Absence of love (this came out in English, hope is understandable)
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Yesterday was a tought day, all parts of my body ache!
Exercised a lot last monday, so It was good pain
I also felt sad, but it had to do with a girl who committed suicide and no one around her seems to understand what really feels a persona when it's depressed.-
Yo may say it makes you feel ashamed, but it's not the real reason for deppression. Not even economy. At least, in my case, is the feeling the people you love the most or you admire the most, seems to not feel the same way about you, or even hate you.
It feels so empty to see no one wants to even listen to you. You can get mad, sad or even say "well, I'll try to have another perspective, maybe I'm doing something wrong, I'll try to adapt to other ways, maybe that way I'll have friends, I'll feel loved".
But no, the reality is you have to be loved just the way you are, and if you're not, then you have to shut the door and know that maybe you'll find yourself completely alone, because when you go away, when you isolate yourself, it could happen you find yourself not receiving any calls, not having anyone caring about you. It hurts. If you had people around you that you thought loved you, and then you realized they don't, it's dangerous
So I really think people who want to take their lives away are victims of their environment, of those around them who don't see that person for who he or she really is.
Don't fight for being loved. If you find yourself alone, and find few people are there for you when you feel really down, don't think it is because of something you've done. Life doesn't play the game that way. Just learn to love yourself, treat yourself as if you were your best friend, you take care of yourself, no one will do that for tou. Don't have any expectations, people is what it is, God never gives up on you, so don't give up on yourself.