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Thursday, November 16, 2017

Day 35 is a weigh in day. I weigh myself nearly every day and am content with where I am. Typically I have about a 4-5 pound range now where I am happy. I have learned that I don't have to eat all day long and have plenty of activities that keep me moving and/or busy so I don't want to eat.

Day 36 is "Believe it!" This is an interesting one. When I first joined SP, I was able to lose the weight I wanted to lose. We moved and I commuted weekends to my home 4 hours away for almost 4 months and maintained my weight, but when our house sold and DH joined me, I started to gain. I didn't gain as much but I remember being surprised about 9 months later that I had gained as much as I had. My scale was lying to me!

I kicked back into all of my SP strategies and dropped back to where I was fairly quickly. I have since lost even more and am about 10-12 pounds below the SP targeted goal. I'm happy with where I am. The truth is, though, that I don't see myself as I am. Oh, I can look in the mirror and see that I am thin, but if someone says something, I have difficulty comprehending. I still see myself most of the time about 20-25 pounds heavier. I can't understand why that is, but it is. My clothes are baggy, even the skinny clothes I bought after I lost the extra pounds, butI don't always trust it. I am working on that mindset.

So what about stress. Honestly, I think I am one who thrives on stress as it relates to my work, for example. I have always been really good at time management and even taught others. My reports at work were always completed within 24-48 hours tops, despite the fact we had much longer to get it done. I usually had the done the day of the evaluations. My stress comes from home. When DH comes with a problem and he won't allow me to help solve it (that's a man for you), his stress creates my stress. I have learned to ask if there's something I can do, just acknowledge his concern or find something else to do if I feel my BP rising. I sure don't need anyone else's stress and if I can't help solve it, I need to walk away/let it go. As I have said, his filter is far different from mine. For example, he noticed today the neighbors putting mattress on one of the cars and immediately jumped to the idea that they were going to separate. Watching the couple, that is highly unlikely. They are probably take the mattress to someone else. It does look as though they are packing for a weekend away (maybe Thanksgiving), but I doubt very much they are separating. I acknowledge his idea, but don't buy into it. I say nothing, or it increases his stress and he feels as though he has to defend. Let it go.

Many of my friends contact me with their stressors (with gray hair there is wisdom??). I will pray for them but won't get roped into their stressors. Let it go. Breathe. That's how I manage!!
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    We are both readers--- so good!--- Lynda
    1200 days ago
    Good blog!
    1201 days ago
    Excellent blog!
    1201 days ago
    I can relate, it takes a long time to get used to new body weight... but it happens!

    I remember, when I was 8 months pregnant, I was still wondering if people can see it ; )
    because I didn't feel much different than before... of course everyone could see that huge belly ; )
    1201 days ago
    I have to concur with the comments shared by ONEKIDSMOM.

    Keep breathing and letting it go. You're doing great!
    1201 days ago
    So true when you're the one people vent their troubles to, you have to "let it go", not try to live their lives or solve their problems! Advice is one thing, but borrowing their troubles? Not what you want. emoticon
    1201 days ago
    That is so wonderful what are some of your SP strategies?
    1201 days ago
    I can identify with your comments about not comprehending the reality of where you are weight wise. I lost 93 lbs over a year. I felt really skinny for awhile but as I started to settle in to my new body and gained a bit -- that was expected as I was coming off a low carb diet and was told I would gain 5-10 lbs. But when I gained the weight, I realized that I starting feeling fat. And guess what? When you feel fat, you start acting fat. I guess I didn't realize that keeping the weight off was going to be harder than losing the weight.

    And my old age has taught me that I don't worry about what might happen -- I try very hard (some days are better than others) to not jump to that very worst assumption!!!!

    Thank you for your blog!
    1201 days ago
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