
    934 days ago
  • DESERTDREAMERS
    Bless your heart
    934 days ago
  • TIKITAMI

    There are no words I can post that will express my wish to help you through this. I am glad you are going through grief counselling and that you are writing out your thoughts. I'll be thinking of you and your beautiful daughters.

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    934 days ago
  • BLESSEDBEING
    The first year, with all those firsts--birthdays and holidays--can be incredibly hard. Please make plans ahead to nurture yourself on those days. How can I support you on your first Mother's Day? How would your angels like you to observe it? Connecting with your mom? Honoring them in some way? Sending lots of virtual hugs and love your way.
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    934 days ago
  • NANCYPAT1
    Hugs, and deep sympathy for your sadness this holiday. Do you know about the Lost a Loved One team. It is a supportive and kind group on here that provide a place to vent, cry and share special memories. I have found it very useful and even though my son has been gone for 11.5 years, I still have moments and days where all I can do is cry - the team understands and supports each other when those times occur. By the way, his sickness is NOT your fault and there is nothing you could have done about it. Having said that, it does get better over the years but the memories and pain never quite go away.
    934 days ago
  • LINDA!
    I am so sorry. emoticon
    934 days ago
  • SPARK_COACH_JEN
    I'm sorry to hear you're going through a rough time. If there's anything we can do to help, please let us know.

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    Coach Jen
    934 days ago
  • TJLANGHAM87
    God bless you may days to come be better
    934 days ago
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