Saturday, December 16, 2017
Well today I went shopping for new bras. I am pretty big on top so it is always quite a job to find something that fits and also looks good. Decided well I was there to grab a couple tops to work out in. Now I always go big and baggy as I guess I am trying to hide myself behind big clothes. The ladies there talked me into going a size smaller and said I looked better. Blue jeans were on sale. I cannot remember the last time I wore blue jeans without an elastic waist but they helped me find a size that fit me and I was ok with the look and feel. They said they thought it was great that I was going outside my box. I was trying not to look so overwhelmed as I checked out with 2 bras, 3 tops, and 2 blue jeans.
My husband was waiting in the parking lot and when I got in the pickup I just started to cry. The stress of shopping was just too much for me. He said he was prepared for me to be in a bad mood as I usually am after trying on clothes but felt bad that I was crying. I pray that someday I can go shopping and be comfortable with my size and how I look.