Binge Eating Issues, again, but it will be different this time.
Saturday, February 17, 2018
This is a little difficult for me to type, but to acknowledge my mistake forces me to own my bad decisions. Over the last couple of weeks I've gone back to poor food decisions and a considerable amount of binge eating. I'm up some 19 pounds as I step on the scales this week. Oh I knew my clothing was starting to get a little tight, so I'm not shocked in the least. "If you do what you've always done, you will get what you have always got." Poor English perhaps, but accurate. Well this time I'm not going to do what I've always done, admit defeat and put 110 pounds back on. What have I changed? For the first time in my life I'm seeking professional help for binge episodes. We talked at length about my adoption and my early years. I suppose that after some 50 years I face my feelings related to my early childhood. Forgive the length of this post, as I'm basically venting in public so as to not internalize my pain of poor decisions, and make even more bad decisions to sooth that pain.